Bloomy & Pixie

There's magic in the air tonight... There's something brewing and there may be big news tomorrow... Something that will affect me, more than anyone else but for now the calm has come before the storm, and the storm is brewing... I needed a break from things that were chaotic, work was yuck and I wanted to slip away into a little fantasy tonight... I needed some breathing space, so I took a walk in the garden... I was not expecting to meet something magical... 

In the garden of the farm I'm currently inhabiting, I was watching the sunset behind the gorgeous Faelight Crystal Lanterns - from Simply Shelby at We Love Roleplay until March 28th - and a little movement caught my eyes.
I spotted a gorgeous little fae, flitting amongst the flowers, talking happily to her cute little Bloomy - from MishMish at Kustom9 until April 10th - even though she's a little twisted with her Draconic skin - from Faunus - and daemonic eyes but really she's just an adorable little pixie... 

What is she wearing;
Hat & Hair: Moon. Hair - Pixie
Head: BeSpoke - Willow
Eyes: Mana - Daemon Eyes
Mushroom Make-Up: TentatioN - MakeUp FACE #15
Scale Body Paint: Faunus - Draconis Body Layer
Friends: MishMish - Bloomy in Orange (Available until April 10th at Kustom9)
Wings: kotte - Fairy Wings
Top: [Faunus] - Sunflower Outfit in Top
Pose: piXit - Perla, Pose F3
Garden Lanterns: Simply Shelby - Faelight Crystal Lanterns (Available until March 28th at We Love Role-Play)
Flower Cushion: {vespertine} - Spring Pals Pillows in Sunny Flower (Available until April 10th at Kustom9)
Large Daisies & Poppies: dust bunny - Paper Blooms
Backdrop: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - Fairytale [360] Backdrop

St.Patrick's Day

It's St.Patrick's Day today... Traditionally only a special day in Ireland, it seems like it's slowly seeping out into the world, and I kinda get the feeling it's become more of a thing in America now than Ireland even. Maybe I'm wrong, but anyone that I spoke to today that seemed to be celebrating was not current Irish but of Irish decent... Funny how traditions shift and change throughout the world isn't it? Wonder why St.Patrick's Day become such a phenomenon, but things like St.George's Day - which is a patron saint day of the English - for example, was less of a thing... I mean everyone celebrates their own chosen things, personally outside of SL I wouldn't be doing anything for St.Patrick's Day but in SL is a whole different story... 

I've seen so many people partying and enjoying their St.Patrick's Day celebrations in Second Life and I think that's bloody awesome... I really do... I've always been like that and lately I'm a LOT less like the party animal I once was. I spend far too much time on my own at the moment, I think I should make some new friends or hang out with the old ones that I still have... I wanted to do something different, something more my usual loner style at the moment... Something with a hint of magic, something to test myself with practising decor pictures... 
Today, I heard a noise in the shed... When I snuck down there was a magical air to the place, the table top where I am learning the new art of flower pressing and drying for arts sake had some gorgeous little bright green shamrocks all over it... Gold coins glittered in the rainbow light, and there was a mysterious hat on the table that wasn't there when I left the shed earlier... 
So for now I'm going to set up a trap and wait to see if there is a Leprechaun exploring my shed, until then, Happy St.Patrick's Day... 

What is in the picture;
Shamrock Plants & Leaves: Gumi's Flower Shop - Shamrock Giver
Hat: [Faunus] - Leprechaun Set in Hat
Cauldron: BROKEN ARROWS - Witch's Alchemy in Cauldron Black
Glasses: Violetility - Charon Coin Glasses in GOLD
Shamrock Wreath: Boudoir - Sain't Patrick Shamrok Wreath
Other Table Top Decor: (Nylon Outfitters) - Botanist Study Collection
Bead Garlands: spruce - Festive Felt Garland in Shamrock
Coin Scatter: LOVE - SCATTERED LUCKY COINS
Table: Half-Deer - Floral Apothecary Cabinet in White
Building: dust bunny - Gardenia Shed
Rainbow: Boudoir - Mesh Rainbow
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Garden Retreat

Send in the Clowns

You know how you can tell when I have days normally, because my pictures tend to be a little more of the crazy and wild and adventurous. I have had such a productive day today and managed to take so many pictures so that I am prepared and ready whenever the blogging desire takes me... 
Today was a special day, I started putting things on and randomly... BOOM I was lost in a magical world of wonder, chaos and entertainment... Today, somehow I ended up being swept away to the Circus... 

