Happy Making Ice Cream

Last night, we had a funny moment at home... The hubby came running down the stairs, shouting at me that he needed to go to the store before it closed... He was having a MASSIVE craving for Ice Cream, and as our new fridge freezer arrived yesterday he knew he could put some ice cream in it... 
I guess, for the first time in a while, that it inspired me to do something a little fun and a lot silly... Maybe I'm on the healing path, and finally able to let go a little?! I was inspired, I ate Ice Cream... The Fairies came back out to play... 

I am not a huge fan of Ice Cream, that's always been Hell's thing but granted I do like it occasionally and I couldn't really resist considering how warm it has been recently. 
While I was making a mess in the kitchen with all of the different options in the American Classic range - from Lucas Lameth - HellBone decided to show me how much he truly loves Ice Cream by presenting me with an Ice Cream Topiary - this one from the Patriotic Set, but there are other combinations available too at Simply Shelby - which ALSO lead to two things happening... 
One, the pug managed to get up on the counter and get his way into an Ice Cream tub - this pug is from Jian and I am both happy and sad to hear that Jian will be closing. It's great that new directions will be taken but Jian was ALWAYS one of my favourite places for the cute animals in SL! - and Two, the Ice Cream attracted a fairy who was desperate for something sweet and cold... I totally agree with her excitement... 

What is she wearing;
Hair Accessory: kotte - Face Pack in Sprinkles Icing Mess
Hair: Moon. Hair - Cupcake
Glasses: Suicidal Unborn!- Pastel Sunglasses
Wings: Doe - Dragon Pixie Wings 01 in Rainbow Neon
Boa: Moon Amore - Melted Boa in KITSCH BOA (Available until August 30th at Collabor88 )
Body Paint: Izzie's - Rainbow Powder Explosion & Ladybird - Rainbow Body Glitter
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Outfit: CUREMORE - Melty Love OUTFIT
Pose: [piXit] - Manaram, Pose 2
Topiary: Simply Shelby - Patriotic Ice Cream Topiary Set in Ice Cream Bar Flower Topiary White
Ice Cream Decor: (Lucas Lameth) - Ice-Cream, American Classic
Dog: JIAN - Sneaky Snacker in Ice Cream Pug
Melted Ice Creams: random.Matter - Ice Cream Bar in Melted Cones
Melted Ice Lolly: random.Matter - Ice Cream Bar in Melted CreamPop Strawberry
Plant Pot: vespertine - Large Potted Chrysanthemums (Flowers Derendered)
Table Top: KraftWork - Carolean Round Table 

A Dark Day at the Beach

Everyone and their aunty seemed to be flocking to the beach yesterday as it was supposedly the best place to see the Eclipse that happened last night... I should have gone, I should have tried to participate but I just felt like crap and while I was in my PJs I missed the event as the sun was hidden behind a building on our street... It's fine, for me I feel like the sun has already gone, and the Summer can quite frankly sod off now... I'm done with the heat... I cannot wait for the Brrrrr months! 
Still I realised that I haven't been to the beach this Summer, I haven't felt the sand between my toes and the cold waves rushing to meet me... So maybe I need to rectify that situation a little bit?! 

Apparently it's going to be another scorchingly hot day today and I'm REALLY not a fan of that... Like I said, roll on the Brrr months! Dark little Living Dead me, really isn't a fan of being too hot... I'd much rather be too cold and wrap up under a ton of blankets! The beach and I are just not really friends because of that LOL... 
It really is too fecking hot today, the beach will be the coolest place, least one can hope anyway!!! 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Mug - Beach Day Gacha Item in #6 Beach Hat Black
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Beach Day in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Sunglasses: Boutique #187 - Metal Frame Sunglasses
Necklace & Bracelets: Static - Morte Ornare
Black Top: Mug - Birdie Top in Black
White Top: Mug - Delilah Tank in White
Shorts: Mug - Delilah Shorts in Black
Bucket: Doe - My Gothic Beach Bucket in Dinosaurs
Pose: [piXit] - Pupa, Pose 3
Chair: CHEZ MOI - Maluma Beach Chair
Parasol: [Merak] - Parasol Stripe
Backdrop: K&S - // Lighthouse Backdrop 

Said It All

Yesterday was the day that my Mum was cremated... Yesterday was the day that everything felt so final... It's been a long month to get here, but yesterday was the day that she was finally able to be at rest... Soon she'll be back with us where she belongs and I KNOW I cannot wait to have her home again...

