Jelly and Underwater Bathtime!

Guess who made itn back home to the Netherlands?? That's right, me... Guess who doesn't really want to be here in the Netherlands?? If you guessed me, then well done you're also right! Honestly it's always hard to leave my parents and the family home that I grew up in but this time was the worst yet... I've been hinting about my mum being sick, and well, it is actually much worse than I thought. I'm not sure how long we will have left with her and honestly the news has broken me into a million little pieces and I'm warning you now I may not be my usual random, bubbly self for a while... Please forgive me... Please bear with me... Please don't give up on me if I'm sporadic or depressing...
Anyway, for now, it's Sunday Night, and as always that means it's bathnight... 

I decided that I needed to do something to cheer myself up and it was to take my bath somewhere fun... I discovered the Underwater Bathroom - a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - and while the water and bubbles were lovely. It was soothing and comforting and when I dared look up through the window, I came face to face with some adorable little Jellyfish Companions - which are a MishMish release for June's Kustom9 Event, that still runs until July 10th - who were dancing around in the bubbles... 
It didn't really help my mood, and although I wanted to enjoy their cute little hijinks, even though it did marginally help, the tears are yet to stop flowing... As I said, please bear with me... I will be OK soon... I think...

What is she wearing;
Hair: ARGRACE - SHIMIZU in Reds
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Tears: Izzie's - Little Tears, Izzie's - Smeared Mascara in Smokey Tears & KitCat - Constella Tears
Bubbles on Body: MIWAS - Bubble on me in White
Soap: KitCat - Soapy in Bar Soap Decor
Pose: FOXCITY - Milk Bath, Pose 5
Jellyfish: MishMish - Jellyfish Companion (Available until July 10th at Kustom9)
Floating Bubbles: Half-Deer - Bubbles
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Underwater Bathroom {360} Backdrop

Send in the Clowns

You know how you can tell when I have days normally, because my pictures tend to be a little more of the crazy and wild and adventurous. I have had such a productive day today and managed to take so many pictures so that I am prepared and ready whenever the blogging desire takes me... 
Today was a special day, I started putting things on and randomly... BOOM I was lost in a magical world of wonder, chaos and entertainment... Today, somehow I ended up being swept away to the Circus... 

I know it's weird but I always end up thinking of horror when I think of the circus, I guess it's something to do with IT and a dislike of clowns but then again there is another side to the circus that is sparkle and glamour and glitz... The tight-rope walker, the lion tamer, the trapeeze artist and the ringmaster, it's not all creepy clowns and horrible pranks... 
So today I'm in the Big Top - which is a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - trying to decide if I want to go down my usual route of a horror circus with the Circus Rot clown twins, or head to somewhere sparkly for a carnival style celebration... 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Moon Amore - Circus in Insane HAT Coal
Hair: Dura - U136 in ALL COLORS
Spiral Eye: A.D.D.Andel! - Spiraling Down Eye Overlay
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Nose: KitCat - JoJo The Clown in Nose Red
Make-Up: Spookshow - Build A Clown
Ruffle Neck: KitCat - JoJo The Clown in Ruffle Neck
Top: AsteroidBox - Aimee Top in Fatpack (Available until April 8th at Equal10)
Pose & Lollipop Prop: [piXit] - Bang, Pose F1
Circus Clowns: Remarkable Oblivion - Circus Rot in Chubbs & Yoyo RARE (No Longer Available!)
Head: Soy - Abandoned Memorys in Head
Balloons: Remarkable Oblivion - Circus Rot in Balloon Party (No Longer Available!)
Other Circus Decor: MadPea - Cirque de Folie in Fire Ring, Cannon, Unicycle & Bottle Toss
Ball Game: HIDEKI - Ballgame
Clown Gate: ANTINATURAL[+] - Carnival Freaks in Coulrophobia Gate (No Longer Available!)
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - The Big Top {360} Backdrop

A Weekend with the Class Pet!

As it's the weekend, many people have the next two days off...I've been working Saturdays in the cheese shop for  while so I am not one of them but come Sunday I can relax a bit or at least not have to go to work anyway LOL... Relaxing won't happen until we move into the flat for a few months... 
As a kid I ALWAYS loved when the school bell rung on Friday afternoon and it meant we had two days without school. There was always one thing that I'd heard about with friends in other schools though that we never had the experience of... Someone always had the luck of being able to take home the class pet... 

One of my friends even got to bring her class rat home once, I don't think that her mother was too pleased at having a rat in the house over the half-term holidays but it was fun to be able to see it for a while... SO in homage to that I decided that this weekend I'd be the one to bring the class pet home, since I was always a teacher's pet I think I deserve the treat don't you? 
I've packed up all my school supplies and I'm ready to head home, but I cannot forget to collect B-Rat-nee Spears - who is a Button Ears Dumbo Rat from Aardvark at the current round of ACCESS until February 8th - and I'm all set to go home!!! 

