Are the Finger Sandwiches Right?!

The Engine Room opened yesterday and that has meant that once again, Second Life is full of the weird and wonderful folk... Great, it's just before Halloween and we all need a little more madness and chaos, of the good kind, in our lives right?! 
I'm honestly at the point of being welcome to all that comes to get me, and bring them on I say... I've also been reading some rather interesting monster smut recently, so little old me is going to get into her best and see what a tea invitation will offer to those monsters out there... 

I was feeling a little Pride and Prejudice - in this gorgeous dress and hat set from toksik at this round of Engine Room, available until October 20th - but since I have monster smut on my mind, I was hoping that getting all dolled up, and welcoming some of the Engine Room's monsters for a spot of tea there might be a little fun chaos to be had... I've even made sure that the Sossego Veranda - a backdrop from FOXCITY, that has been released for this month's Collabor88 - is in shade, as the evening takes the daylight AND that there is a pot of Curious "tea" as well as the regular kind... I just wonder if I put out the right kind of finger sandwiches?! 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH - Darling (Past VIP Gift)
Glasses:  TRIGGERED - Charlie Glasses (Past Gift)
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Dress & Hat: toksik - Moonlight Dress (Available until October 20th at Engine Room)
Pose & Pearls: piXit - Perla, Pose 3
Tea Set: THOR - Meadow Tray Tea Set
Black Teapot: AsteroidBox - Curious Decor in Arachnid Tea Pot
Food: Movement - Afternoon Bites
Backdrop (Table & Chairs included): FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Sossego (Available until September 30th at Collabor88) 

Sunscreen Piggies Against Sunburn!

It's been a difficult year this year, I'm sure you've noticed that by now but then again I feel like it's gone so quick that we've blinked and missed a large chunk of the year... I'm glad for me the Summer months were a bit of a blur, I hate Summer lol but I do feel like I missed out on the Summer fun this year too... So I decided it was time to take myself off on an end of season break, avoid the crowds and HOPE that it wasn't TOO hot... 

Now there are some Brits out there that are sun lovers, sun worshippers if you will... Then there's the kind you see in comedy sketches, that only have to talk about the sun before they get sunburned... That's ME, I'm one of that type... I'm a natural redhead in RL, although now I'm older it's much more chestnut and going grey in places... Yet, like I said, I only have to think about the sunshine and I start to get a burn... When I'm back somewhere dark and cold, I don't stay tanned, I go white again!! 
SO, I am an advocate of ALWAYS WEARING SUNSCREEN... Rudh went off on a little holiday and didn't put any on, and look what happened... That's why when she went to the luxury resort in Zamalek - which happens to be a backdrop from The Bearded Guy - I made sure that she took some of the super cute Sunscreen Piggies - from the MishMish Heatwave Piggies collection - with her! 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & FAGA - Shadow in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - LunaRose Glasses
Nose Paint: Spookshow - Goth Block
Necklace: (Yummy) - Sunchild Necklace Set
Sunburn Layers: [Onyx] - Life's a Beach Sunburn
Top: miss chelsea - Pati Set in Cami
Pig: MishMish - Heatwave Piggies in Sunscreen Piggy
Shorts: miss chelsea - Pati Set in Shorts
Pose: R.Bento - My Glasses, Pose 2
Loungers & Parasols: Fapple - Mistress gets a tan Items
Backdrop: The Bearded Guy - Zamalek Day Backdrop 

Fancy Dinners at the Velvet Nocturne

It's my turn to cook dinner today and I'm really not in the mood for anything special... You know how some days it's "I'm really craving...", then there are the days when no one in the house can decide what they want for dinner and it becomes again of "I dunno, what do you want?", today I'm having one of those "I'll make something easy" kinda feelings... Something that reminds me of home and makes people in Holland look at me like I'm bonkers until they taste it! Nothing fancy though like I said...

Rudh on the other hand is going to one of those super fancy, masquerade dinners held by the local vampire elites... They've provided the most decadent of starters for our little sea monster... Pearls in the shell with caviar and oysters... 
The theme of the night is that of decadence... A party fit for Midas and his touch of gold, a place where the Greek Gods of old would feel welcome. Rudh is dripping in pearls, wearing the hands of Hermes - from Tentacio - as her mask and a dress of spun golden roses - which is actually the Rose Dress from AsteroidBox at this month's round of Collabor88, I'll admit as much as I loved the front, the BACK was just *chef's kiss* and I feel we need to give the back of garments more love sometimes LOL - and it's a perfect look for an evening at the Velvet Nocturne - from Synnergy.Tavis - don't you think? 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & FAGA - Clarity in Redhead
Mask: Tentacio - Hermes Mask in Gold and Black
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Necklace: (Yummy) - Pearl Cascade Necklace
Body Pearls: Insomnia Angel - Body Pearls
Dress: AsteroidBox - Rose Dress (Available until August 30th at Collabor88)
Pose & Glass Prop: piXit - Ivory Whispers, Pose 3
Table Decor: [lilp] - Glitz n Glam, Fancy Decor - Open Caviar Tin in Orange (Past Gacha Item), DISORDERLY - Pearlized in Bowl (Past Gacha Item) & BROKEN ARROWS - Santorini in Shell & Pearls
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Velvet Nocturne {360} Backdrop

