A Library of Magical Grimoires!

Let's get magical, magical... Let's get magical... Yes I sang that as I typed it to the theme of Madonna's "Let's Get Physical", but even though I've been feeling terrible lately there's always room for a little magic in me... 
While the Midnight Order is open, the magic seems to flow more freely... Since I'm feeling so horrible, the darkness in me seems to be winning... 

Since I'm sick I'm spending a lot of time reading, and therefore had to make a quick trip to the Library - an old but brilliant backdrop from Dirty Rat - but whilst I was there, I discovered the Goddess Scepter hidden among the bookstacks. As soon as my hand gripped the golden rod, books started flying from the sheves, and Ocular Lightning flashed from her eyes... The books swirling on the magic of the moment, a pair of Creature Grimoires - a gorgeous release from Aardvark - making sure I took notice, I wonder what they contain... Looks like I've found my next reads... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: ZAO+ - 88 Hair Pack (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Eye Accessory: Quills & Curiosities - Ocular Lightning
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Cape: egosumaii - Mortal Harvest Mantle
Dress: POISON ROUGE - Bellatrix Dress (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Gloves: POISON ROUGE - Bellatrix Gloves (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Staff: Lowen - Goddess Scepter
Swirl: CURELESS[+] - Sororis Obscura in Profane Invocation HELLFIRE
Books: Aardvark - The Creature Grimoire
Pose: Fashiowl - ChowChow, Pose 9
Backdrop: Dirty Rat - Library

The Checkerboard Palace of the Chess Court

I am still not doing very well, but I am trying to force myself to just carry on and keep going because I have no real choice right now... I'm trying to make myself feel better with a drift into something a little fantastical. My brain is full of fluff, so fantasy seems to be a easy place to drift off to... 
Although I'm not going to do something that is pure and simple, no... Today I want to slip into the most interesting of royal courts, to introduce you to a very special royal... 
Welcome to the Palace of the Chess Court, and let me introduce you to the Princess of the Checkerboard... 

Welcome to the Gothic Ballroom in the Palace of Checkerboard, home of the Chess Court... The Neon Knights Chess Set - a new release from MadPea at the current round of Uber, which I have used as decor but is infact a fully functioning, playable game that I have included the original poster for to show you more information on - gather around the Throne of Shadows - a release from LORE for the Midnight Order - hoping for a meeting with the Black King... The Dark Piece Princess has come to witness the spectacle of the piece gathering... The pawns moving aside to welcome their Checkerboard Princess... 

What is she wearing;
Tiara: Fika - Duchess Fringe Tiara (No Longer Available!)
Hair: TRUTH - Eternity in Fatpack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Make-Up: Rubedo - diddi (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Outfit (Including ALL Worn): PENDULUM - REVENANT (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Goat: [:MILKBATH:] - Gemini (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Pose: FOXCITY - Dolls V3, Pose 7
Chess Set: MadPea - Neon Knights Chess Set (Available until August 22nd at Uber)
Throne & Dais: LORE - Throne of Shadows & Dais of Shadows (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Backdrop: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - Gothic Ballroom

A Little Pool Party

I'm not feeling very well, I've been suffering with an increase in bouts of enometriosis and soon I'm going to be visiting my doctor about it, but for now I'm finding it hard to sit in one place and therefore finding time to blog is proving a little difficult. That on top of being in charge at work, when I'm having to fill in shifts because my colleagues are all away and others are sick... Things in Second Life have had to fall onto the back burner, it's all gone quiet on the Rudhmellowen front... 

While it's quiet, the scared little inhabitants of our little Second Life Garden paradise to enjoy the summer sunshine, and the peace and quiet... 
In the garden, the pool stands ready for a party but totally empty. The Castle Sprinklers - from Krescendo at Anthology - have been turned on sending a cooling misty breeze through the pergola and over the poolside - which happens to be a backdrop from FOXCITY... The little mice have snuck out from their hedgerow homes and pulled out their floaties - they are actually the Floaty Pool Mouse collection by Aardvark at Anthology until August 17th - not being brave enough to enter the deep pool, they plan on using the Inflatable Soda Tub - from Junk Food - to cool off and have a little pool party of their own. 