What is she wearing;
Mouse: Aardvark - Button Ears Dumbo Rat (Available until February 8th at Access)
Hair: [monso] - Sonico Hair in Black & Red
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Choker: Can't Even - Pacifier Choker in Black (No Longer Available!)
Glasses: KitCat - Kitty Contact Case & Solution in Glasses
Jacket/Sweater/Top: (fashionably dead) - Layered Jacket in Charcoal
Notebook: hive - Study Buddy
Bracelets: Kibitz - Jelly Bangles
Jeans: Mug - Jaida Jeans in Light
Pose: FOXCITY - Bae, Pose 2
Bag: Tentacio - School Day Bag
Crayons: R(S)W - Crayons
Backdrop: K&S - // High Love Chemistry Class. Backdrop

She's a Rein... Deer...

Another day in the festive period, another Christmassy look to try and find that festive feeling that I am craving so much... Of course I'm going to approach this in my way and there MAY be a little more of the darker, twisted Krampus side to some of my Christmas looks this year, but that's never a bad thing... A little darkness never hurt anyone, right?! 

Today we're doing some snooping around at Santa's place. There is a HUGE amount of rooms here, some with more Christmas decor than others, but you never know who you will meet as you wander the halls... 
We have bumped into someone who is a little bit of a superstar around here, she's one of the super 9, one of Santa's reindeer... Her name is Vixen for a reason, she's a kinky little deer but she's one of Santa's favourites at the North Pole... 

What is she wearing;
Antlers: Tentacio - Nuit Antlers in Black
Ears: STOIC x HAZEL - REINDEER EARS
Hair: Wasabi - Bubble Up Hair in Offbeat
Deer Make-Up: KitCat - Deer Antlers + Makeup (No Longer Available!)
Muzzle: random.Matter - Zakei Muzzle
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Collar: AsteroidBox - Maggie Collar & Armbands (Available until December 10th at kustom9)
Top: AsteroidBox - Maggie Top (Available until December 10th at kustom9)
Jacket: villena -  Happy Holidays ! Santa Fur Jackets! (No Longer Available!)
Bells: AsteroidBox - Jubal Hand Chain Bells in Gold
Shorts & Suspenders: miss chelsea - Veya Set in Shorts
Pose: FOXCITY - Madam, Pose 4m
Throne: Remarkable Oblivion - Danse Macabre Throne RARE (No Longer Available!)
Trees: dust bunny - Alpine Christmas Tree
Gifts: DaD - Pile of Christmas Presents & Santa Claus Sacks
Backdrop: PALETO.Backdrop - PRAY IV

Enchanting Little Mushrooms

Today has been crap but tomorrow is my day off so I'll be able to take things a little easier for a change. I'm going to spend the day relaxing doing not a lot and reading a lot more... I don't want to think about anything, I just want to turn my brain off and not have to deal with people or things... A fantasy world is the place I need to be... 

I'll keep it short and sweet today because frankly I am already falling asleep. Its making me see things that aren't real... Pretty fantasy things like the inhabitants of Elderbloom Courtyard - a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - where the mushroom folk live happily... The Enya Antlered - a set of antlers released by Faunus at the current round of Enchantment Frostbitten - adorning her pretty little mushroom head, and her adorable little Mushy Mush Head companions - from Tardfish - are the most fun, happy, Autumn spirits to watch while I drift off to sleep... 

What is she wearing;
Horns: [Faunus] - Enya Antlers (Available until November 30th at Enchantment: Frostbitten)
Hat: katat0nik - Mushroom Hat in Red
Hair: Exile -  Widow
Face Make-up: Ladybird - Mushroom Head
Neck Ruffle: KitCat - JoJo The Clown Ruffle Neck
Neck Ring: LODE Collar - Musha in Light Brown
Wings: Doe - Nymph Wings 01
Skin: Wyrd - Saga in Leaf (No Longer Available!)
Body Paint: [Faunus] - FOREST DEMON Body Wood
Dress: [Faunus] - Eladrin Dress
Pose & Prop: -Extra- - Autumnal, Pose 1
Friends: Tardfish - Mushy Mush Heads
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Elderbloom Courtyard Backdrop

Here come the Clowns...

I have said before that there are various things I require every Halloween for it to feel like a good Halloween... One of those was spiders, another of those happens to be clowns... I know that some people HATE clows, and I am of the opinion that so long as they aren't the type to lurk on street corners and threaten to kill me I can just ignore them... For me though, the Halloween spookies wouldn't be the same without a trip to see the clowns... 

