Bonnie Chaos at Midnight

I'm at that stage now, where I don't know what to do but I don't really want to do anything... Yes it is apparently just me going through the grieving process but right now I feel somewhat useless and nothing I seem to try is working... I can't get into reading, knitting, decorating in RL or SL, and blogging therapy seems to be a non-starter too... There are so many fun things I could be doing... What am I doing? Doom-scrolling and staring into space... Everything I try seems to be going wrong!!

I NEED to find a way to turn my brain off, to stop myself from wallowing and yes, allow myself to grieve but allow myself to find strength and start finding my "normal" again... I'm dreading it!
Everything seems to be going wrong or turning to chaos and I'm NOT going to let myself drown in that... Think of the chaos that some people go through, real or imagined and things don't look so bad, I guess... 
I NEED a RL distraction for a bit... Something Dark, Mysterious and set in a Midnight Order perhaps... Something with gangsters and molls, something twisted and chaotic... 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Magika - Abigail Hair Hat
Hair: About Love - Sultry Hairstyle
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Jacket: [VOZ] - Umbrae Set in Coat (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Corset Top: SOJOUR - Luize Corset (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Lace Skirt: Stories&Co - Sherry Skirt in Cream&Black Lace
Pose & Prop: [PiXit] - Juliette, Pose F5
Car Decor: Dirty Rat - The Botched Job
Falling Money: [Bad Unicorn] - The Heat Gacha in Falling Cash
Gun Case: /MURDER\ - Commie Tommy
Backdrop: PALETO.Backdrop - Decatur Street 

Demonic Nuns at the Bloodlight Chapel

It's Halloween season, and I've been able to play with my first Halloween pictures and it felt like such an amazing feeling being able to get myself all spookified... 
I had so many ideas, I didn't know where to start so I ended up heading to the most amazing place to start the Halloween season... I've been wandering the graveyard until I bumped into a new, dark little friend... 

Standing in the light of the Bloodlight Chapel - a backdrop from The Bearded Guy - is a dark little Nun. Demonic Nun, but a nun all the same... She is a lover of all things Vowless - which actually is the outfit named by it's designer VOZ - and treats it like a Sacred Torment... A dark little holy trip for the start of Halloween, who knows what kind of darkness will appear this month... 

What is she wearing;
Upper Halo: random.Matter - Deucalion Halo in Silver
Lower Halo: KITZ'UNE - Sinful HALO
Headdress & Hair: Doe - Mercy Veil
Third Eye: (Nylon Outfitters) - Third Eye in Strange Colors - Evil
Head, Skin & Make-Up: BeSpoke - Phantom Eyes in Crimson (Available until October 12th at Gothcore)
Eyes: BeSpoke - Phantom Eyes in Crimson (Available until October 12th at Gothcore)
Necklace: Six Feet Under - Sacred Torment
Top Collar: [VOZ] - Vowless Set in Collar
Chest Wound Tattoo: Psycho Barbie - Satan's Mark
Outfit: [VOZ] - Vowless Set in Dress
Wings: Sweet Thing - Demon Wings
Tail: Sweet Thing - Demon Tail
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Enchantress
Pose: [piXit] - Angelica, Pose F7
Backdrop: The Bearded Guy - Bloodlight Chapel Backdrop

Planet Aysa Creama

I'm loving having time off work and I've not even left for my vacation yet, all that happens tomorrow, and today I've just been busying myself getting all ready to go... 
We've had dinner and my hubby has told me that there is Ice Cream in the freezer for dessert... Now all I can think about is Ice Cream... 

It made my mind drift off to random thoughts and that in turn lead my mind to another world that was built of Ice Cream and was inhabited by the Summer Delights Ice Cream Monsters... 
It's perpetually snowing on this little planet that smells sweet and the colours are cute, and tastes delicious... The demonnesses taste delicious too... If you're brave enough to try and taste them... 