A Dark Day at the Beach

Everyone and their aunty seemed to be flocking to the beach yesterday as it was supposedly the best place to see the Eclipse that happened last night... I should have gone, I should have tried to participate but I just felt like crap and while I was in my PJs I missed the event as the sun was hidden behind a building on our street... It's fine, for me I feel like the sun has already gone, and the Summer can quite frankly sod off now... I'm done with the heat... I cannot wait for the Brrrrr months! 
Still I realised that I haven't been to the beach this Summer, I haven't felt the sand between my toes and the cold waves rushing to meet me... So maybe I need to rectify that situation a little bit?! 

Apparently it's going to be another scorchingly hot day today and I'm REALLY not a fan of that... Like I said, roll on the Brrr months! Dark little Living Dead me, really isn't a fan of being too hot... I'd much rather be too cold and wrap up under a ton of blankets! The beach and I are just not really friends because of that LOL... 
It really is too fecking hot today, the beach will be the coolest place, least one can hope anyway!!! 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Mug - Beach Day Gacha Item in #6 Beach Hat Black
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Beach Day in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Sunglasses: Boutique #187 - Metal Frame Sunglasses
Necklace & Bracelets: Static - Morte Ornare
Black Top: Mug - Birdie Top in Black
White Top: Mug - Delilah Tank in White
Shorts: Mug - Delilah Shorts in Black
Bucket: Doe - My Gothic Beach Bucket in Dinosaurs
Pose: [piXit] - Pupa, Pose 3
Chair: CHEZ MOI - Maluma Beach Chair
Parasol: [Merak] - Parasol Stripe
Backdrop: K&S - // Lighthouse Backdrop 

Said It All

Yesterday was the day that my Mum was cremated... Yesterday was the day that everything felt so final... It's been a long month to get here, but yesterday was the day that she was finally able to be at rest... Soon she'll be back with us where she belongs and I KNOW I cannot wait to have her home again...

So while I'll be mourning in Private for now, I wanted to take a moment to send everyone a hug. Tell you all that, if you're still lucky enough to have your mum around and you love her even just a little, remember to give her a hug and tell her that...
To my mum, and I KNOW you won't read this, but I wanna say it anyway... You knew that SL was a big part of me, you didn't ever really understand it but when it took my life in the direction it did I'm sure you thought I was crazy... You accepted it was a part of me, and welcomed the parts of my life that it brought you, like your crazy Dutch son-in-law... That's why I've had to take a few moments just to let Rudh leave you a thank you, shed a tear for you and become my therapy as I heal through these difficult times... 
I love you mum, you were always my favourite person - just don't tell Dad I said so - and I will see you again every time I look at the clouds or smell the flowers or find that perfect shell on the beach... One last thing to share with you today, since it was one of your favourites... Take That have "Said It All" for and with you... 

What is she wearing;
Flowers: *Lode* - Cydonia Hair Accessory [Full pack]
Hair: TRUTH - Odyssey in Redhead
Skin: Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Eyes: Izzie's - Lua Eyes in Teary Eyes Green
Eye Make-Up: WarPaint - Regal Eyeshadow & Pearls, Worn With Izzie's - Smeared Mascara & Little Tears
Necklace & Earrings: (Yummy) - Moonveil Collection (Available until August 30th at Collabor88)
Top: miss chelsea - Sora Set in Tank
Pose: piXit - Melanie, Pose 1
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Petalgrave Garden {360} Backdrop

A Laundry Day Discovery!

I'm having one of those days, the kind of days when your brain is so messed up, and you've forgotten that you've already blogged something but then you remember it's OK, it's laundry day anyway... I have so much laundry since I have yet to unpack from my trip home... Some things still smell like the laundry detergent that my parents use... I guess though it's time that I suck it up and do some laundry...