At the circus of Forgotten Laughs - which happens to be a backdrop by The Bearded Guy - where the clowns are somewhat familiar - mostly because they are some of my favourite toys in my inventory to play with every year - but more than a little creepy looking, they have a new female face this year... 
She's one of the Insane Harlequinn types, dressed in the Natalie - a gorgeous combination outfit that comes from AsteroidBox but sold separately, the top and jacket at Equal10 and the pants at Collabor88 - leather set that is both comfortable and easy clean when she assists the other clowns in their murder spree... 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Moon Amore - Circus in Insane Hat Coal
Hair: MAJESTY - Lunette hair FATPACK (Edited by me to remove the hat! Sorry!)
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Make-Up: Skoll - Hell Circus in 07 Final Boss Clown CRIMSON (No Longer Available!)
Third Eye: random.Matter - Cygla Third Eye in Blind RARE
Mask: katat0nik & Clemmm - Gas Mask in Clown
Ruffle Collar: KitCat - JoJo The Clown Ruffle Neck
Jacket & Tank Top: AsteroidBox - Natalie Jacket (Available until November 5th at Equal10)
Pants: AsteroidBox - Natalie Pants (Available until November 6th at Collabor88)
Pose & Card Prop: [piXit] - Queen of Cups, Pose F3
Clowns: Remarkable Oblivion - Circus Rot Gacha Items in Chubbs RARE, Peepo RARE & Yoyo RARE (No Longer Available!)
Circus Decor: ANTINATURAL[+] - Carnival Freaks Gacha Items (No Longer Available!)
Backdrop: The Bearded Guy - Forgotten Laughs Backdrop

Bloomin' Lubberly Bubbley!

I had to go into work today, it was a MUCH shorter day than normal but still it was supposed to be my day off and I was so ready to have a lazy day off... YET the world doesn't want me to relax and even though the weather today was atrocious I got ready and went into work like a good girl...

What I'd really wanted to do was stay home, relax, read my book and maybe even take a long hot shower, since I don't have a bath at home and I'm gonna admit that I'm sad about that... 
I miss being able to have a bath, I miss sitting in the hot bubbly water feeling like I'm a lobster boiling in a cooking pot... I used to hat baths, and when I was a teenager I'd always shower before I even thought about sitting in a bath because who wanted to sit in their dirty soup right? 
Now I'm craving having a bath... 

What is she wearing;
Hair Bubbles: katat0nik - Bubble Bath Wig
Hair: ARGRACE - CHIZURU in Reds
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Tongue: Boutique #187 - Duck Tongue (Available until October 1st at AMSTERDAM Event)
Bodysuit & Bubbles: Analogic - Bubble Set FATPACK
Extra Worn Bubbles: MIWAS - Bubble on me
Puff: Lyrium - Shower Loofah
Soap: KitCat - Soapy
Pose: -Extra- - Tiny Tides (Part of a Pose for adult & kid avis)
Toy Duck: KitCat - Soapy Duck in Yellow
Backdrop: Paparazzi - Luxury Bath 2

Showtime for the Clowns

I had a day off today, and it was MUCHLY needed because I've been working all weekend. I am tired and sore and grumpy, and the weather is taking a VERY hot turn this week I AM NOT AMUSED... We don't have long until it reaches the brrr months, so why is it getting so hot... Stupid weather... 
I NEEDED something to distract me, I've been clowning around at work dealing with clowns and so today I want to do something totally different... 
Instead I ended up getting more than a little excited about Halloween, and well... Clowning around... 

Feeling like being a cute little clown because who doesn't love being a clown around Halloween... I don't really like clowns but I don't think I'll ever get through a Halloween season without dressing as one for sure... 
I set up a little tester to see how things would go when I put on a little crazy show... I set up the Hypno Wheels - from Krescendo for FETISH FAIR - and then the camera on a stand, I was a dancing little clown trying to see if I could hypnotize people into giving me all of their candies... I knew my clown outfit was a little sexier than planned but I cobbled it together without much planning... It was amazing that things matched so well... Almost like the Avril Arm and Leg Warmers - sold separately from PSYCHO.Byts - were made to wear with the striped colour pattern of the Ways Bra and Shorts set - from AsteroidBox, available at August 12th at ACCESS - and I LOVE THE WAY THEY LOOK... I think I'll be dressing like this for a while longer, Halloween is coming, and I deserve to be aowed to start prepping for it.. 

What is she wearing;
Hat: KitCat - JoJo The Clown in Black
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Gelato in Redhead
Make-Up: Skoll - Hell Circus 07 Final Boss Clown in CRIMSON (No Longer Available!)
Mask: katat0nik & Clemmm - Gas Mask in Clown
Collar: random.Matter - Cermet Collar in Do Not Feed Yellow
Necklace: AsteroidBox - Ayla Necklace
Gloves: PSYCHO:Byts - Avril Arm Warmers
Outfit (Bra Top, Shorts & Stockings): AsteroidBox - Walys Bra & Shorts (Available until September 8th at equal10)
Boots: PSYCHO:Byts - Avril Leg Warmers
Pose: [piXit] - Dana, Pose F7
Wheels: [Krescendo] - Hypno Wheel (Available until August 7th at FETISH FAIR)
Camera & Backing Light Screens: [Krescendo] - Hot Tub Streamer in Divider & Camera
Signs: [Krescendo] - Showtime Sign in Red
Backdrop: K&S - // Photobooth with drapery

Trick or Treating for Pennies

 HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! The day of the darkest magic has finaly arrived and there is so much fun to be had... I'll admit to you now that this October has been a whole lot less Halloweeny than years gone by, and even though it feels like I've done a lot less Halloweeny stuff this year I'm kinda happy to just be able to relax and enjoy the chill in the air... 