What is she wearing;
Hat: [The Forge] - Icecream Splat
Hair: katat0nik - Strawberry Cream Wig in Pink (Available until March 6th at Collabor88)
Skin: [Faunus] - Helios Skin Applier
Face Sprinkles: kotte - Face Pack in Sprinkles
Glasses: Half-Deer - Summer Delights in Melty Sunglasses
Mask: Violetility - Cupcake Respirator
Collar: Violetility - Ruffle Collar in Pink
Wings: PSYCHO.Byts - IceCream Monster in Wings RARE
Body Mess: CUREMORE - Melty Love & MIWAS - Bubble on me #White (Recoloured by me!)
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Cnow Daze, Softly Snow & Starstuff
Pose: FOXCITY - Influencer, Pose 6
Ice Creams: Dahlia - Dylan's in Stacked Icecream, kotte - Ice Cream in Tall & Simply Shelby - Giant Melted Ice Cream Bar
Moon: Moon amore - Outer Space Collection in Asteroids in Lil Rock
Backdrop: [VOZ] - Stairs to The Sky in Red

Royal Guard defends the Stairs to the Sky

I noticed lately that things have been doing a lot of pretty but normie looking pictures lately, I had so many things on my mind since I've been back to the UK, and now I'm wondering how I've gone this long without a little magic, a little fantasy, and a little sparkle... 
I feel stronger after my visit home, I feel powerful.. I feel like I could protect and defend and have the power to do anything I set my mind to... I feel like I could defend the stairway to heaven... 

The Stairs to The Sky - a backdrop from [VOZ] - behind me, the magical warrior in me, or a protector of the goddesses, I've been posted the magical task of defence... I'm a newly instated Royal Guard - thanks to Tardfish - and I'll protect the guards to the Eternal Moon... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Sintiklia - Hair Etsuko in Colors&Ombres
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Dress: Psycho Barbie - Lisha Dress
Arms, Halo & Mask: Tardfish - Royal Guard
Pose: Secret Poses - Monica, Pose 1
Moon: LuluB! - Eternal Moon in Baby Blue
Backdrop: [VOZ] - Stairs to The Sky in Blue

Drinking with my Buddies

Tomorrow is March 1st, and although it's not an official holiday, March is a special month in our house in RL... It's my RL Birthday on the 19th, and so in our house I've declared March to be my Birthday Month... It's been such a shit few months so far this year, and so I've decided that it's RUDH MONTH... Starting tonight at 12AM (Midnight) I'm having a month for me!!! Anyone else want to join the party?!

Now since the closing of the Gators, I will admit that I've become a bit of a platform hermit. I go from my house to th platform and back to the house... So I've made myself some new friends, though that could be down to being drunk... I've been drinking this delicious Cicroc Vodka filled with Gummy Bears that I picked up while shoppin for Junk Food! It comes in so many flavours, I had to try them all and therefore I got a bit drunk and started seeing Gummy Bears, which became my new buddies! I even had so much fun with them I decided to become a Yummy Gummy myself - thanks to the awesome costume from Ananas at The Fifty until March 20th!

What is she wearing;
Hair: Doe - Tea
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Face Gummies: kotte - Face Pack Gummy in Teddy
Outfit: Ananas - Yummy Gummy (Available until March 20th at The Fifty)
Pose: FOXCITY - Tease, Pose 4
Drinks & Gummies: Junk Food - Circroc Vodka Gummi Set
Large Gummy Bears: MadPea - Gummy Bear
Candy Pile: Garbaggio - Pile Of Candy (Past Gacha Item)
Scattered Candy: Half-Deer - Candy Clutter in Bright
Backdrop: [VOZ] - Ocean Ball Pool in C 

Adding a little Glow

 Some days you find yourself full of ideas as to what you want to blog and others it's a little more of a complicated method of making things work... Things just seem to fall into place a little at times and that's kinda what happened with me today... I had no idea of how, but possibly what I kinda wanted, to do and luckily it suddenly came to me... 
Neon always makes things a little brighter, and being stuck in bed isn't such a bad idea!!! 

Hiding in my control room bedroom - a backdrop from VOZ - this little babe from the future sat playing with some new Neon tubing to decorate her room just a little more... 
Tables that are actually "Frank the Dog Butler" - tables from Krescendo, available until November 11th at Man Cave - and the sparkles filling the air, filtering in through the window - available from #LuluB! called The Cult!

What is she wearing;
Hair: [YOMI] - Polina Hair
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Outfit: Normandy - Lillix
Shoes: REIGN - DUNE Plats
Pose & Props: FOXCITY - Illuminated, Pose 2m
Sparkles: #LuluB! - The Cult Aura in Vomit
Dog Tables: Krescendo - Frank the Dog Butler in Fade (Available until November 11th at Man Cave)
Bed: NOMAD - TV Bed
Backdrop: [VOZ] - Control Bedroom 

Pineapple Press Conference

Calling all the lovers of all things Pineapply - is that even a word?! - it's time for a follow up press conference from the House of Ananas... We want to make sure everyone has heard the news and are turning on the telly to make sure the news lands on all the deaf ears out there...  There's been a new group gift added to the Ananas assortment that you want want to miss... 