I did a lot of laundry at home when I was helping my dad with things for him and mum, but there's always some stuff that I have to wash... 
When I was playing with my clothes in Second Life, I discovered that there was a lot laundry to get done there too... I tend to wear outfits so often and then I never see them again after a week's wearing of them LOL... Perhaps I should wash them before I put them away... So I grabbed all of my dirty wash and headed on down to the Bubble Bliss Laundromat - a backdrop from K&S - and started sorting my clothes into the machines... 
It was then that I made the crazy discovery... A friend of my Dad's, the pigeon named Walter - a release from YOKAI for the Animal Party that can be found until July 10th at Kustom9 - happened to sneak into my luggage and he was only just found... Luckily it was me and not my cat that found him... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Doremi in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - Metal Frame Sunglasses
Bird Friend: YOKAI - Animal Party pt.II in Pigeon RARE (Available until July 10th at Kustom9)
Necklace: AsteroidBox - Sylvia Chains
Top: miss chelsea - Nara Set in Top
Overshirt: Mug - Jett Top in Black Flannel
Jeans: miss chelsea - Nara Set in Jeans
Pose: {NANTRA} - Norma Jean, Pose 4
Puppies: JIAN - Scruffy Shepherds in 12. Laundry Pups
Bottle: Deco Franzy - Laundry Detergent in 'Refresh Mountain'
White Basket: dust bunny - Laundry Corner in Laundry Basket
Backdrop: K&S - // Bubble Bliss Laundromat. Backdrop

Celebrating a little more Pride@Home!

Pride month has been active for a few long weeks and I know that I've missed mostly all of it. I have some very good reasons and as much as I know that Pride is important, right now I don't have much of the normal brain capacity I work with... I Stand by those celebrating Pride, and all the things that it represents, but my ability to see colours in things has somewhat diminished this week! I had devastating news and I'm just trying to keep my head on straight for the entire family... 

Still, since it's drawing closer to the end of the month, and since there are so many reasons for so many to be living their best life right now, I NEED to think a few happy thoughts. I NEED a little colour while there is none here... I went to see the Take That Circus show, but I'm a very sad little clown right now... Perhaps I'm doing things wrong?! 
I popped into Pride@Home for a breather from my families RL chaos and decided it was time for an ice cream... I may have been decked out in rainbows, but that feels like such a mask and putting on a show right now... Maybe I am more like one of the circus clowns I saw than I realised?! 
Hope everyone that was celebrating had a wonderful Pride Month... I will be heading home soon and NEED some time to get my head on straighter! Bear with me, things could get a little more rocky over the next few months!

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Doremi in Candy 
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory 
Glasses: Space Cadet - Ani Glasses in Pride Edition (Gift Available until June 30th at Pride @ Home) 
Nose Piercing: Frisbey. - Unity Nose Piercing (Gift Available until June 30th at Pride @ Home)
Shirt: miss chelsea - Alex Shirt in Pride Pack (Available until June 30th for Pride@Home)
Necklace: AsteroidBox - Pride Star Necklace (Available until June 30th for Pride@Home)
Top: FICTIVE - PRIDE AT HOME 2026 GIFT (Gift Available until June 30th at Pride @ Home)
Book: [QE Home] - How To Pride (Gift Available until June 30th at Pride @ Home)
Bracelet: Pride at Home - Wristband 2026 (Gift Available until June 30th at Pride @ Home)
Ice Cream: andika - Sweet Pride ice cream (Gift Available until June 30th at Pride @ Home)
Shorts: miss chelsea - Alex Shorts in Pride Pack (Available until June 30th for Pride@Home) 
Pose: [piXit] - Beatrice, Pose F4

Bunny Washing Day

Today was my last day at work before my vacation starts tomorrow. Tomorrow I'm heading to see my family in England and it's definitely not going to be the easiest of visits home... I am worried about a lot of things, but for right now I'm just ready to slip away from reality... 
For right now, this is my last day at work and I'm going to work as well as I can...  

It's a day at the Bubble Blvd - which happens to be a backdrop from FOXCITY for the current round of Collabor88 until July 6th - and it's bunny washing day as the Cottontail Cruiser - cute little companions from everfaery at equal10 - Biker Gang was in town and needing a way to sparkle and cool down all at once... 
I was perfectly willing to assist them pre-soak, until I got tangled in one of the hoses at the Bubble Blvd - which happens to be a top set created by Rosary in collaboration with the FOXCITY Backdrop release! 
It all went down hill and I ended up soaked after that LOL... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & Litterbug - Mochi in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Gum: [Pink Fuel] - Yum Bubblegum!
Choker: BOOM - Precious Bow Choker (Re-coloured by me!)
Bikini: (fashionably dead) - BB Swimsuit in Green
Hose Top, Bucket & Bottle Decor: Rosary - Bubble Blvd Items (Collaboration with FOXCITY, Available until July 6th at Collabor88)
Bubbles: MIWAS - Bubble on me in White
Jeans: ryvolter - Yvonna Detachable Jeans in LightWash
Bunnies: everfaery - Cottontail Cruiser Mount (Available until July 8th at equal10)
Hose Decor: dust bunny - Gardener's Tools in Hose
Sponges: Dutchie - Natural Sponge
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Bubble Blvd in Babe (Collaboration with Rosary, Available until July 6th at Collabor88)