So while I'll be mourning in Private for now, I wanted to take a moment to send everyone a hug. Tell you all that, if you're still lucky enough to have your mum around and you love her even just a little, remember to give her a hug and tell her that...
To my mum, and I KNOW you won't read this, but I wanna say it anyway... You knew that SL was a big part of me, you didn't ever really understand it but when it took my life in the direction it did I'm sure you thought I was crazy... You accepted it was a part of me, and welcomed the parts of my life that it brought you, like your crazy Dutch son-in-law... That's why I've had to take a few moments just to let Rudh leave you a thank you, shed a tear for you and become my therapy as I heal through these difficult times... 
I love you mum, you were always my favourite person - just don't tell Dad I said so - and I will see you again every time I look at the clouds or smell the flowers or find that perfect shell on the beach... One last thing to share with you today, since it was one of your favourites... Take That have "Said It All" for and with you... 

What is she wearing;
Flowers: *Lode* - Cydonia Hair Accessory [Full pack]
Hair: TRUTH - Odyssey in Redhead
Skin: Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Eyes: Izzie's - Lua Eyes in Teary Eyes Green
Eye Make-Up: WarPaint - Regal Eyeshadow & Pearls, Worn With Izzie's - Smeared Mascara & Little Tears
Necklace & Earrings: (Yummy) - Moonveil Collection (Available until August 30th at Collabor88)
Top: miss chelsea - Sora Set in Tank
Pose: piXit - Melanie, Pose 1
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Petalgrave Garden {360} Backdrop

Wanna Fight? Bring It On!

Grief is such a terrible and weird thing for anyone to go through... They say there are 5 main phases, but honestly it feels more like you're on a sliding scale and can go backwards or forwards at any time... I feel like I'm taking two steps forwards and then four back, only to move another five forwards and three back... If I could just work through the stages without any of this back and forth, that might be good for me right now... 
At the moment I'd say I'm definitely feeling angry about things... It's time to vent again... Please bear with me... 

When you lose anyone it doesn't matter who or how, even discovering someone you barely knew has passed can be a strange feeling of grief but, and maybe this will sound weird, I am angry about a few things and I guess the guilt of being mad at them isn't helping me heal... 
We've known that mum was sick since November, that's true... My parents decided that it was better for us to NOT know how bad things were so that we'd continue with our crazy busy lives as normal. I don't hate them for their choice, but mentally I had less than a month to prepare and yes I KNOW there'd never be enough time to get used to the idea that someone you're very close to is terminally ill, but it might have helped a little now if I'd known earlier?! Maybe?! 
Also, and this may sound even weirder... My grandmother - Mum's Mum - has been sick with demensia, unable to get out of bed, and wishing that she would be able to just sleep and not wake up for almost 2 years now... She's 94... WHY DID MUM HAVE TO GO FIRST?! I love my Grandma, I've been mentally preparing to have to say goodbye for a long time, and she out-lived my mum... Why couldn't mum have done what her mum did and live to be as old as the dinosaurs?! 
Perhaps it's weird to think like that, and I promise it's not the most forefront thoughts in my mind, but it's there... It's hurting and I NEEDED to release... Some day I will get back to blogging properly when I feel up to it, following the schedule I set and managing targets but right now... Anyone wanna fight me?

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Sunkissed TSS Ed. Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Choker: Kibitz - Felicia's Thick Choker in Blank
Jacket: Gabriel - One-shoulder Riders Jacket in Black
Glove: PSYCHO:Byts - Avril Arm Warmers
Dress: Psycho Barbie - Fire Starter
Pose & Prop: [piXit] - Punk Much, Pose 5
Garbage: UrBaN SpIrIt - Garbage Day Items
Backdrop: PALETO.Backdrop - WD-5 

Bonnie Chaos at Midnight

I'm at that stage now, where I don't know what to do but I don't really want to do anything... Yes it is apparently just me going through the grieving process but right now I feel somewhat useless and nothing I seem to try is working... I can't get into reading, knitting, decorating in RL or SL, and blogging therapy seems to be a non-starter too... There are so many fun things I could be doing... What am I doing? Doom-scrolling and staring into space... Everything I try seems to be going wrong!!