Children of the 90s, you'll remember them well... Those bricks that we called Cell Phones... They were were nigh on indestructible. I remember having thrown mine into some concrete, down the toilet and I'm pretty sure a bomb could have gone off next to it, and it would still have worked! WELL... You can now literally LIVE your youth with the new Ananas Group Gift, the "Call Me, Maybe?" Phone costume!! 
While on the subject, and at an Ananas press conference - that's not been authorised by the big boss man by the way, I'm just here being a rebel and doing things for myself lol - you should check out the Ananas Discord Server, where you can be in to win contests, chat with the team and generally cause chaos like me!! OH AND all this should be done while living your TV star dreams... BY BECOMING THE TELLY!!! The Ananas "Telly Heads" are available until July 10th at Kustom9 and they come in a variety of different face designs and colours. Just be careful of the static when you change your channel, that stuff is a little electrifying... 

What is she wearing;
Television: Ananas - Telly Heads (Available until July 10th at Kustom9)
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Top: Decoy - Valia Crop Top 
Pose: NANTRA - Capisch?, Pose 3 
Group Gift Ad: Ananas - Call Me, Maybe? (Current Group Gift)
Plants: dust bunny - Paradise Plants in Pineapple Plant
String Lights: tarte - Rattan String Lights in Black String Curve
Backdrop: [VOZ] - "It's Your Turn To Talk" Backdrop in Blue 

Pokebutts in Pokeballs

I'm really feeling all over the place at the moment, and I guess that's reflected in the fact that I'm all over the place with my blogging... Yesterday I was dark and magical, today well... I gotta catch 'em all! 

Luckily she ended up not trying to catch her adorable little pokemon friends in the original fighting manner... Who knew that Pokemon loved to play in the ball pit! I dropped a few of my Pokeballs into the ball pit to see if I could lure some of them and catch 'em all... 
Aren't these little pokebutts cute?! They are a collection from Ananas, available now at Ota.Con, and they are great for both cuddling and decorating with! Such adorable butts, you simply gotta catch 'em all!

What is she wearing;
Sprout: Dots - Little Sprouts
Hair: Magika - Unravel
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Top: Quirky - Miko Top
Shorts: REIGN - Cozy Shorts in Cotton #4
Feet: Izzie's - Dirty Feet BoM
Pose: FOXCITY - Lucid, Pose 5
Pokemon Butts: Ananas - Thiccmon (Available until May 31st at Ota.Con)
Pokemon Balls: H&C Wheels - Pokeball
Bag: REIGN - Slouchy Tote Bag in Rainbow
Shoes: CULT - Eva Flats
Drink: hive - Pride Tumbler in Pastel (Group Gift)
Purse: UNA - Rainbow Purse
Phone: #187# - PinWheel Phone Case
Backdrop: [VOZ] - Ocean Ball Pool in C 

Drinking at The Devil's Lettuce

 I'm working slowly on my 31 for the 31 days of Halloween... So far I'm not doing too badly, only having missed a few due to work days... I will catch up I'm hoping, but for today I decided to head to a bad and have a few drinks and a bit of a dance... 
There aren't many places for the dark and demonic and twisted, so the Devil's Lettuce seemed like the perfect place... 

They make the most delicious smoothies, these Slasher Slushies are the best kinda Junk Food - which are available at the Gacha Guild's Hallows Horror Carnivale - and they come in LOTS of different flavours including this delicious Slashee... 
I wanted to share a little close up too, so that you can see the details of my amazing make-up from NoRush, and my perfectly demonic Abaddon Bindi from Six Feet Underground. 

What is she wearing; 
Halo: [TfAtN] - Elemental Halo in Fire/Gold RARE (No Longer Available!)
Hair Accessory: Boutique 187 - Flames Headband 
Hair: Magika - Fiend 
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory 
Bindi: Six Feet Under - Abaddon Bindi 
Make-Up: [NoRush] - Tribe Warpaint 
Collar: [VOZ] - Eye of Hell Choker 
Wings: Tentacio - Dark Call Me in Vamp Wings 
Dress: [Cynful] - Diana's Sexy Back Dress 
Drink: Junk Food - Slasher Slushies Gacha (Available until October 31st at Gacha Guild's Hallows Horror Carnivale)
Boots: STOIC - Vicious Plats in Black
Pose: Secret Pose - Wicked, Pose 3 (Available until October 31st at The Dark Style Fair) 

Anyone Fancy A Banana Split?