What is in the picture;
Mice: Aardvark - Floaty Pool Mouse (Available until August 17th at Anthology)
Drinks: Junk Food - Inflatable Soda Tub in Green
Castle Towers: [Krescendo] - Castle Sprinkler (Available until August 17th at Anthology)
Backdrop:  FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Poolside

Prayers for a Dark Goddess

So tired after a difficult day at work today, being the boss has no perks other than you can decide if you go home earlier or not lol... I've been in charge ONE DAY and there was scheduling chaos, meaning I'm working 4 straight days now and three of those are LONG days... 
I don't know what will happen so I'm going to make a prayer to the gods and hope that the dark goddesses will allow things to go smoothly for once... 

I'm going to make a plea prayer and sacrifice to the dark goddesses within the Cementerio Demoniaco - a backdrop from The Bearded Guy - carving the sigils into the flesh to draw out the blood required using the Runic Sickle of the Midnight Order - which happens to be a release from Static at the Second Life Syndicate's Midnight Order this month. 
I hope that I drew it correctly and I'm not accidentally going to summon a chicken or something... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH - Element in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Eye: Nylon Outfitters - Third Eye in Strange Colors
Collar: +WORN+ - Choke Me Out DIRTY
Fan: Random Matter - The Countess Hand Fan in Metals
Blade: Static - Runic Sickle (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Veils: CURELESS[+] - Silk Radiance Halo & CUREMORE - Voodoo Tribe Ngami Halo RARE
Top: everfaery - Chisa Tube Top in Latex/Leather Pack
Pose: [piXit] - Juicy Portraits, Pose F6R
Backdrop: The Bearded Guy - Cementerio Demoniaco Backdrop 

Darkest of Three Ways

I do love times when I find myself getting inspired by the things going on around me. One of the biggest inspiratons that has been pulling onme latelyhappens to be the fact that when I'm not working on something blogging wise, or even knitting myself into a new blanket, I'm reading... I have always been a reader, but since the beginning of this year, I've been reading a heck of a lot more and I'm loving it. I've fallen into a world of smut with the occasional romantic sweetness, and maybe even the odd fairytale... 
The story that I've been reading this week happens to be a mixture of all of these things, and I decided to try my hand to see what can be made from my imaginings.. The story is "Her Soul to Take" by Harley Laroux...

This is the story of a girl moving back to her childhood home only to discover that she's become the obsession of a gorgeous demon, and the intended sacrifice to an old God. There's a level of scary, a level of tension and a level of darkness that make this book a great read. There's also a level of smut in it that meant there had to be a content warning which says the book shouldn't be used as a manual for BDSM practices... 
So when I was playing around with the look today it happened that not only was bad little Rudh on the hunt for a new toy to play with - capturing one in a zip up bodybag like the one from MDN at Midnight Order - it turned into her staking down a dark alley, dragging her toy to her demon dressed in the kinkiest of pink PVC outfits... There has never been a better time to STOP monogamy and have a three way... 

What is she wearing;
Pink Rudh:
Hair: Wasabi - Matcha K9 ED. Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Bodysuit with Leash: wraith - Zoey Suit (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Bag: DAE - EMO Bone Spider Bag (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Boots: CULT - Cove Fatpack
Pose: FOXCITY - Intoxistake, Pose 4m
Bag Rudh:
Hair: [monso] - Misaki Hair
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Bag: MDN - Bodybag Zip Up (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Pose: Secret Poses - Sunny, Pose 4M
Sign: [Krescendo] - Monogamy Sign in Red
Monster: Hogs & Carts - Wendigo
Backdrop: .PALETO.Backdrop - BEEY

Midnight Order's Garden of Serenity

Twice a year, every there is a magical event that comes to Second Life... An event that is full of dark magic so that even in the harsh light of summer, the dark, twisted little beings can find some solace and a place to rejoice. They are gathering in the shadows, the Midnight Order is coming to town and everyone is excited to see what the magical event brings out to play this time... 