A Raven Princess on a Ghostly Path

I dont wanna keep going on about how crap life is at the moment but it's a general feeling and I'm sorry that I feel that way... I am trying hard so many times to let myself get swept up in a fantasy, but there are things that always keep dragging me back down... 
I felt like I needed a chance to escape again and I want to be anywhere else, so I let myself slip off into the late evening and become a Raven Queen... 

This evening, as the sun is setting, our salvage princess has decided to take a walk along the Ghostly Path - a backdrop from K&S - but she's not alone. A Corvus Princess from the Salvage Station cannot be allowed to walk alone, she's had to take her avian friends with her... Hiding from the light under her Pipe Parasol, and even though it's ripped, it's still great for keeping the last light of the day away from her pale skin... 

What is she wearing;
Spiked Tiara: ERSCH - Roxette Headband
Headband: AsteroidBox - Celestial Headband in Nocturn
Hair: TRUTH & FAGA- Soul in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Collar: CULT - Spike Collar
Shoulder Accessory & Cape: CURELESS[+] - Corvus Manteau
Necklace: SIGMA - Spike necklace (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Outfit: Madame Noir - Station Catsuit (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Parasol: Static - Pipe Parasol (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Bird: Quills & Curiosities - Feathered Familiar
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Enchantress Aura
Pose: [piXit] - Pupa, Pose 2R
Flying Birds: JIAN - Raven Collection
Backdrop: K&S - // Ghostly Path. Backdrop

Monarch Butterfly Dance

I've worked for the last 4 days in a row so that today the hubby and I could be at home to work on a few things that need to be done in the house before the windows are changed next week... I am feeling beyond tired, my body has aches in places that I didn't know could ache and my mind is mostly wondering when it can go back to sleep... I'm proud of what we got done today... 
I Needed to let my mind wander today, I needed to do something a little different from the every day normal in Real Life, I needed a slice of fantasy... 

I NEEDED some fun, I found something gorgeous I HAD to find a way to let my hair down so that I can relax after a long day of hard work. I couldn't let myself avoid the chance I discovered today... 
I went to one of my favourite places for exploring, the gorgeous Kaleidoscope Monarch Education Project location and I made sure that I dressed the part... A gorgeous little Monarch Butterfly Fae to dance amongst her new found friends... 

What is she wearing;
Flowers: Mug - Mugchella Festival Gacha in #3 Daisy Headband White
Hair: TRUTH & FAGA - Playful in Redhead
Head: BeSpoke - Blossom
Body Paint, Wings & Antenna: Faunus - Monarch Dress
Necklace: Buzzeri - Daisy Choker in Natural
Dress: Faunus - Monarch Butterfly
Pose & Prop: [PiXit] - Boho Dancer, Pose F4R

Is it all just a game?

I've been thinking about something since I had a conversation with a RL colleague about how Tim and I met in Second Life. She was curious and I explained to her about the Second Life world, what it's capable of and all of those wonderful things that can happen because of it... She was raving about the Sims, comparing the two and suggesting that she would be interested in coming to see what SL was like... She said she was looking for a new game, and I offered to help her out, but part of me was twitching about it being game... What are your thoughts?

I have thought long and hard about this topic for the past 20 ish years of being in Second Life. When I think of games I do think of things like board games or video games, I think of PC games like the Sims and world building games, but then do I still consider Second Life in the same way? 
For some it looks like a game... Creating a character, creating a world and living a life that is different from the real one, it's an escape and a chance to be someone you want to be... But is it a game, or is it more of a chat simulation programme? I've worked in Second Life in a Real Life job, I met my husband in Second Life and we've been married for 12 years now, and I met some people that I will keep with me always too... Does that make it a game or is it something different? Is it because I've been here so long now that I feel this way, is it still a game to the new inhabitants or is it really a place that's something different? 
What do you think?? I've been pondering this a lot today whilst going about my boring chores, I just want to know if I'm the only one that feels this way... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH  & Wasabi - Doremi in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - Metal Frame Sunglasses
Necklace: AsteroidBox - Sylvia Chains
Top: miss chelsea - Nara Set in Top
Shirt: Mug - Jett Top in Black Flannel
Pants: miss chelsea - Nara Set in Jeans
Beer & Cigarette: Junk Food - Beer & Cigarette
Pose: [piXit] - Beatrice, Pose F1R
Dice: random.Matter - Game Night Dice Tray in Red
Beer Cans & Ice Bucket: hive - Beer Buds Pack
Backdrop: blaink - D&D Club

Roses on the Royal Grave

As always with me you can NEVER tell me which type of mood I'll be in when I start to plan out something for a blog post of the day. I love the fact that I can just open my wardrobe, see what is new to play with and then just see where an item that I picked out will take me... 
Today was a dark and sad and depressed kinda mood today and the result was something partially medieval princess, partially gothic funeral... 