I NEED to find a way to turn my brain off, to stop myself from wallowing and yes, allow myself to grieve but allow myself to find strength and start finding my "normal" again... I'm dreading it!
Everything seems to be going wrong or turning to chaos and I'm NOT going to let myself drown in that... Think of the chaos that some people go through, real or imagined and things don't look so bad, I guess... 
I NEED a RL distraction for a bit... Something Dark, Mysterious and set in a Midnight Order perhaps... Something with gangsters and molls, something twisted and chaotic... 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Magika - Abigail Hair Hat
Hair: About Love - Sultry Hairstyle
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Jacket: [VOZ] - Umbrae Set in Coat (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Corset Top: SOJOUR - Luize Corset (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Lace Skirt: Stories&Co - Sherry Skirt in Cream&Black Lace
Pose & Prop: [PiXit] - Juliette, Pose F5
Car Decor: Dirty Rat - The Botched Job
Falling Money: [Bad Unicorn] - The Heat Gacha in Falling Cash
Gun Case: /MURDER\ - Commie Tommy
Backdrop: PALETO.Backdrop - Decatur Street 

The Queen Shall Rise

At the moment I KNOW that everything seems to sound like I am not coping, I am hanging on the edge of a break down and I am done with life in general... I am sorry if it seems that way and that I'm worrying anyone. Things are just really difficult at the moment, but I HOPE that soon I am back on track and able to start enjoying life again... It's just everything still seems so bleak and I HATE not being able to pick up the phone and speak to mum... 
The Queen of the family has fallen... I'm just not sure how long it will take for her eldest to be able to step up and assume her role... 

You never think that it's going to happen... I mean I'm not stupid I KNEW it would happen one day, but her mother is 94, alive and kicking... I thought I had at least another 20 years of nonsense with her yet... Still, sometimes the Princess has to step up, stand in the shoes of the Queens before her and guide her life in it's own direction... I'm just hoping she's going to be like the Jedi in Star Wars... Always there, always feeling her "Force"... 
So the battle may be over but the uphill climb has now begun... The mourning period is diminishing, and wearing black is less of a done thing. The crown must be adjusted and worn with pride... I don't know if I'm ready, but the Midnight Order of things demands a Queen shall rise... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: About Love - Enigmatic Hairstyle (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Crown: UNA - Ruise Crown in Gold (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Circlet: random.Matter- Guila Set in Warm Tones
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Make-Up: Izzie's - Smeared Mascara & ARISE - Running Mascara (No Longer Available!)
Necklace: random.Matter - Gwyneira Collar in Warm Tones
Sleeves: Voluptas Virtualis - Exuvie.Arms (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Weapon: Opifex - Thorn (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Dress: [NOBEL CREATIONS] - Jasmine in SUNSET GOLD (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Pose: [piXit] - Beatrice, Pose F5R
Armour: DRD - Mystic Bastion Item in Knight Decor
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Lavender & Lace - LIGHT {360} Backdrop 

Amsterdam's Pride

Hello out there, remember me? I'm that girl that used to ramble on about nonsense in every blogpost I wrote, usually accompanying that with a silly picture that I loved but most people probably thought was a bit bonkers... I've had a bit of an unexpected absense recently... I've alluded to things in the past but mid house move, we had an emergency in RL and I had to make another mad dash back to the UK... I'm not really ready to talk about it yet, but I will in time, even writing this is making me emotional... 
Still, I NEED to start finding some semblance of normality... I'm back in Holland now, and since it's a special day in Amsterdam, I'm going to use it as a gentle way to get back to blogging... 

Today is Amsterdam Pride... Not being proud of Amsterdam - although that is an every day thing for the Amsterdammers that I know and love - although perhaps it's a good day to be proud of the city and it's people. A day when the Netherlands shines as a Gay capital of the world, and Amsterdam being the first city to legalize same sex marriages throws open it's canals for one of the most colourful parades in the world... I LOVE Amsterdam Pride every year, this year we're hosting World Pride too which makes it seem extra special. I just wish I was feeling strong enough to go and join the fun!!! Everyone should be celebrating love today... Love is one of the most important things a person can have, it's one of those very important things that keeps me going... I'm going to enjoy a little love today, celebrate Pride a little more and enjoy some special churros and maybe a little puff-puff-pass action?! 
HAPPY AMSTERDAM WORLD PRIDE DAY!!!!

What is she wearing;
Flags: Junk Food - Pride White Headband
Hair Accessory: miss chelsea - Love Pride Headband
Hair: Wasabi - Joyride Hair in Offbeat
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Make-Up: Keymoko - Pride Set (Past Gift!) (No Longer Available!), Palette - Pride Hearts (No Longer Available!) & Izzie's - Rainbow Glitter Freckles
Outfit: [RED GIRL] - Reese Shorts Overall Pride (Past Event Gift!)
Badges: Grandma's House - Pride Pins (Past Event Gift!)
Food: andika - "Pride Heart Churros" (Past Event Gift!)
Pose: [PiXit] - Beatrice, Pose F5
Leaf Friends: Junk Food - Weed Plushies
Clouds: kotte - Cloudy
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Tunnel of Love

Shark Bites are Ouchies!