Until we're allowed to wander through the market stalls of the Midnight Order, until the elders allow us to explore the fun of the Midnight Order, Rudh needed to find a way to waste a little time to stop herself from being fidgety and overly excited... She's decided to take a stroll somewhere dark and quiet to avoid the summer heat, perhaps a walk through the Garden of Serenity - a gorgeous backdrop by K&S that will be available from Midnight Order - a place that brings out her inner darkness and draw her little Vampyr friends - from Apika, alongside the Umbrella also at Midnight Order... 
Even though it's insanely hot, the darker side of her brain likes to bring out the beautiful gothic Victorian style, but in this case she's pulled on a gorgeous Kiba Corset - which actual has a full bodysuit feel to it, from AsteroidBox at Midnight Order - but I pulled on a gorgeously Sympathy Skirt - from toksik that comes with a gorgeously frilly top - and together they make such a wonderfully fabulous gown... 
Now I just have to wait, with baited breath until the Order opens it's doors... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: ZAO+ - 86 Hair Pack (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Wings: Sweet Thing - Demon Wings
Top: AsteroidBox - Kiba Corset (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Umbrella: [Apika] - Vampyr Umbrella (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Skirt: toksik - Sympathy Skirt (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Pose: -Extra- - Squad (Part of a Group Pose) (Past Group Gift)
Bats: [Apika] - Count Vampyr Animesh (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Backdrop: K&S - // Garden of Serenity. Backdrop (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)

Schools Out!

Today's the big day, here in the northern parts of the Netherlands, it's the day that schools finish for Summer... In the words of the great Alice Cooper... SCHOOLS OUT FOR SUMMER!!!

Most everyone will be heading out to have a little fun in the sun, if it ever turns up this summer, but they are all about to leave school for a much needed break... Rudh on the other hand, because she's always been a bit of a bad girl, and somewhat of a rebel, she has been held back for another few weeks of summer school... School may be out for everyone, but Rudh is going to just make notes of all of the happiness and remember those who left her behind over Summer break...

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - BFF FLF ED. Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: kotte - Melloween Glasses in Silver
Chest Tattoo:  [Onyx] - My Rules Tattoo in Half Heaven
Outfit: Mug - Phoebe Sweater Set in White
Book: Dots - Popular Girls Book in Pink
Pen: Dots - Popular Girls Pen in Pink
Boots: CULT - Wanda
Pose: Secret Poses - Julian, Pose 4
Books: NOMAD - School Equipment Gacha in 01 // Math Studies
Bag: Tentacio - School Day Bag
Boards: [Consignment] - Equation boards
People: Various available on Marketplace
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - School's Out {360} Backdrop

Ice-Creams at the Monster Diner

I work in a job that's ALL about serving the public, I am in retail and even though its a sales job I am also an etnertainer and historian and tourist information... I guide people through Amsterdam, I tell stories about cheese and I spend a lot of time trying to tell people about laws regarding cheese transport... I get home and relax but as I'm snozzing on the sofa, the idea of me serving people, and the fact that I'm watching the live-action version of Monster High, became a trip to the Monster diner... 

The Monster Diner - which is actually a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - is a great place to head for dinner, the burgers are HUGE and really delicious but it's the Ice-cream in this place that can be considered magical... 
They have an amazingly Sweet Stop Milkshake Machine - a creation from MadPea, available at ACCESS until August 8th - that has magical abilities in the Monster Diner, that not only creates amazing milkshakes but if you press the right buttons you get the most magical Ice Cream Treats - from Tardfish - that come to life and wriggle like the cutest of Octopi... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: [Yomi] - Genesis Hair with bonbon - Uzumaki Hair Pieces
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Demon Skin, Horn & Tail: FOREST FANTASY STORE - Half Demon in Red
Eyes: (Left) Suicidal Unborn - Nova Eyes & (Right) Suicidal Unborn - Prince Vlad Eyes
Necklace: Six Feet Under - Ghoul Necklace
Outfit (Including Hat, Dress & Skates): Tentacio & PSYCHO:Byts - Mosterize Dinner Waitress Gacha Collection
Ice-Cream: Tardfish - Ice Cream Treat in Mint
Pose: FOXCITY - Intoxistake, Pose 7m
Ice-Cream Machine: MadPea - Sweet Stop Milkshake Machine in Pink (Available until August 8th at ACCESS)
Monsters: Hogs & Carts - Various Static Models
Burgers: Junk Food - Bacon Burger Tower
Fries & Sodas: Half-Deer - Fast Food Clutter Items
Condiments: FOXCITY - Tasty AF Gacha Item in Condiments
Napkins: 220ML - Ice Cream Cart Gacha Item in Napkin Holder
Neon Wall Art: Rumah Kita - Neon Yum Yums in Burger (No Longer Available!)
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Retro Diner {360} Backdrop (With PALETO.Backdrop - MIDNIGHT through diner windows)

Fun in the Sun Essentials!