After the death of the king, his undead princess bride was only able to briefly attend his burial before the people of the town started arriving to pay their respects with the rising of the sun... 
She's still bleeding through her pearls from the last bite he ever took, and she hides her face and hair under the trappings of a Solemn Bride - from Static - but just before the sun rises she takes one last rose and casts it into the open grave as the Gravediggers - which is actually the name of the backdrop from FOXCITY - start to bury him in the eternal darkness... 
On a side note, aside from the story I was creating in my head as I set out this blog post, I HAVE to make a little point of sharing this gorgeous Nightshade tube style dress with you... It's part of an outfit from Psycho Barbie, that is available at the main store, with a fluffy off the shoulder cardigan/jacket also being available!!! The patterns and colours are fab, perfect for hot goth girl summer!!!! 

What is she wearing;
Tiara, Mask & Veil: Static - Solemn Bride
Hair: TRUTH & FAGA - Emerald in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Choker: Sorumin - Trick Reward 2022 in Bloody necklace (Past Gift)
Necklace: (Yummy) - Bloody Elegance Pearl Necklace
Roses: hive - Romantic Roses in Gothic Pack
Dress: Psycho Barbie - Nightshade Dress
Pose: Fashiowl - Flowers, Pose 7
Wreaths: Jian - Dead Wreath Stands
Coffin: Six Feet Under - Awakening Coffin in Brown
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Gravedigger

Fairy Defence in the Darkness!

Sometimes I have a craving when it comes to blogging to do things that are NOT normal and let myslf get lost in a fairytale, be that a good or a dark one... Being lost in a fairytale really helps me with my mental state and right now being lost feels like a great idea. There is just too much going on in my own little world, as well as in the real world, and without complaining here too much I feel like I'm losing the battle pretty fast... So step back from the norm Rudh and find a way to embrace the darkness... My darkness feels like a HUGE monster, lets make him more friendly and things will calm down once more?! I hope... 

In the garden of the Spinners, my monster floats through the light that breaks through the trees and the darkness... He's a cloaked Hornswoggle - made by Tardfish, available at the Fantasy Faire Aventurine Promenade to raise money for Race for Life - and though he lurks in the dark, when he comes into the light he's a lot less scary and more like a Ringwraith from the Lord of the Rings... 
He's always trying to scare the fae folk that wander through the gardens.. Rudh as a sassy little fae isn't one to mess with. I guess that's why I decided to take on my monster as a fae today... She's a little thorny, but she sparkles in the dark so that the monsters are intimidated. She's armed with her Willowvine Wand - from Simply Shelby at the Fantasy Faire Stoneveil Crossing Sim - and the magic within will keep her monster at bay... 

What is she wearing;
Hair Flowers & Thorns: LODE - Thorns & Grace Gacha Items
Hair: Truth & FAGA - Pendulum in Redhead
Glasses: Violetility - Thorn-Rimmed Glasses (Available until May 18th at The Warehouse)
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Wings: Doe - Dawnwood Wings in Magic
Necklace: KOSH - THE LEAF NECKLACE
Vines: Static - Luminettle Arm Vine in Brown
Wand: Simply Shelby - Willowvine Wand in Elder (Available until May 10th at Fantasy Faire Stoneveil Crossing)
Dress: Faunus - Eryl Dress
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Glitterati & Starstuff
Pose: [piXit] - Not So Lovely Lolli, Pose 4
Monster: Tardfish - Hornswoggle in Comic (Available until May 10th at Fantasy Faire Aventurine Prominade Sim)
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Spinner's Crypt II (Modified a little by removing some of the sunlight rays & the Wall, please see original Here)

Bad Girls have the Uncensored Tapes!

Everyone has their hobbies, and the fact that we all have so many different hobbies is wonderful because it shows how unique we can all be... Some love sports, some love music, others love crafting things be that cooking or knitting or pottery or making something wonderful with your hands...
I love to be creative and use my blog to do that, I also love to junk journal and knit, I love music of all different kinds and you should know by now that I read and read and read... Mostly Smut but I read...