As it's a Saturday and I've been so busy lately, I feel like it's time for a little treat... Something deviously naughty that normally I'd run a mile from, but can justifiably allow myself today. I'm nothing thinking of anything elaborate or expensive, but something that will definitely make me smile... ICE CREAM will do that, like the banana splits that my dad used to make when I was a kid... 

Rudh wanted banana splits too, admittedly she did it in a different way than I would when I was younger but more is the question now of, can you look her in the eye while she eats her banana?! It's one of those challenges that I love to play with male friends even in RL, and as soon as I saw the bananas from Junk Food I knew I would be playing with them in SL too! 
It came together so perfectly with the awesome new Sherry Lingerie - that could also make the perfect bikini really - from MuggleBorn. I chose the Banana print to match my new toy - which is a pattern available in the fatpack - and then set about making some delicious banana splits! 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Foxy - Bunny Hair 
Skin: Glam Affair - Seya in Europa 2 
Lingerie: MuggleBorn - Sherry Lingerie (Available until March 31st at Whore Couture Fair) 
Pose: Secret Poses - Secret Poses - Frappe, Pose 2 
Banana: Junk Food - Bento Bananas 
Sundae Supplies: The Hive - Banana Split Bar Gacha Items 
Backdrop: [VO.Z] - Late Night Kitchen (Available for use at Backdrop City) 

Pools of Balls

BALLS BALLS BALLS... That's the best way to describe how I feel right now... I feel like BALLS! Instead of letting myself wallow in the feeling of bleh and unhappiness though I am turning that balls feeling into one of my favourite childhood memories. I used to love when I was able to play in a ball pit at the local indoor play yard when I was a kid. I'd dive right on in and hide until someone came in to drag me out! 

So when I saw this new backdrop from [VOZ] - called Ocean Ball Pool - I knew I would be ridding myself of this feeling of unhappy balls and replace it with a feeling of good ones... I'm going to have a "Lazy Day" - thanks to a pose from Secret Poses - and just lay here in them... I only hope no one jumps in to join me and ends up squashing me like a pancake! 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Tableau Vivant - Editorial in Laying Funky 
Glasses: [Fetch] - Chloe Glasses (Available until August 6th for Collabor88) 
Skin: Glam Affair - Seya in Europa 2 
Necklace: MiWardrobe - Audrey Necklace in Grey (No Longer Available!)
Bikini: Cynful - Juliet's Lingerie in Pack 2 
Pose: Secret Poses - Lazy Day, Pose 6 
Backdrop: [VOZ] - Ocean Ball Pool 

Today's Mood... F**K OFF!

PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT... Today's Mood... F**K OFF!!
It's my day off for the week, but instead of feeling happy and relaxed I feel like crap on a stick. There's no reason to it, I am just having one of those days where I want to be left alone and yet the world and it's mother seem to be on my case! 
So this is the warning, there's only one of them... Now that you've heard I'm being a moody grump today, I need some peace and quiet and a chance to curl up with a book and catch up on some sleep! 

To make my point totally clear I've called a press conference - thanks to the backdrop that I struggled but eventually found this morning from [VOZ] - I tap the mic, and wait for the quiet as I'm about to speak... My feelings are summed up in one action... A flip of the bird! Eye contact across the room with anyone that looks like they are about to speak with a look of "YEAH YOU!" - thanks to the awesome pose from -Extra- - I don't need to say anything, the action is enough... Although, it doesn't hurt that I look like a rockstar while I do it!! 

What is she wearing; 
Hair: #Foxy - Grind Hair in Reds 
Glasses: [Fetch] - Charlotte Glasses (Current VIP Group Gift) 
Skin: Glam Affair - Seya in Europa 2 
Collar: AsteroidBox - Aluna Collar 
Necklace: Kibitz - Dont want ur attention Necklace in Silver 
Tag: Ama - Tag Me (Available until August 14th at FaMESHed X) 
Jacked: GABRIEL - One-Shoulder Riders in Black 
Outfit: [Cynful] - Dion Set in Black 
Pose: -Extra- - Yeah You 
Backdrop: [VOZ] - "It's Your Turn To Talk" Backdrop in Blue