I NEED to do something silly and whimsical today or I am going to actually drive myself nuts... I had NO IDEA what I wanted to do, and in RL we have been so busy moving things around so that HellBone and I can move back home sometime next week that we're both getting frustrated and tired. It feels like we've not done much today but we did a LOT and tomorrow there will be a LOT more to come too... 
So right now I NEED something fun and silly before my head implodes! Dramatic I KNOW, but it is what it is now... So that's why this happened... 

I decided to take the dogs for a walk down at the beach by the Baywater Lighthouse - a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - and we had one of those magical moments where as soon as they hit the water, they transformed into adorable little Shark Pups - from Aardvark - SUPER Cute and super fun... I pulled on a hat so that I could join in the fun, and was told that this Chomper Shark Hat - from Junk Food in the weekend sales this week - would keep me safe... Apparently it was the wrong information... One of the shark pups was a little hungry, and decided to take a Shark Bite - which is the shark on my leg and part of the Beach Day Gacha Collection from Mug at Equal10 now - outta my leg... OUCH!

What is she wearing;
Hat: Junk Food - Chomper Shark Hat
Hair: ARGRACE - CHIZURU in Reds
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Goggles: STOIC - SUMMER GOGGLES
Body drips: Izzie's - Wet Body & Face
Shark Leg & Outfit: Mug - Beach Day Gacha Items in Fun Bikini RARE & Shark Bite Blue (Available until August 5th at Equal10)
Pose & Floatie Prop: [piXit] - Summer Vibes, Pose 1F2R
Shark Puppies: Aardvark - Shark Pups
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Baywater Lighthouse {360}Backdrop in BLUE

Clouds in Heaven

My mind is in weird and icky places at the moment, I'm dealing with a lot... I have my house work getting closer to being done and I NEED to get moved out of this place I'm temporarily living in. I also have things going on with my mum... I've mentioned it before but she's got cancer and it's getting worse, very very quickly... I'm preparing myself for the worst at this moment. Please don't hate me... Please forgive me for being sad and lost in my unhappy mind... I need to distract myself... 

My mind went into fantasy mode, but then even that went back to the way it has been... Thinking about the things that may happen soon with my mum... 
So when I ended up as and angel in the clouds, gathering together the spirited pets of our family past.. Gus mum's favourite cat, and Izzy our dog, came to be ready for when Mum decides that it's time to join them... I am so scared about that moment, but I am trying to remain positive... I want to do something pretty... 

What is she wearing;
Cloud Halos: (Upper): Tentacio - Heaven Set in Heaven Halo 2 & LuluB! - CloudHead in Blue Sky
Hair: [monso] - Anya Hair in Black & Red
Eye Clouds: Tentacio - Cloud Candy in Cry Me
Make-Up: FATHER - Cloud Blush & The Horror! - Angel Blush in Blue
Necklaces: random.Matter - Ferryn Set in Necklace & Choker
Fur: CURELESS[+] - Alpine Fur in PURE
Wings: Doe - Ethereal Wings 01 in BGY
Body Paints & Glitter: Izzie's - Body & Face Glitter & FOREST FANTASY STORE (Now Faunus) - Galaxy Demon & Half Demon in Blue
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Outfit: Yuni - Sang Outfit in [WHITE]
Magical Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Starstuff, Glitterati & The Fantastical Nebulous Aether, everfaery - Starfield Aura & Aii - Astral Smoke
Pose: [piXit] - Beatrice, Pose F5
Animal & Extra Clouds: kotte - Cloudy
Background: K&S - // Knockin on Heavens Door. Backdrop 

Celebrating a little more Pride@Home!

Pride month has been active for a few long weeks and I know that I've missed mostly all of it. I have some very good reasons and as much as I know that Pride is important, right now I don't have much of the normal brain capacity I work with... I Stand by those celebrating Pride, and all the things that it represents, but my ability to see colours in things has somewhat diminished this week! I had devastating news and I'm just trying to keep my head on straight for the entire family... 

Still, since it's drawing closer to the end of the month, and since there are so many reasons for so many to be living their best life right now, I NEED to think a few happy thoughts. I NEED a little colour while there is none here... I went to see the Take That Circus show, but I'm a very sad little clown right now... Perhaps I'm doing things wrong?! 
I popped into Pride@Home for a breather from my families RL chaos and decided it was time for an ice cream... I may have been decked out in rainbows, but that feels like such a mask and putting on a show right now... Maybe I am more like one of the circus clowns I saw than I realised?! 
Hope everyone that was celebrating had a wonderful Pride Month... I will be heading home soon and NEED some time to get my head on straighter! Bear with me, things could get a little more rocky over the next few months!