I seem to start all of my posts lately in the same way... Today was my day off and I did this or that... Though once again, it's been my day off and I've been having a lovely lazy day minding my own business and doing some things that I needed to get done... 
I wanted to spend some time in the sun, it seems to be avoiding the Netherlands this year, and although I am not a summer girl sometimes we need the sun to get rid of that Winter S.A.D effect... The only problem is, I seem to be terrible at remembering one key thing... Sunscreen... 

I am a natural redhead in RL, not just the bottled fire engine red that Rudh wears, but that means that normally when the sun is able to get to my skin for any length of time I tend to go bright red and then back to white... 
Sunburn used to be a bane of my existence, now days I'm constantly carrying sunscreen with me, but back when I was a teen... I forgot and thought nothing of it... 
Today I've been planning a trip on a sailing boat from Santamaria Pier - a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - I'm taking my little French Bulldogs - from Jian - with me and we are heading out on the open water... I've just got a quick stop to make at the "Fun in the Sun Essentials" Machine - a creation by MadPea, available until August 5th at equal10 - so that I can grab myself some new sun block and avoid getting any more sunburn - like the older but still awesome set, available from Izzie's... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Chili Hair in Offbeat (Available until August 8th at ACCESS)
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Face Cream: Spookshow - Goth Block
Sunburn Body Layer: Izzie's - Body & Face Sunburn
Necklace: katat0nik - Motion Lotion Sunblock Necklace in Blue
Top: AsteroidBox - Elvie Top in GrayStripes
Bag: REIGN - BEACH BAG DOGGY SHADES Gacha Item in (SOLID) #12
Shoes: Tentacio - Vanesa Sandals & Flowers
Shorts: (fashionably dead) - Star Cutoffs in All Over Grey
Pose: -Extra- - Expecting, Pose 2
Dogs: JIAN - French Bulldogs
Machine: MadPea - Fun In the Sun Essentials Machine (Available until August 5th at Equal10)
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Santamaria Pier {360} Backdrop

Glowing in Rainbow Colours

Dancing on my days off seems to be something that happens regularly... I love creating a look that makes me sparkle, I love being creative and finding something that connects both my dark and monstrous side, with something bright and rainbow and full of sparkles... 
The dark little demon in me cannot stop herself from being one of the first on the dancefloor... The club will always be the first place that she goes to sparkle... 

The dance floor in this club is lit by lots of neon lasers, and these amazingly fancy Bubble Wall - that is actually available this weekend from MadPea for Kustom9 Weekend, and can be coloured to fit your bubblicious needs - which sent sparkles all around the dancefloor and made me even happier to be dancing through the colours... 
Never one to be outdone on the colour front, our little demonness decided to take matters ino her own hands and dressed for a rave... Tying Glow Sticks into her horns - which are a release from Neverwish that is available until July 30th at Anthem - wearing a pattern on her shirt that was far from her usual choice since she's a bit anti anything aliens, and even dyed her hair a neon green to reflect the bright colours... It's on days like this when I feel the best.... 

What is she wearing;
Horns: NeverWish - Glow Stick Horns in Fatpack (Available until July 30th at Anthem)
Hair: Wasabi - Starlight Hair in Offbeat
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Bindis: #SADGIRL - Mended Heart
Choker: Kibitz - Anne's Strap Collar in Silver
Necklace: Kibitz - Luzie's Collar in Silver
Top: miss chelsea - Ravi Top (Available until July 30th at Anthem)
Left Bracelet: Izzie's - 80's Rainbow Bangles
Right Bracelet: [Yomi] - Jelly Bracelets
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Popstars & Starstuff, #LuluB! - Invierna (No Longer Available!) & Doe - Stars Aura
Pose: Secret Poses - Kelsey, Pose 3
Bubbles: MadPea - Bubble Wall (Available this weekend for Kustom9 Weekend)
Backdrop: The Bearded Guy - Damirin in Body Funk 2.0 *RARE*

There's Red in the Bamboo!