I know it's weird but I always end up thinking of horror when I think of the circus, I guess it's something to do with IT and a dislike of clowns but then again there is another side to the circus that is sparkle and glamour and glitz... The tight-rope walker, the lion tamer, the trapeeze artist and the ringmaster, it's not all creepy clowns and horrible pranks... 
So today I'm in the Big Top - which is a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - trying to decide if I want to go down my usual route of a horror circus with the Circus Rot clown twins, or head to somewhere sparkly for a carnival style celebration... 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Moon Amore - Circus in Insane HAT Coal
Hair: Dura - U136 in ALL COLORS
Spiral Eye: A.D.D.Andel! - Spiraling Down Eye Overlay
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Nose: KitCat - JoJo The Clown in Nose Red
Make-Up: Spookshow - Build A Clown
Ruffle Neck: KitCat - JoJo The Clown in Ruffle Neck
Top: AsteroidBox - Aimee Top in Fatpack (Available until April 8th at Equal10)
Pose & Lollipop Prop: [piXit] - Bang, Pose F1
Circus Clowns: Remarkable Oblivion - Circus Rot in Chubbs & Yoyo RARE (No Longer Available!)
Head: Soy - Abandoned Memorys in Head
Balloons: Remarkable Oblivion - Circus Rot in Balloon Party (No Longer Available!)
Other Circus Decor: MadPea - Cirque de Folie in Fire Ring, Cannon, Unicycle & Bottle Toss
Ball Game: HIDEKI - Ballgame
Clown Gate: ANTINATURAL[+] - Carnival Freaks in Coulrophobia Gate (No Longer Available!)
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - The Big Top {360} Backdrop

A Trashy Kind of Day!

I need to take a moment to send a message to anyone reading that I'm sorry for being a bit of a Debbie Downer at the moment... I'm trying to keep mysef swimming but at the moment I'm barely able to find the energy to doggy paddle so that my head stays above water... It's just a lot going on at the moment, I'm kinda done with the stress of living here - you may have already guessed this fact - and soon I'm going to be reaching 40 and all I want for my birthday is a cuddle from my mummy... I cannot get one... I feel icky and gross and want to hide away from the world... 

I have been so stressed and getting frustrated, but I think that I'm going to just hide away for a while... I'll curl up somewhere dark maybe in a place I belong, like in a garbage bin like a piece of Premium Trash - as the set that is aptly named from piXit - as it's where I belong since I got mad and ripped up poor lil teddy... He was only trying to comfort me... I feel so bad about it, but please don't come at me, your opinions of my grumpy mood can be left in the Opinion Bin beside me - a release from Krescendo, for this month's FaMESHed - and since I'll probably get bored sitting here, with no one to talk to now that teddy is toast I will read them shortly... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Magika - Caramel Hair
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Eyes: Izzie's - Lua Eyes in Teary Eyes Green
Tear Make-Up: Izzie's - Little Tears & Smeared Mascara
Top: Mug - Baylee Tank in Black
Pants: Mug - Baylee Jeans in Medium
Pose, Bin & Sign Props: [piXit] - Premium Trash
Wheelie Bins: [Krescendo] - Opinion Bin (Available until March 27th at FaMESHed)
Teddy Bear: {Sakura} - Scare Bears in Victim Bear RARE
Garbage Bags: UrBaN SpIrIt - Garbage Day Set (No Longer Available!)
Backdrop: blaink - DEPT 2B

Jason Bearhees on Friday the 13th

It's Friday the 13th, the second one this year so far, and once again my hubby has decided that tonight he's going to scare the pants off me and make me watch another Jason Voorhees movie special. It's worse watching it here, I'm not in my normal home in the middle of a housing estate...Right now I'm in the middle of nowhere lol... 
I had to do something a little cuter to make this evening a little less scary... 

Luckily, one of the makers of the cutest things in Second Life has stepped in to help with that, and created a super special Friday the 13th group gift... Jason Bearhees - the current group gift from Tardfish - is a cute, cuddly, dancing version of our favourite slasher man... Yes he is armed with a rather large knife but his skills at slashing and slaying are much more suited to his killer dance moves... 
Rather than stalking people in the woods and making them jump, he's the kind of cutie killer that will lurk around the roots - a collection from Static, available at The Warehouse until March 18th - of the giant trees outside his Creepy Cabin - a backdrop from Bad Unicorn - and wait to dance until the sun rises... 