Some other people love movies, HellBone is a movie lover, but with so much choice, how hard is it to choose a movie these days... I know that HellBone is a horror movie lover, I would spend forever getting lost in Middle Earth and on a bad day The Princess Diaries helps me feel better, but there are other types of movies out there... Some days you just need the kind that make you shiver with a different type of Anticipation... 
Nights like tonight when you're on a visit to the Bad Girls Club, and there's this one naughty girl in the Crimson Nights - a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - room with a collection of those naughty Uncensored Tapes - from Krescendo until the end of today at Fetish Fair, yes I KNOW it's almost the closing but they will be at the mainstore soon I'm sure - that we can watch on the Retro TV Combo - from MadPea - in the room to get us in the mood... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & Litterbug - Chrome in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Collar: GABRIEL - Take me Leash in Black
Outfit: Psycho Barbie - [Darkmoon Set - Fatpack]
VHS Tapes: [Krescendo] - Uncensored Tape (Available until April 26th at Fetish Fair)
Pose: [piXit] - Annette, Pose F1R
TV: MadPea - Retro Combo TV in Black
Stacked Tapes: Mithral - VHS Tape Stack Set
Crate: Ariskea - [Hiyoku] Just a Trunk  in Black Common
Neon Sign: [Krescendo] - Kinky Neon, 4
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Crimson Nights {360} Backdrop

Ordered the Burger Surprise!

I spent sooooo much time working on chores today, I couldn't get myself into the right brain to think about much more than getting through the cleaning. I'm trying to wrap myself up in things that are avoiding the guilt of not being present to help over the Easter Weekend, but I have to keep reminding myself that I AM allowed to have time off since I'm working Friday and Saturday... Let the guilt go, seriously I'm working my shifts and the fact that I'm living here shouldn't be  reason to worry about not helping downstairs... Rant over... For now I think?! 
Now onto the more prominent task... What is for dinner?! 

Burgers it is... I fancy something gross and greasy and fastfood would be perfect. Nothing like a little Junk Food to make a girl feel a bit better about her grumpy mood... 
I'll head to the California Burger bar, and grab myself a delicious cheese burger... I was NOT actually expecting the surprise that followed. The burger attacked me... It was a Surprise Attack... A delicious but wonderful surprise attack... Things got a little saucy, a little cheesy but it was all in good fun! 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Sorumin - Bucket hat SET in Burger
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Corvina in Redhead
Glasses: Junk Food - Pickle Vision
Nose Accessory: FOXCITY - Fryends Bento Pose in Prop Nose Fries
Make-up: Izzie's - Mouth Mess in Ketchup
Chest Accessory: parfait - Pizza Slvt Melted Cheese EXCLUSIVE
Arm Accessories: MIWAS - Bubble on me (Recoloured by me!)
Top: Stories&Co - Portia Bustier in Fatpack (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Costume: Junk Food - Burger Costume
Pose: [piXit] - Surprise!, Pose F5
Burger Box & Bag: Junk Food - Macky D's Tray Items
Fries & Drink: Half-Deer - Fast Food Clutter Items
Sauce: Junk Food - Dino Nuggets Plate Set in Ketchup
Backdrop: Focus Poses - California Burger Backdrop

Collecting the Snacks

Another day off and one again all I could seem to think about was food... I WAS STARVING but as per usual I didn't have anything in the house that I wanted to eat LOL. Is that just the case for me or does everyone suffer this fate? I've never been a dieter, always allowing myself the things I like to eat but do it in moderation, if I didn't and tried to stop myself the moment that I'd get my hands on what I was craving I'd go crazy and eat far too much of it, but I still get times like this when the one thing that I want to eat is the one thing that we don't have in the house... 
So what did I actually want to eat... I'm not even sure I knew that and could tell you lol... 

I had to thinkof things that would distract me... It's not easy when I'm living in this current situation, I know I'm lucky to have a place to live but I really wish I could be moving back home already, and I can't even do what I'd normally do and play loud music to pay attention to other things. I cannot risk causing any disruption to the customers in the shop below the flat, or my boss will be pissed... 
So headphones are a permanent fixture on my head now, and today it was all about the loud emo rock of my teens... As I'm heading towards being 40, I am very much regressing back into my childhood loves LOL... Loud rock music, Cold coffee and Burgers till I pop... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH - Nicki in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Eye Make-Up: Gorsimi - Slatra Shadows
Collar: PSYCHO:Byts - Black Choker+Spike
Upper Necklace: AsteroidBox - Spike Pendant in Holo Version
Lower Necklace: LaGyo - Spooky Necklace
Top: NeverWish - Rawr Set in Spaghetti Strap Shirt
Arm Warmers: NeverWish - Rawr Set in Arm Warmers
Coffee: Junk Food - Coffee Bucket in LIGHT BREW
Burgers: Junk Food - Burger Bucket in RED
Belt: NeverWish - Rawr Set in Pyramid Spike Belt
Skirt: NeverWish - Rawr Set in Skirt
Pose: [piXit] - Not So Lovely Lolli, Pose 4
Backdrop: K&S - // Underground