I love using my blogging as a means to explore things that I wouldn't normally play around with. My basic style in SL is often dark and grungy, lots of black and plenty of metal, but my blog is full of so many random looks and styles because I LOVE the chance to play and do things that are different... 
One style that I tend to avoid is anything Asian... Japanese, Korean and Chinese dress is very popular in Second Life, but I always feel like I'm getting it wrong and although I LOVE seeing avatars that pull off the style, I always feel like it doesn't look right on me... Very occasionally though, something happens with a dress or an accessory, and my random rambling heads into a new territory for me... 

I've been whisked away on a trip to the bamboo forests of China - which in this case is actually a backdrop from Amitie - where the lanterns light the path through the bamboo to the Red Panda grove... The adorable little Red Pandas - a collection from the amazing JIAN - scamper through the wood, climbing in the trees and causing large amounts of chaos.
It was suggested that I needed to make sure they would accept my visit, I had to dress in the gorgeous Keya Dress - from miss chelsea, available at The Fifty until July 20th - so that I resembled their normal keepers, and wear some cute Red Panda Ears on a headband - although these are part of a set from HAZEL and are actually ears lol -so that they would get close enough to take the bamboo from my hand!!! Aren't they cute?! 

What is she wearing;
Panda Ears: HAZEL - RED PANDA
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Karma in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Bamboo in Hand: Cubura - Oh, Hunny! Gacha Item in Bamboo (No Longer Available!)
Dress: miss chelsea - Keya Dress (Available until July 20th at The Fifty)
Pose: Secret Poses - Elani, Pose 3
Pandas: JIAN - Red Panda FATPACK
Standing Lanterns: Simply Shelby - Zen Garden Lanterns
Arches: Simply Shelby - Serenity Lantern Set
Backdrop: Amitie - Bamboo Backdrop

Reminders of Seductions Past

Seduction is a dangerous thing. Second Life is often portrayed in a bad light, due to the press it's received and the inclusion in shows that made it out to be ful of catfish, stalkers and murderers... I try to defend this social platform whenever I can, but more often than not it's better not to waste your breath... 
There is some truth to the sexual side of Second Life, and although it's not as it's often portrayed in the media, there is definitely a smuttier side to our online community, one that can be fun if you dive into your kinks deeply enough... 

Since I've been married to HellBone I've been a very good girl but before him, I was a bit of a bad girl... Maybe more than a bit... A lot might be closer to the mark... I loved nothing more than to tease, and I was good at it too. Second Life was the perfect place to do that, to live out those little fantasies and enjoy the company of some very like minded people... I let my mind wander and my fantasies sore, with human avies and demonic ones, with kinks that were mine and those of the others involved... It changed me, and marked me for life... 
I'm showing off today, dancing for the boys aiming to Seduce and Destroy - thanks to the backdrop from blaink - but while I dance I'm reminded of those memories that matter. The Fork Butt Demon - a new release from Tardfish, available until July 24th at LEVEL - stabbing me with his fork leaving lasting prickles on my skin, of thoughts that once were... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & FAGA - Luscious in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Shorts: miss chelsea - Ravi Shorts (Available until July 30th at Anthem)
Demon: Tardfish - Fork Butt Demon in Berry (Available until July 24th at LEVEL)
Pose: Secret Poses - Jeane, Pose 1
Mesh people: Various available on Marketplace
Backdrop: blaink. - DaTeibol

Dinner by the Pool

Today was supposed to be my first day of the weekend, and rather than having a lovely day off, Mother Nature had other ideas and I was left feeling yuck all day... 
I did, however, wake up feeling extremely hungry, and decided it would be a great idea to head out of my bed to find food... 