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Doremi in Candy 
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory 
Glasses: Space Cadet - Ani Glasses in Pride Edition (Gift Available until June 30th at Pride @ Home) 
Nose Piercing: Frisbey. - Unity Nose Piercing (Gift Available until June 30th at Pride @ Home)
Shirt: miss chelsea - Alex Shirt in Pride Pack (Available until June 30th for Pride@Home)
Necklace: AsteroidBox - Pride Star Necklace (Available until June 30th for Pride@Home)
Top: FICTIVE - PRIDE AT HOME 2026 GIFT (Gift Available until June 30th at Pride @ Home)
Book: [QE Home] - How To Pride (Gift Available until June 30th at Pride @ Home)
Bracelet: Pride at Home - Wristband 2026 (Gift Available until June 30th at Pride @ Home)
Ice Cream: andika - Sweet Pride ice cream (Gift Available until June 30th at Pride @ Home)
Shorts: miss chelsea - Alex Shorts in Pride Pack (Available until June 30th for Pride@Home) 
Pose: [piXit] - Beatrice, Pose F4

A Raven Princess on a Ghostly Path

I dont wanna keep going on about how crap life is at the moment but it's a general feeling and I'm sorry that I feel that way... I am trying hard so many times to let myself get swept up in a fantasy, but there are things that always keep dragging me back down... 
I felt like I needed a chance to escape again and I want to be anywhere else, so I let myself slip off into the late evening and become a Raven Queen... 

This evening, as the sun is setting, our salvage princess has decided to take a walk along the Ghostly Path - a backdrop from K&S - but she's not alone. A Corvus Princess from the Salvage Station cannot be allowed to walk alone, she's had to take her avian friends with her... Hiding from the light under her Pipe Parasol, and even though it's ripped, it's still great for keeping the last light of the day away from her pale skin... 

What is she wearing;
Spiked Tiara: ERSCH - Roxette Headband
Headband: AsteroidBox - Celestial Headband in Nocturn
Hair: TRUTH & FAGA- Soul in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Collar: CULT - Spike Collar
Shoulder Accessory & Cape: CURELESS[+] - Corvus Manteau
Necklace: SIGMA - Spike necklace (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Outfit: Madame Noir - Station Catsuit (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Parasol: Static - Pipe Parasol (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Bird: Quills & Curiosities - Feathered Familiar
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Enchantress Aura
Pose: [piXit] - Pupa, Pose 2R
Flying Birds: JIAN - Raven Collection
Backdrop: K&S - // Ghostly Path. Backdrop

Farmers Market for Lunch

It's been the last of my days off for the weekend, and I am ready to go back to work this week.. Just 4 more days until I can go back to England and right now that seems more important than ever as Mum has been in hospital and I'm worried about her... At this rate, the real reason for going now will be a whole lot less wonderful and a whole lot more scary other things... 
I wanted to try and have a day to relax as I waited for news, I decided that since I'm living on the farm I was going to get out and see the countryside... 

I stopped at the Meadow Market, a gorgeous little farmers market - which is a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - and stopped at the Mobile Bakery and grabbed myself some Junk Food in the form of a Deli Sandwich filled with cheese and pickles and salad! The jalapeno chips look like I should grab a bag of those too... OOOOH and they have a blind date with a book stand... I've always wanted to try those, though I worry if I get a book I've already read I'll be a little disappointed LOL... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Miku Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - Snake Glasses (Available until June 25th at Astrophe)
Dress: The Kiwi Co. - Jaime Set in Dress
Pose: [piXit] - Zenia, Pose 3R
Deli Food: Junk Food - Deli Sandwich Kit
Book Rack & Book: Sari-Sari - Thrifted Books Shelf
Table: Ariskea - [Virginia] Wood Bench Decor
Cart: dust bunny - Mobile Bakery in White
Bicycle: [Merak] - Summer Bicycle
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Meadow Market {360} Backdrop

Mythical Gargoyle or Dark Goddess?!

It's been a weird day today and not entirely in a good way... My mum has been taken into hospital and we are waiting now to see what is going on. I'm on the edge of my seat, and hiding from everything I should be doing today... Of course there is only one thing I could do while I wait and that is to slip into a world of my own fantasy, I used to say the more dead I looked the happier I was... I think now the more fantasy I go, the more scared I feel and am searching for a disconnect... Somewhere a little magical where the beings that can be found hiding in the dark are a lot less scary than real life things... 
Today I met the most gorgeous, ethereal being in a dark and gothic ruin... 