Chinese New Year

It feels like a lot is happening all at once in a Spiritual sense at the moment... There are so many different religious and cultural things going on in the world at the same time right now and it feels kinda different that everyone is celebrating something spiritual all at once. It would be nice if it would unite the world a little more, bring us all together since we're all a little closer to our spirituality right now but I doubt very much that will be the case since we all feel so broken... 

Now I know that I am NOT a religious person. I definitely believe in spiritual things, I am always going to believe in fairies and magic, and I LOVE all of the stories from different religions that are uplifting and full of meaning, and I REALLY hope I'm not going to cause offence but I don't like to think anyone's beliefs are more important than anyone elses... I love that we can all be different and believe what we choose, so long as it doesn't harm anyone - yes I KNOW that Wars are constantly, even now, being fought over religious reasons - but it would be such a boring world to live in, if EVERYONE thought the same, believed in the same, dressed the same or acted in the same way... That's my 10cents anyway...
I'm not trying to offend anyone, but I wanted to look a little at some of the current spirituality taking place that I know little about... Besides things I learnt at school there is SO MUCH TO KNOW about two big things taking place right now... Today I will be looking a little at the Chinese Lunar New Year.
So, for us that are not in the know, what is Chinese New Year?
Well apparently it's the most important Chinese Holiday, covering 15 days to celebrate the start of the Lunar New Year, and this year it started on February 17th - yes I KNOW I'm two days late, but I'm moving houses at the moment, give me some slack lol... The reason for the celebration is that it's a start of change, it celebrates family - often honouring ancestors - saying goodbye to the old and welcoming the new fortune for the new year. The whole celebration will culminate 15 days after it starts - so that's March 3rd - with the Lantern Festival!
Another interesting thing that I've often seen but never really thought much of, is that the Chinese Zodiac characters are animal based. Now there is a LOT of information about this, and I could basically write a whole other blog post for it, but this year is the year of the Horse - apparently as I was born in 1986 I am from the year of the Fire Tiger! 
Anyway, thank you for listening to me ramble and learn something new as I went along, I actually really enjoyed looking into something I knew little about and putting together a post for it. I think I will try it more often, and don't worry as always there will be something pretty to look at with a list of what I've got in the picture too... Just accept my ramblings LOL you know you want to... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & FAGA - Symphony in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - Moda Glasses
Dress: Psycho Barbie - Moonspire Dress
Dragon: {Sakura} - Chinese Dragon Plush
Basket: kotte - CNY Basket
Lantern: kotte - Yuan Xiao in Lotus Lantern in Red
Confetti: kotte - Xin Nian in Envelope Confetti
Pose: FOXCITY - Warm Up, Pose 2
Gold Hanging Decor: (Lucas Lameth) - Feng Shui Linden Money Charm $$$
Coin Plant: (Lucas Lameth) - Fortune Tree in Red
Orange Plant: kotte - Xin Nian in Mandarin Tree
Horse Bush: dust bunny - Garden Creatures in Horse Green
Plant Stands: {what next} - Bronze Plant Stands in Bronze
Backdrop: Paparazzi - BACKDROP - Chinese New Year

Milk, Cookies & Cowgirls!

This weekend is Valentine's Weekend and that mean the world is filled with hearts and flowers and romance and sweetness... I am not really a sweet romance kinda girl, I love doing things with my hubby but we're definitely not a romantic pair... We tend to end up doing silly things that make us laugh more than anything... 
Still I'm going to try and get some cute, random, fun in before the holiday and that means after this week I'm done with romance LOL... 

So for today, now that I'm done with work, I'm going to spend a few days at the farm in RL doing a little bit of tidying up, I might also find myself a cute farm hand to enjoy a roll in the hay with. Either that or the cow girl in me will find a way to make sure there is some extra money earnt for the farm by being cute and setting up a kissing booth - which is actually part of the backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis. 
I took the whole cowgirl thing literally today - mostly because the outfit from miss chelsea, available until February 27th at Anthem - but it's cute and it's sweet and well... You know me I LOVE dressing up LOL! 