I spent a long time trying to work out what I wanted to be this year for Halloween... I finally got my Hop(e) on - which also happens to be the name of the backdrop from K&S - and realised that posing in the sewer there was one character I had to be... The sewer seemed far too full of trash, and even the tentacle monster that dwells in the dark wants to escape... 
What kinda Halloween spooky lives in the sewer you might ask? For those of you that appreciate a good horror movie, there's only one real answer... I'm dressing all cute and evil clowish, I'm going to get my IT on... 
One of my store obsessions, Mug, made the perfectly girlie version of Pennywise's outfit - appropriately called Penny, and available until November 10th at Kustom9 - and with the addition of a little make-up to look a little Scherzo - in a make-up that is a Hunt Gift from Fallen Gods Inc, at the soon to shut Trick or Treat Lane - and my clowning around was ready... 

What is she wearing;
Hat: KitCat - JoJo The Clown in Black Hat
Hair: Lamb - Switchblade in Red Pack
Face Paint: Fallen Gods Inc - Scherzo, Pennywise Ed (Hunt Gift Available until October 31st at Trick or Treat Lane)
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Neck Clown Paint: Skoll - Hell Circus in 07 Final Boss Clown CRIMSON (No Longer Available!)
Tentacle Marks: Axix - Tentacle Body Marks
Body Blood: Izzie's - Face & Body Blood & Wounds
Top & Collar: Mug - Penny Corset in White (Available until November 10th at Kustom9)
Balloon & Boat: Dots - Evil Clown Set in Red
Tutu & Legs Accessories: Mug - Penny Tutu in White (Available until November 10th at Kustom9)
Pose: Secret Poses - Penny, Pose 3
Tentacles: [Cubic Cherry] - Tentacles Army
Body Bags: MadPea - Plastic Wrapped Body Bag
Garbage: LOVE - BLOODY BAG, APOCALYPTIC STORE - LA Garbage Pack & UrBaN SpIrIt - Garbage Day Items
Backdrop: K&S - // Hop(e) on? Backdrop

Cave of Creeps and Crawly Things

I'm in a lot of pain after a trip to the docs today but luckily I had something a little creepy to make a girl's skin crawl... I needed some kind of distraction, and I think the creepiness of the bugs may just be the kind of place to do it... 

Some people are terrified of bugs, others love them. I'm not one of those that hates them but certain bugs give me the willies... WHY is that though? I've never really understood why people love things like butterflies and ladybirds but other bugs make them squirm and shiver... 

What is she wearing:
Tiara: Six Feet Under - Arachnid Headpiece
Headdress: CURELESS [+] - Arachnid Headpiece
Hair: Wasabi - Harlow Hair in Offbeat
Skin: [Forest Fantasy Store] GARGOYLE SKIN in Onyx
Eyes: The Little Bat - Slither Eyes ( Available until October 31st at Trick or Treat Lane)
Tongue: aii - Spider Tongue
Necklace: random.Matter - Olin Choker [Metal Tones] (Available until November 1st Satan Inc)
Dress: Off-Line - Web Dress in Grey
Bugs: 
    Butterfly: LODE Head Accessory - Youth Butterfly in Brown
    Bee: LODE Accessory/Decor - Bumble Bee
    Moths: random.Matter - Eudora Moth Halo in White
    Spiders: Tentacio - Elvira Bodysuit in Black
    Other: KitCat - Summer Explorer FATPACK
Pose & Skull: Secret Poses - Aradia, Pose 7 (Available until November 1st Satan Inc)
Skeletons: [HighLands] - Crystal Infected Skeletons
Mushrooms: {vespertine} - Fungi Collection
Crystals: {LORE} - Crystals in Light
Spiderwebs: CuteCvlt- Spiders Nest Set
Backdrop: CABALPIER - Cave Hall

Love and Hugs for Christmas

It's Christmas Eve-Eve... It's also the last time that I'm likely to be able to blog for the last few days as if I'm not working then I have Christmas stuff to get through. The monster-in-law is coming to spend the day, I will be cooking a HUGE turkey that we will spend the next few days devouring. I've spent the day wrapping and cleaning and making sure that my fur babies are behaving. I even had a few hours to finish decorating the home that I share with HellBone in SL... 

Would you believe it that I also was able to find the time to get myself all festively dressed up and snap a quick pic to give people a little hint at our homely mess... For Christmas this year rather than curling up in my Pyjamas to wait for Santa, this year I'm going to dress as an adorable little deer and dance with the reindeer in the snow... 
For now though I'd like to takea moment to send love and hugs to everyone for the festive holidays this year. If you are celebrating Christmas or not, if you are forced to be with people that bug you or with the ones that you love, or even hiding away on your own with a cup of tea and a good book, have yourself a very merry everything and a very happy always!!! 