As I was exploring the Ivyfall Ruins - which happens to be one of the most gorgeous new backdrops from Synnergy.Tavis - I stopped to gaze into the pretty birdbath that was glowing in the moonlight... I was mesmirized by the way the flowers growing all over the walls and the way that they seemed to glitter in the moonlight streaming through the arches... 
It wasn't long until I could feel a presence in the room... In the shadows, a mystical gargoyle with a third eye and two mouths in her hands... She's marked as a nightmare - thanks to the amazing Nightmare Fades from Psycho Barbie, available until June 29th at Disturbed - and since it's her job watching over the ruins of this magical place, her third eye seems fixated on me... 

What is she wearing;
Halo: Tentacio - The Silent Deep Cathedral in Dark (Available until July 8th at ACCESS)
Tiara: random.Matter - Wren Crown
Hair: [monso] - Zoen Hair in Black & Red (Available until July 6th at Collabor88)
Skin: [Forest Fantasy Store] - GARGOYLE SKIN in Onyx (Now Faunus)
Third Eye: (Nylon Outfitters) - Third Eye in Strange Colors
Face Chain: random.Matter - Thyra Face Chain in Cool Tones
Wings: Doe - Royal Wings Black Edition
Chest Tattoo: Psycho Barbie - [Nightmare Fades] in BOM 02 (Available until June 29th at Disturbed)
Pasties: Soedara - Gold Mirage Pasties in Egyptian (No Longer Available!)
Gloves: [Cubic Cherry] - Voracity Gloves
Sparkles:  Cole's Corner - Starstuff
Pose: [PiXit] - Pupa, Pose 6
Pond: Simply Shelby - Meadowglow Birdbath in Blue
Flowers: everfaery - Moonflower Ivy (Available until June 9th at ACCESS)
Backdrop: Synnergy Tavis - Ivyfall Ruins - Dark {360} Backdrop

Monarch Butterfly Dance

I've worked for the last 4 days in a row so that today the hubby and I could be at home to work on a few things that need to be done in the house before the windows are changed next week... I am feeling beyond tired, my body has aches in places that I didn't know could ache and my mind is mostly wondering when it can go back to sleep... I'm proud of what we got done today... 
I Needed to let my mind wander today, I needed to do something a little different from the every day normal in Real Life, I needed a slice of fantasy... 

I NEEDED some fun, I found something gorgeous I HAD to find a way to let my hair down so that I can relax after a long day of hard work. I couldn't let myself avoid the chance I discovered today... 
I went to one of my favourite places for exploring, the gorgeous Kaleidoscope Monarch Education Project location and I made sure that I dressed the part... A gorgeous little Monarch Butterfly Fae to dance amongst her new found friends... 

What is she wearing;
Flowers: Mug - Mugchella Festival Gacha in #3 Daisy Headband White
Hair: TRUTH & FAGA - Playful in Redhead
Head: BeSpoke - Blossom
Body Paint, Wings & Antenna: Faunus - Monarch Dress
Necklace: Buzzeri - Daisy Choker in Natural
Dress: Faunus - Monarch Butterfly
Pose & Prop: [PiXit] - Boho Dancer, Pose F4R

Neon Planting at the Salvage Station!

I had the day off again today, and I won't for a few days in a row now so I've been busy doing a little blogging prep and I'm excited about what has been happening in the blogging world of Rudh today... It's been nice to just turn offmy brain and do something creative, considering the week I have coming LOL... 
I wanted to do something different, creative and pretty... I wanted to do something neon and sparkly and well... Different... I'll flash forward to the future... Maybe I'll find some inspiration there... 

This cute little Cyborg was the one that I met when I arrived in the future, and even though she was heading for the Salvage Station to drop off some random stuff, when I asked her for some inspiration she took me to see the gorgeous Neon Veil Plants - from everfaery, available until June 22nd at Cyber Fair - where they are developing plants that will light up your life... 

What is she wearing;
Horns: PSYCHO:Byts - Persephonix Horns
Hair & Spider: Moon. Hair - Strange
Head: BeSpoke - Blossom
Eyes: Mana - Encased Eyes
Face Accessories: PSYCHO:Byts - Cyber Implants
Choker: Kibitz - Felicia's Thick Choker in Cutie
Body Paint: [RaptorJenny] - Mk4 (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Chest Button: Ama - Powered On Collar Implant
Shoulder: PSYCHO:Byts - Feel the Connection Back Implant (Modded to fit the shoulder position)
Glove: Tardfish - Cat Mech Gloves (Available until June 30th at The Arcade)
Bodysuit: ERSCH - Theodosia Harness (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Pose: [piXit] - Melanie, Pose 1
Plants: everfaery - Neon Veil Plants (Available until June 22nd at CYBER FAIR)
Screens: NOMAD - Wired Monitors
Speakers: NOMAD - Media Towers
Backdrop: [Vile] - Cyber Screen Backdrop

Is it all just a game?