What is she wearing;
Hat & Hair: TRUTH - Montana in Redhead
Horns & Ears: wickedpup - COW PARTS
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Body Paint: Oddysee - sMoochie tattoo in Black (No Longer Available!)
Choker: Ahegao - Moo Bell Collar
Top: miss chelsea - Etti Set in Top (Available until February 27th at Anthem)
Milk Bottle in Hand: BROKEN ARROWS - Open Milk Bottle
Belt: miss chelsea - Etti Set in Belt (Available until February 27th at Anthem)
Pants: miss chelsea - Etti Set in Capris (Available until February 27th at Anthem)
Pose: [piXit] - Not So Lovely Lolli, Pose 4
Tractor: hive - Old Tractor in Forest Mix
Farm Decor: Tentacio - Milk Basket, THOR - Farmer Drink Set, hive - Harvest Hay Bale , JIAN - Classic Ranch Decor in Ranch Gate, 8f8 - New Beginnings in Milk Containers & hive - Harvest Round Straw Bale
Background: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - Kissing Booth [360] Backdrop

Moving all that Emotional Baggage

This week and next are CRAZY busy weeks in my RL. From February 26th, HellBone and I don't have access to our house in RL because we are having some MAJOR rennovations done that are necessary and we HAVE to get things done. SO, HellBone and I are tidying, packing, sorting and prepping not only ONE but TWO places because luckily for us, my boss was willing to let us live on one of their properties... I have large amounts of anxiety over my roughly 6-month temporary relocation, but for now I'm just getting things ready... 

Every time I have a day off it's like the typical Moving Day scene - a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - there are boxes and cleaning supplies and mess everywhere... It's not just the stuff though, it's all the emotional baggage that I'm carrying - represented so perfectly by The Bearded Guy's What I Carry box - that is making this harder. I am exhausted, I am running on high anxiety and I can feel the clock ticking in a count down to when we are needing everything done and ready by... The cat isn't helping too as she's stressing while the house empties around her and she screams at the top of her little lungs in the voice of her people... I wish there was more hours in the day, just a few hours more then I'd be able to have a proper dinner, rather than just some pizza in my mouth as I dash past... Although Mouth Pizza is flipping delicious... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Sunset in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Mouth Pizza: Junk Food - Mouth Pizza in Supreme
Box: The Bearded Guy - What I Carry
Pants: CryBunBun - Badgirl Jeans in Blue
Tights: [SHIFUKU] - Fishnet Leggings
Pose: [piXit] - Juliet, Pose 5
Vehicle: FINCA  - Delivery Kutto in Peach
Cat Carrier: MadPea - Crazy Cat Lady's Starter Kit in Cat Carrier
Cat: Aardvark - Paws & Reflect Cats in Stretch Armstrong
Pizza: Junk Food - Pizzeria Pizza
Bear: hive - My Colorful Teddy
Books: buildworksdecor - Kinky Books Series Colored, [Merak] - Nocturnes Books, Dahlia - Lunaria in Stacked Books & spruce - Book Collection in Botanical Series
Other Furniture & Boxes: Atelier Burgundy - Moving Day Gacha Items
Backdrop: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - Moving Day Scene

Exercise or Spring Rolls?

So a few posts ago I was all gun ho, full of excitement in planning things for the year. Working on getting through the year and maybe finding time for myself along the way... HOWEVER, like I said in that post, I am totally unreliable when it comes to getting exercising... I work SUPER hard every day, and know I should make time for exercise but I'm always running around so when I'm free I love to relax and rest... I've come to a new conclusion in life... It's like Krescendo read my mind... 

"My winter fat is gone. Now I have Spring Rolls" I mean I guess that it's half true, it's not gone it has just trasferred to being my Spring Rolls LOL... I know I'm a big girl in RL, I have no shame admitting that I'm not a skinny beam pole but I'm also not the kinda girl to go without jokes about it. I've always said I have more rolls than the supermarket... 
I gave up on working out and decided to find some food... Suddenly I have craving some Chinese Takeout - from Junk Food - I think I might have to get two portions of Spring Rolls... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Sangria in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Headphones: Mug - Sara Sports Bra in Black Headphones
Cardigan: miss chelsea - Kiva Set in Cardi (Available until February 8th at Equal10)
Bodysuit: miss chelsea - Kiva Set in Bodysuit (Available until February 8th at Equal10)
Pants: miss chelsea - Kiva Set in Sweats (Available until February 8th at Equal10)
Pose: FOXCITY - Street Style, Pose 4
Food Props: Junk Food - Chinese Takeout Set V.2
Sign: [Krescendo] - Spring Rolls Sign (Available until January 19th for Fifty Linden Friday)
Half Ball: Promagic - Workout-Bosu Ball in Blue
Yoga Mats: CHEZ MOI - Mandala Mat Holder
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Home Gym II (Recoloured by me!)