What is she wearing;
Headband: tarte - Festive Reindeer Headband in Brown Multicolor
Hair: TRUTH & FAGA - Levitate in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Make-Up: KitCat - Deer Antlers and Makeup (BOM)
Earrings: STOIC - LUMINESCENCE EARRINGS
Choker: .PSYCHO:Byts - Bell Choker
Bell Necklace: Violetility - Bell Necklace
Lights: Junk Food - Christmas Bulb Necklace
Outfit: miss chelsea - Cady Romper
Pose & Prop: -Extra- - 2023 Holiday Hunt, Pose 2

Hiding My Birthday Suit!

I MAY have mentioned this before, but Sunday's are considered bath nights in my house and have been since I was a little kid.... We don't have a bath in my RL home, so I've often lived vicariously through Rudh and lounged in a bath with lots of bubbles., but today I'm running low on energy and so a quick shower will be all I'm capable of today... 

Now I know I love having a chat with everyone, but it's a bit difficult to take you all into the shower... No one wants to see that, no one needs to see me all bare and soapy... Then I remembered... I'd found the perfect thing whilst shopping for Halloween decor, and although Halloween has been and gone, I can get my little Birthday Suit Costume on - from Canape - while I grab my soap and shower loofah to scrub my butt while we chat... Though someone apparently doesn't want me to chat, my Soapy Soap - from KitCat - in my mouth to stop me... Lucky really, considering that I mumbled a few rude words... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: ARGRACE - SHIMIZU
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Mouth Soap: KitCat - Soapy Soap in Pink
Body Bubbles: MIWAS - Bubble on me in White
Speech Bubble & Body Cover: [Canape] - Birthday Suit Costume in Tone3
Bubbles: Half-Deer - Bubbles
Sponge: Lyrium - Shower Loofah
Pose: Fashiowl - Flowers, Pose 7
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Cleanse

Moths and Fluff in the Mind

It's Remembrance Day today in the Netherlands, and normally I spend my day focusing on the blood red poppies of Flanders Fields that have become a symbol of remembrance in the UK but today my mind has shifted a little... It feels like it's full of fluff as I have the start of a cold coming, but with everything going on in the world right now Remembrance Day has definitely shifted to become something more than just thinking about soldiers lost at war... I couldn't focus on poppies this year, I had to do something that made me feel thoughtful, allow me to remember in a different way and give me a moment to pause for thought... 

High up in the attic space where the light glows but is more than a little sombre, I sat in the glowing light of the late Autumn sunshine and closed my eyes. My head full of fluff as my mind wanders, I feel lost and alone in the sombre darkness... I am a doll in this life, and my face shows signs of breaking - an amazing accessory from KitCat called Stuffings TheDoll - while the butterflies of my imagination drift away in the light beams and dance through the quiet space... With everything going on in the world right now though, the way we remember the dead should change too, I love the poppies, I love the significance they hold and they will ALWAYS be important. Yet we need to just use this time as a moment to stop and pause, to think of anyone that had sacrificed themselves to save those of us that live on, no matter where they are, what they believe and what their reason is... We're still fighting over political issues, we're still fighting over religion, we're still fighting for our rights, in a modern age where people should be allowed to live their lives how they choose... 

What is she wearing;
Blue Butterflies: *LODE* Head Accessory - Wild Sakura Butterflies in Blue
Tiara & Skulls: CURELESS [+] - Dea Halo & Tiara in FATPACK
Hair: [monso] - Kankst Hair in Black & Red
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Extra Head: KitCat - Stuffings The Doll FATPACK
Necklace: random.Matter - Caithe Collar in Silvers
Blood: Izzie's - Face & Body Blood & Wounds
White Face Moths: Random Matter - Eudora in Moth Halo (Available until December 6th at Collabor88)
Outfit: Pixicat - Ukok Set
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Glitterati & Valkyrie
Blue Moths: {anc} - picnic in swallow tailed butterfly Sapphire
Pose: Secret Poses - Aline, Pose 5 (Available until November 30th at Anthem)
Backdrop: VARONIS - Sombre Skybox

Needling the Dolls

So far I'm on a roll, though I think that tomorrow that's about to change as I won't be able to get a blog post done due to RL working keeping me out late... I'm not going to complain though, I am still going to make sure that every post counts where the monstrous me is concerned... 
Today I went out treasure hunting, I got to go to the local thrift stores in search of treasures, and I LOVED IT... Books, some random decor and even a couple of those weird doll animals - which HellBone makes look dead and then resells online - made it home with us, and it reall got me thinking about all of my old toys. Where are they now? I used to love some of my old dolls, I cannot find my old favourite and I hope that I never threw him away... Losing a doll could be dangerous... 