What is in the picture;
Bear: Tardfish - Jason Bearhees (Current Group Gift!)
Vines: Static - Root Kits (Available until March 18th at The Warehouse)
Trees: everfaery - Dreamshade Trees
Backdrop: [Bad Unicorn] - Creepy Cabin Backdrop

A Tear and A Ted

I have had a day that has been a little mixed emotion-wise. Today was the funeral of an old family friend in the UK, he was someone I grew up with a little like an extra uncle and his wife was someone that I was very close to. She has been a rock for my mum whilst mum is undergoing her chemo treatments and I cannot be at home to help her. So it's been a day of thinking of the lady he left behind, the memories I have of him in the background of my childhood and my mother, who knew him well and is trying to keep her friend supported in this difficult time.. It's times like this when I HATE being so far away from the family. It's times like this when I feel like I'm not doing enough, and not being a good, supportive daughter... I'm trying not to cry as I say this but I miss my parents more than anything at the moment... 

I think I'm just feeling highly emotional... I turn 40 next Thursday and I won't be seeing my family. It's UK mother's day on Sunday and I won't be seeing my mother, and I guess I'm a little jealous that she's going to be seeing my sister instead but it's easier to go to her between chemo treatments than come all the way to Amsterdam. I'm living in a place that I don't like, that has no privacy and feels like I am CONSTANTLY at work. There are other things too but I am going to get through this and things will be better by the end of the year, I live in hope... 
I needed someone to love me, I needed to feel cozy and comfortable and cuddled... Teddy Bears and cuddly toys have always been my friend in this. I have lots and will keep collecting them and I cuddle them all, despite the fact that I am nearly 40. It is always a nice feeling to have something soft and sweet and friendly to cuddle, right?! For now, until I get a chance to see the family, facetime on the phone and cuddling teddies is the best that it's going to get... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: [monso] - Meiko Hair in Black & Red
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Eyes: Izzie's - Lua Eyes in Teary Eyes Green
Tear Make-Up: Izzie's - Little Tears & Smeared Mascara
Top: Mug - Serena Top in Olive
Shorts: Mug - Serena Shorts in Olive
LARGE Back Bear: Tardfish - Huggy Bear in Brown
Phone: Boutique #187 - Leather Phone Case 2.0
Pose & Teddy Prop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Sittin Pretty Bento Pose Set, Pose 5 (Available until April 6th at Collabor88)
Tissues: Puddles - Recovery Essentials in Tissues for your issues
Colourful Teddies: hive - My Colorful Teddy
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Softly (Available until April 6th at Collabor88)

Collecting the Snacks

Another day off and one again all I could seem to think about was food... I WAS STARVING but as per usual I didn't have anything in the house that I wanted to eat LOL. Is that just the case for me or does everyone suffer this fate? I've never been a dieter, always allowing myself the things I like to eat but do it in moderation, if I didn't and tried to stop myself the moment that I'd get my hands on what I was craving I'd go crazy and eat far too much of it, but I still get times like this when the one thing that I want to eat is the one thing that we don't have in the house... 
So what did I actually want to eat... I'm not even sure I knew that and could tell you lol... 

I had to thinkof things that would distract me... It's not easy when I'm living in this current situation, I know I'm lucky to have a place to live but I really wish I could be moving back home already, and I can't even do what I'd normally do and play loud music to pay attention to other things. I cannot risk causing any disruption to the customers in the shop below the flat, or my boss will be pissed... 
So headphones are a permanent fixture on my head now, and today it was all about the loud emo rock of my teens... As I'm heading towards being 40, I am very much regressing back into my childhood loves LOL... Loud rock music, Cold coffee and Burgers till I pop... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH - Nicki in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Eye Make-Up: Gorsimi - Slatra Shadows
Collar: PSYCHO:Byts - Black Choker+Spike
Upper Necklace: AsteroidBox - Spike Pendant in Holo Version
Lower Necklace: LaGyo - Spooky Necklace
Top: NeverWish - Rawr Set in Spaghetti Strap Shirt
Arm Warmers: NeverWish - Rawr Set in Arm Warmers
Coffee: Junk Food - Coffee Bucket in LIGHT BREW
Burgers: Junk Food - Burger Bucket in RED
Belt: NeverWish - Rawr Set in Pyramid Spike Belt
Skirt: NeverWish - Rawr Set in Skirt
Pose: [piXit] - Not So Lovely Lolli, Pose 4
Backdrop: K&S - // Underground