There's this fancy new restaurant that opened called the Indoor Pool Bar - which happens to be a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - and I've heard great things about the delicious things on offer, so I planned that would be the place I'd eat today... 
There is a lot of different things on offer to eat, but I decided to take on their Bacon Tower Burger - a Junk Food Saturday Sale release - although rather than fries I opted for a bag of Flooritos - also from Junk Food - with some spicy salsa... One thing aside from the food that you REALLY have to try at the bar is the amazing cocktails in the Mexican Tumblers - from Boutique #187, available until July 11th at N21 - they are tequila based and absolutely delicious... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Marina FLF Ed. Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Top: miss chelsea - Jovi Top
Shorts: miss chelsea - Jovi Shorts
Pose: Secret Poses - Elani, Pose 1
Drink: Boutique #187 - Mexican Tumbler (Available until July 11th at N21)
Burger: Junk Food - Bacon Burger Tower (Available this weekend for the Saturday Sale!)
Chips: Junk Food - Retro Flooritos in Nacho
Salsa & Chip: Junk Food - Spooky Nachos
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Indoor Pool Bar {360} Backdrop

Jungle Fae

I know that it happens a lot, but sometimes when days off happen, I tend to find my brain slipping into a magical fantasy world inhabited by fae, mermaids and monsters. ALL OF WHICH look somewhat like me, but are like perfect magical little chunks of my mind... 
This time we find ourselves in the deepest of jungles - which happens to be a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis, where the light dances between the trees and the pollen dances in the breeze... This is where we find one of the illusive jungle fae, floral, bright and friends with the cute little beasts... 

Any time that I get to go Fae, I LOVE IT... I can't help but smile, it makes me a very happy girl to let the inner fae out to play... 
This jungle fae loves to play in the sunlight, dancing through the trees and enjoying the fun with her Lil Gacko friends - from MishMish - decked in vines and tropical flowers like the amazingly rare Midnight Hibiscus flowers - a stole from Static at Anthem... 

What is she wearing;
Horns: Quills & Curiosities - Hellebore Horns
Hair: Wasabi - Mathilda Hair in Offbeat
Skin: Wyrd - Saga in Leaf (No Longer Available!)
Upper Necklace: katat0nik - Tropical Necklace in Red
Shawl: Static - Midnight Hibiscus in Orange (Available until July 27th at Anthem)
Long Necklace: Pucca Firecaster Creations - Jungle Necklace
Wings: Decoy (Now everfaery)- Blooming Fae Wings
Outfit: Decoy (Now everfaery) - Forest Fae HD in Green
Glitter: Cole's Corner - Glitterati
Pets: MishMish - Lil Geckos
Pose: Fashiowl - Geek in the Pink, Pose 10 (Available until July 7th at MadPeas PlayXpo Event)
Backdrop: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - Jungle [360] Backdrop

A Pack of Tired

It's hard to believe that it is now July... WHERE HAS THE YEAR GONE ALREADY?! We've entered what we call the slippery slope to Christmas, the day after my Sister's Birthday has ALWAYS been the start of that... 
I don't really know how to feel about things, I'm worn out and cannot wait till I get to go home to the UK in August, but first I have to get through July and the time that my boss will be away and I have to take the lead... I'm already tired, how will I get through this... 

I'm doing everything that I can to help keep myself on track... I'm going through the motions... Working, cooking, laundry and keeping up with the chores I have to do. One thing that I do miss is being able to switch off and take my dog for a long walk... I miss her at moments when I don't expect it, and it seems to happen more when I'm tired and feeling drained... I feel like I keep seeing the ghost of my girl walking through the house. 
I needed to take my mind off it, and although I'm not ready to get a new dog in RL, I AM more than willing to adopt a pack's worth in SL... Today as I was out on an adventure, I met and brought home an adorable pack of Jack Russells - from Jian, who happens to be an exciting new sponsor for me YAY! 
As if I wasn't tired enough, now I have a pack of boystrous little scamps to look after... I'll be ok though, one day at a time whilst I remain pretty, scary and tired! 

What is she wearing;
Hat & Hair: [Yomi] - Nimu Hair
Eye Bags: Izzie's - Insomnia
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Necklace: Kibitz - Luniex's Choker in Silver
Jacket: Pseudo - Bradley Jacket Black
Chest Piercing: [G-SHOT] - VOXY ChestPiercing
Top: Violetility - Morta Tank (Available until July 11th at SABBATH)
Pants: STOP - Dou Pants in Tone 3
Pose: Fashiowl - So Lazy, Pose 11
Dogs: JIAN - Jack Russell Collection
Backdrop: PALETO.Backdrop - STAIRCASE