Certain dolls are fun to play with, certain dolls are dangerous, and I wonder which I like more... I LOVE the idea of a voodoo doll, I'm always a little daunted by them but there are some amazing stories, secrets and magical things to learn about them... Before I get myself to play with one, I plan on reading as many books as I could to learn as much as I can - set in a pose like the Idealist pose set from -Extra- that includes book props - before I even let myself pick up any kind of Spooky Desire Dolls - from KitCat - to attempt anything... Being a doll herself,will it have as much magical success? She's a Patchwork doll herself - thanks to the Sweet Thing Patchwork Set - and she's definitely prepped to be ready for the attempt of testing a doll herself. Primed with the Poppet Pins - from Violetility - and a some needles in her Niddle Collar - a gorgeously spike collar from Chemical Princess - but nothing will happen until she makes the first poke into the dollies chest...

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Zylia HW Ed Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: Wyrd - Saga in Leaf (No Longer Available!)
Eyes: Suicidal Unborn - Nova Eyes (Left) & [Conviction] - Exorcism Eyes
Eye Patch: Le Morte - Stitches (No Longer Available!)
Collar: Chemical Princess - Niddle Collar
Doll Patches: Sweet Thing - Patchwork
Pins: Violetility - Poppet Pins
Pegs: Mug - Deviant Doll Item in #27 Clothspins Wood EXCLUSIVE
Dolls: KitCat - Spooky Desire Dolls
Pose & Book Prop: -Extra- - Idealist, Pose 5
Backdrop: PALETO.Backdrop - Apartment 11

Tears so you Forget-Me-Not...

Today has been a bit of a sad day... It was the funeral of my mum's oldest friend's mother. She was a lady of epic proportions, never having had granddaughters she adopted me and my little sister, and even though she reached the grand old age of 96, she always had a spring in her step, never complained about anything and was constantly heard singing her favourite song about rocking all over the world... On other news, I heard something about another friends mother that was less happy and a lot more worrying... After all of the people I know getting ill lately, this was the one that pushed me over the edge and tears were shed for everyone... 
Feeling a little melancholy, and rather blue, I knew what needed to be done, I let the fantasy take over and became the fairy of the Forget Me Not... 

For some reason, the Forget Me Not Fairy is often found wandering around in the Graveyard - which is a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - carrying a bunch of her namesake flowers as she weeps for those forgotten souls in the dark. Her tears mingling with her magic to join the constellations in the sky - since they are Constella tears from KitCat - reminding everyone to Forget-Me-Not... 

What is she wearing;
Tiara: everfaery - Kaia Flower Crown (Available until October 1st at Saturday Sale 10th Anniversary)
Hair: Wasabi - Svea FLF Ed. Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: Wyrd - Tovi in Frozen (No Longer Available!)
Eyes: Izzie's - Lua Eyes (Teary Eyes) in Blue
Eye Tear Make-up: Izzie's - Little Tears
Blue Tears: KitCat - Constella Tears in Blue
Wings: Quills & Curiosities - Spectral Luna Moth Wings (Available until September 18th at The Warehouse)
Dress: Salt & Pepper - Aria Dress in Teal
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Glitterati & Starstuff
Pose: Secret Poses - Bella, Pose 4 (Available until September 25th at 13th Street)
Backdrop: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - The Graveyard [360] Backdrop

Spells on Quills causes Mandrake Mischief!

August has begun, and there is still a few signs of the summer to come... At the moment it already feels like the Autumn has arrived, and that means we're one step closer to the best holiday of the year HALLOWEEN!! It's August, It's nearly Halloween... It's Augween!!! 
So pretty soon school will be starting up again, I always loved school but one of my favourite things that happened around this time of year was when Mum said "let's go shopping for school supplies"... It's not just regular school kids that are going back, the wizards of Hogwarts are needing to get their supplies... The Wizarding Faire has opened on Diagon Alley... There is magical shopping to be done...

In Diagon Alley, at the wand store Olivander's - yes I checked that it was correct with my Harry Potter obsessed sister and is actually a Sorcery Photo Stage from [piXit] - where the Wand Shelves - from Quills & Curiosities for Wizarding Faire - are made of walnut and stacked high with thousands of boxed wands in all different shapes, sizes and magics... The owner has popped off on a little vacation to visit a friend in need, and left an apprentice in charge who has taken it upon herself to enchant some of the Candy Quills - also from Quills & Curiosities - that are perfect for writing love notes... Admittedly the magic in the shop HAS caused a few little problems... Mandrakes running everywhere, its a Mandrake Mischief - thanks to the adorable new release from Aardvark, also available now at the Wizarding Faire - and there is chaos all around... 
On a side note, I have to show you these amazing earrings that I'm wearing. They are the Vision Earrings from Six Feet Under which are available now at Planet 29... They are amazing, and because my picture didn't show them off as clearly as I'd hoped I'm adding the ad below... Aren't they pretty?!