I've been thinking about something since I had a conversation with a RL colleague about how Tim and I met in Second Life. She was curious and I explained to her about the Second Life world, what it's capable of and all of those wonderful things that can happen because of it... She was raving about the Sims, comparing the two and suggesting that she would be interested in coming to see what SL was like... She said she was looking for a new game, and I offered to help her out, but part of me was twitching about it being game... What are your thoughts?

I have thought long and hard about this topic for the past 20 ish years of being in Second Life. When I think of games I do think of things like board games or video games, I think of PC games like the Sims and world building games, but then do I still consider Second Life in the same way? 
For some it looks like a game... Creating a character, creating a world and living a life that is different from the real one, it's an escape and a chance to be someone you want to be... But is it a game, or is it more of a chat simulation programme? I've worked in Second Life in a Real Life job, I met my husband in Second Life and we've been married for 12 years now, and I met some people that I will keep with me always too... Does that make it a game or is it something different? Is it because I've been here so long now that I feel this way, is it still a game to the new inhabitants or is it really a place that's something different? 
What do you think?? I've been pondering this a lot today whilst going about my boring chores, I just want to know if I'm the only one that feels this way... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH  & Wasabi - Doremi in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - Metal Frame Sunglasses
Necklace: AsteroidBox - Sylvia Chains
Top: miss chelsea - Nara Set in Top
Shirt: Mug - Jett Top in Black Flannel
Pants: miss chelsea - Nara Set in Jeans
Beer & Cigarette: Junk Food - Beer & Cigarette
Pose: [piXit] - Beatrice, Pose F1R
Dice: random.Matter - Game Night Dice Tray in Red
Beer Cans & Ice Bucket: hive - Beer Buds Pack
Backdrop: blaink - D&D Club

A Rest before the Salvage Station!

June 1st today, and there are lots of things going on in our little corner of the world that Second Life looks like a really fun and wonderful place to be... Pride at Home and the fun events surrounding Pride started today, leading in the events for the month... One of those events is totally different from the rainbows and sparkles of Pride, is the opening of Salvage Station... 
It's Electrifying... 

The Atomotel - a building kit from LORE for Second Life Syndicate's Salvage Station, opening today until June 30th - is like a neon mirage in the middle of the Grand Canyon desert... This perfect, little neon hotel is run by a little miss Frankie, who will welcome you to her hotel as you make your trip to the Salvage Station, so long as there is no funny business and she doesn't have to introduce you to her Stun Nail Bat - from Arts&Gear, also at Salvage Station - which will be more of a shock when she hits you with it than any normal bat... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: FUNKYSTENCH - FRANKS COSTUME WIG (No Longer Available!)
Goggles: AsteroidBox - Night-vis Goggles
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Neck Bolts: HAUNT - Frankie Bolts
Dirt: Izzie's - Face & Body Dirt
Stitches & Wounds: Sweet Thing - Patchwork
Top: Stories&Co - Evan Tank (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Bodysuit: AsteroidBox - Rowan Bodysuit in Damaged
Shorts: Mug - Jett Shorts in Dusty
Bat: Arts&Gear - Stun Nail Bat (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Walkie Talkie: Synnergy.Tavis - Old Walkie Talkie
Pose: [piXit] - Cyberbilly, Pose 1R
Decor (Buildings, Walkways, Signs, Post Box & Bin): LORE - Atomotel Kit & Deco (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Backdrop: Synnergy - Grand Canyon Camper [360] Backdrop 

Sunflowers in Summer!

How is it possible that it's already the last day of May, where the heck did the last 5 months go. Everything seems to be going at light speed this year and I'm scared to blink in case I miss it... 
June is looking like it should be a good month. I get to go see my family, so I'll be going to see my grandma and can support my mum through a session of chemo. Speaking of Mum, we're taking her to see Take That - if she's feeling up to it - and that will be a fab, fun time at the Circus... AND we are one step closer to being able to move back home... I CANNOT WAIT, but until then how 'bout we get the start of the Summer started... 