What is she wearing;
Hat: Valentina E - Twiggy Witchy Hat
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Aloha in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Earrings: Six Feet Under - Vision Earrings (Available until August 22nd at Planet 29)
Choker: Six Feet Under - WitchCraft Collar
Dress: Valentina E - Marianne Dress in Evergreen
Pose: [piXit] - Spellcaster P2,  Pose 2
Wand: Moon.Phase - PotionClass Set (Available until August 12th at Wizarding Faire)
Feathers: Quills & Cauldrons - Candy Quills (Available until August 12th at Wizarding Faire)
Buddies: Aardvark - Mandrake Mischief (Available until August 12th at Wizarding Faire)
Desk Cauldron & Book: Moon.Phase - PotionClass Set (Available until August 12th at Wizarding Faire)
Kitty: KitCat - PuffMew in Green (Available until August 12th at Wizarding Faire)
Eggs: Second Spaces - Dragon Eggs in Crate of Eggs (Available until August 12th at Wizarding Faire)
Shelves: Quills & Cauldrons - Wand Shelves in Walnut (Available until August 12th at Wizarding Faire)
Plants: Elm - Cauldron Planters (Available until August 12th at Wizarding Faire)
Duck Pet: Vinyl/geek. - CozyNiff Plushy in Black House Green (Available until August 12th at Wizarding Faire)
Mirror: BROKEN ARROWS - Desire Mirror in Aged Dust (Available until August 12th at Wizarding Faire)
Hand: Random Matter - The Dark Arts [I] in Skeletal Hand Green (Available until August 12th at Wizarding Faire)
Other Cabinets: LORE - Celestial Chests in Ebony
Backdrop: [piXit] - Sorcery Photo Stage 

Sadness and Anger in Homesickness

After what feels like the shortest trip to visit family in the UK ever, I am now back home in the Netherlands. Normally I'm relaxed and happy and have some brilliant fun stories to share, which OK I can agree that I have this time around too, but for some reason I'm actually feeling a little more lost and alone than usual. I've always been close with my family, and I'll admit too that I couldn't actually live with them, but I HATE being so far away... I cry, it makes me miss them being so far away, and I WISH I never had to leave... I get sad, angry and for a day or two when I'm home I get a little depressed...

I go through mood swings, sometimes I'm up thinking of all the happy things and the fun times I had with my family and others I'm right down getting sads, and angry, and even feeling like hiding from the world, hanging on the edge of depression... I'm sorry if I take it out on anyone around, I'll take some chocolate instead of happy pills to make myself feel better and hopefully, my mood will improve soon... I just get very homesick and need to give it a few days to feel better... 

What is she wearing:
Hair: Wasabi - Karissa Hair in Offbeat
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Bindi: Six Feet Under - Lyra Bindi
Glasses: Boutique #187 - Metal Frame Sunglasses (Available until August 17th at MAN CAVE)
Necklace: Kibitz - Ballie's Necklace in Silver
Top: Mug - Rita Tee in Gray
Undershirt: Gorsimi x Nar Mattaru - Fishnet Crop Top
Teddy, Knife & Fluff: KitCat - Dead Ted in Cream (Available until August 18th at The Warehouse Sale)
Shorts: Mug - Kenia Shorts in Black
Socks: AsteroidBox - Kerin Legwarmers in Plain Pack
Pose: Secret Poses - Wezt, Pose 4
Pill Cushions: [Krescendo] - Pill Pillows (Available between July 28th - August 22nd at Kinky)
Pill Bottles: Ahegao - Glitter Pills
Backdrop: Exposeur - Padded Room (No Longer Available!)

Bug Hunting in the Creek

I feel like I'm on a bit of a fantasy kick at the moment, but that's not entirely my fault as so many designers out there are making such wonderfully fairytale-ish things, AND it's definitely NOT a bad thing... I always say I feel happy when I'm in a dark, macabre state, but when I can let my inner fairy out to play I feel like awesome sauce... 
I normally let my mind wander and create an amazing story in my head around the fairy stylings, but that doesn't always need to be the case. Fairies can just be super cute little magical pretties as much as they need to be fairies of a specific thing, and so today we're going to play in the garden with one of those special little ladies... She's found down by the creek, where the creepy crawlies like to hide... 

The creek is located within the gorgeous Jungle Harmony - a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - and here you may find our little fairy flitting in and out of the grasses... She's playing with her little insect friends and roaming like a Summer Explorer - thanks to the Summerfest release from KitCat, available until July 9th - and she's decorated herself in leaves and daisies - thanks to a past Mug gacha collection - to lure in the bumblebees and the Monarch Butterflies - on a headband from Boutique #187 exclusively at Hair Fair 2023, where a portion of the sale price goes to helping Wigs for Kids, but I'll talk about that more later hehe - 

What is she wearing;
Hair Band: Boutique #187 - Monarch Headband (Available until July 2nd at Hair Fair 2023 Brunette Sim)
Hair: TRUTH - Covert in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Dirt: Izzie's - Face & Body Dirt
Eyes: Queen oF Ink - [Honey] Eyes & Tattoo (No Longer Available!)
Bees: LODE Accessory - Bumble Bee
Bugs (Face & Twigs): KitCat - Summer Explorer (Available until July 9th at Summerfest '23)
Wings: kotte - Fairy Wings
Daisies: Mug - Flower Child Gacha Collection in #5 Daisy Face
Arm Vines: Decoy (Now Everfaery) - Forest Fae in Green Arm Vines
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Glitterati & tarte - garden fireflies
Pose: NANTRA - Good as Hell, Pose 6 (Available until July 2nd at Hair Fair 2023 Blond Sim)
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Jungle Harmony [360] Backdrop

Light the Candles it's time for a Bath

I am so unbelievably tired at the moment, nigh on totally exhausted. The Easter holiday season brings lots of visitors to Amsterdam but it's definitely draining me, I think I need a holiday more than anything else right now... 
Since I've not got that opportunity, I'm going to have to find another way to relax. I plan to curl up under a blanket and watch an episode or two of The Big Bang Theory, but before then it's time for something nice to eat and a long hot soak in the tub... 

Honestly there feels like nothing more relaxing than a dip in the tub, I don't have one at home in RL but everytime I visit my mum and dad it's guarenteed I will take more than one LOL... 
It's the process of the thing I think... Running the water and adding the bubbles, slipping into the warm cosy depths with the only company being your bath duck - like the one I have from KitCat - and the only light being cast by the flickering candles that illuminate the room with a warm glow and often have a luxuriously delicious scent... 
It's days like these that you need to make sure you're lighting the right candles, days like today will not benefit from candles promoting happiness and good will, days like today need candles that are "People Repellent" and perfect for "One of those Fucking Days" - thank you to my new blog sponsor Aardvark for these amazing candles that are part of a "Smells Like" set. So for now I'm going to slip into the bubbles and close my eyes, I'm going to drift off into a dream to watch the lights and bubbles cast shadows on the walls...

What is she wearing;
Hair: ARGRACE - SHIMIZU in Reds
Horns: DOUX - Demon hairstyle in Reds
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Bubbles: MIWAS -Bubble on me in White
Pose: FOXCITY - Beauty, Pose 2m
Candles: Aardvark - "Smells Like" candles in  Assured  Set
Duck: KitCat - Soapy Duck in Yellow Boy
Soap Bar: KitCat - Soapy in Bar Soap Decor Pink
Bath Tray: Foxwood - Spa in Tray
Bath Fluff: Lyrium - Shower Loofah
Hanging Rack: MOVEMENT - Shower Kit in Silver
Bath: Apple Fall - Victoria Clawfoot Tub in Iron
Curtains: tarte - Night Sky Curtain II in Nebula

Mushrooms can make you Silly!

I get super excited when I get to slip off into a fantasy world, I LOVE being a fairy and I love letting my mind wonder. I do feel like if I was a fantasy character, as much as I wish I was able to be a mermaid I think by this point the fairy is much more likely... I LOVE being a fairy, I love the fact they can have so many different personas and I LOVE exploring them all... 
Today I ampining for Autumn, I hate that Summer comes in the middle and I know that maybe I'm in a minority but me and the heat doesn't mix... I love the crisp feeling that comes with Autumn, and the colours that dust the nature... It's also the time of year when you get to meet some of the cutest fairies... It's a season when Mushroom Picking is a hobbie for some, and the fairies like to get in on that action too... 

So when you're out in the woods on a mushroom hunt, make sure you keep your eyes open because flitting around the mushrooms you may find your very own Mushroom Fae... 
She's a sporelicious fae, the fairy of the Woodland Spores and like the rest of her kin has adopted the persona of the Portabella fairy all because she loves the polkadots... 
She's dancing around the forest glad, collecting mushrooms, and getting the giggles as her little Badger buddy decided that he had to dress up to match me... 

What is she wearing;
Hat: KitCat - Woodland Spore Hat in Portabella (Available until May 18th at The Warehouse)
Hair: Magika - Nature Fae
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Mud Tattoo: Quills & Curiosities - Festering Fungus
Mushroom Attachments: KitCat - Woodland Spores in Portabella (Available until May 18th at The Warehouse)
Wings: DRD - Fairywings in Monotome
Outfit: !deviousMind - Cassia in Summerforest
Dirty Feet: Izzie's - Dirty Feet
Pose: -Extra-  - Boudoir, Pose 3
Badger: Schadenfreude - Mushroom Badger!
Large Mushroom: Violetility - Mushroom ToadStool in Red (Available until May 18th at The Warehouse)
Mushroom Baskets: Elm - Mushroom Harvest in Amanita Basket Natural
Mushroom Logs & Rocks: Ariskea - [Holo] Stump Mushrooms & Rock Mushrooms Decor
Backdrop: irrISIStible - AUTUMN FOREST DECOR SCRIPTED 2021 with Synnergy - Dark Pond Scene