There are so many fun things to look forward to, besides the previously mentioned family visit, and chance to see my childhood first loves. I'm ONE step closer to being home and therefore away from this camping situation that I live in right now... 
There are lots of fun things to come around in Second Life at the moment... One of the most important that needs to be shared at the moment, aside from the fact that Sunflower fairies are out in full force to share the sunny love, is the fact that one of Second Life's most important and long standing events has finally opened for it's 20th anniversary edition.
 I remember when Hair Fair first started and it was full of so many weird and wonderful new hair styles, fledgling designers that we know and love today and the chance to raise some big bucks for a charity that is beyond deserving. Wigs for Kids has raised millions to help provide children with wigs when they have lost their hair due to sickness or other issues, and we in Second Life have been great at supporting their mission every year, for the past 20 years - lead by the wonderful Sasy Scarborough - to raise money to aid in that support... So on that note, I'm going to let the Sunflower Fairy fluff up her new Shy Wig - from monso in the Foils Region of Hair Fair, with a 30% donation to the cause - as she got great hair and the kids that benefit have just a teeny amount of extra help! 
When you've been to the Hair Fair, be sure to come find me at the Sunflower Farm... Summer is about to start and Sunflowers are like summer time flower smiles! 

What is she wearing;
Hair Accessory: Mug - Mugchella Festival Gacha in #5 Sunflower Headband
Hair: [monso] - Shy Hair in Black & Red (Available until June 14th at Hair Fair 2026, Foils Region)
Eyes: Suicidal Unborn! - Phantom Eyes V.2
Wings: Doe - Fairstar Wings in Rainbow Neon
Body Paint & Bracelets: [Faunus] - Sunflower
Skin: Wyrd - Saga in Leaf (No Longer Available!)
Necklace: random.Matter - Dayra Necklace in Warm Tones
Dress: everfaery - Marielle Dress
Flower: {vespertine} - Field Sunflowers Stem
Basket: KOPFKINO - Carefree in Sunflower Basket
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Starstuff & everfaery - Starfield Aura Wearable
Pose: [piXit] - Cyberbilly, Pose 2
Backdrop: Synnergy - Sunflower Farm [360] Backdrop

A Little Dane-ish Basketball!

Well it's a HOT day today... How can it legally be allowed to go from 12degrees centigrade to 27degrees centigrade in less than a week... We're experiencing Summer temperatures in MAY and last week it was freaking cold here... WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON? 
Since work was so crap today I NEED to find a way to let off a little steam tonight... I've decided to do something wild and crazy, I'm taking my puppies out for a little fun?! 

I took my Danes - from Jian - out for a game of Street Basketball - a backdrop from PALETO - and they seemed to be having a LOT of fun playing ball by themselves. I don't know if the local basketball playing boys felt like it was good too... I had to send them a sign as I drank my Blueberry Slushi Cup - from Junk Food - so I waved the Anti Fan glove - from Boutique #187, available until June 8th at Ouh Lala - and asked them a question across the court... 

What is she wearing;
Hat & Hair: Wasabi - Rookie Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glove: Boutique #187 - Anti Fan in Blue (Available until June 8th at OUH LALA)
Top: The Kiwi Co - Honey Set in Cropped Tank
Drink: Junk Food - Slushi Cup in Blueberry
Waist Shirt: The Kiwi Co - Honey Set in Tied Shirt
Shorts & Tights: The Kiwi Co - Honey Set in Shorts w/Stockings
Pose: [piXit] - Valentina, Pose F7
Dogs: JIAN - Great Danes in Adult & Puppies
Ball: Flower Pose - Basketball Pose Prop
Backdrop: PALETO.Backdrop - Street Basketball

Mermaid of the Desert Oasis

I've had a day off today and therefore I've had a chance to let my mind wander off everywhere that's not the normal day-to-day humdrum, but as usually on a day off I let my mind wander and went to somewhere weird and fantastical... It was VERY much needed, and I made a brand new friend in a fairytale character... She's a mermaid, but lives in a world that could be connected to the Genie's magical cave in Agrabar...
We're going on another magical Arabian Night... 

This gorgeous little mystical Corallis - the MerMay Hunt Collection from Faunus, available until May 30th - Blossom - which is actually the name of this gorgeous head Blossom Head, available until June 8th at ACCESS from BeSpoke - Mermaid lives within the Mirages - a backdrop from FOXCITY, available until June 10th at Kustom9 - magically able to move from one oasis mirage to the next... The waters aren't the only things in these desert mirages that are magical... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Lazy Day FLF Ed. Hair in Absolute Pack
Head: BeSpoke - Blossom (Available until June 8th at ACCESS)
Eyes: Mana - Daemon Eyes
Skin, Body Paint, Attatchments: Faunus - Corallis Collection (Hunt Items Available until May 30th at MERMAY Hunt 2026)
Fish Bubbles: nani - Dreamy Pond Gacha Item in Bubbles Aura
Pose & Pearl Prop: [piXit] - Perla, Pose F3R
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Mirage (Available until June 10th at Kustom9)