Bonnie Chaos at Midnight

I'm at that stage now, where I don't know what to do but I don't really want to do anything... Yes it is apparently just me going through the grieving process but right now I feel somewhat useless and nothing I seem to try is working... I can't get into reading, knitting, decorating in RL or SL, and blogging therapy seems to be a non-starter too... There are so many fun things I could be doing... What am I doing? Doom-scrolling and staring into space... Everything I try seems to be going wrong!!

I NEED to find a way to turn my brain off, to stop myself from wallowing and yes, allow myself to grieve but allow myself to find strength and start finding my "normal" again... I'm dreading it!
Everything seems to be going wrong or turning to chaos and I'm NOT going to let myself drown in that... Think of the chaos that some people go through, real or imagined and things don't look so bad, I guess... 
I NEED a RL distraction for a bit... Something Dark, Mysterious and set in a Midnight Order perhaps... Something with gangsters and molls, something twisted and chaotic... 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Magika - Abigail Hair Hat
Hair: About Love - Sultry Hairstyle
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Jacket: [VOZ] - Umbrae Set in Coat (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Corset Top: SOJOUR - Luize Corset (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Lace Skirt: Stories&Co - Sherry Skirt in Cream&Black Lace
Pose & Prop: [PiXit] - Juliette, Pose F5
Car Decor: Dirty Rat - The Botched Job
Falling Money: [Bad Unicorn] - The Heat Gacha in Falling Cash
Gun Case: /MURDER\ - Commie Tommy
Backdrop: PALETO.Backdrop - Decatur Street 

The Queen Shall Rise

At the moment I KNOW that everything seems to sound like I am not coping, I am hanging on the edge of a break down and I am done with life in general... I am sorry if it seems that way and that I'm worrying anyone. Things are just really difficult at the moment, but I HOPE that soon I am back on track and able to start enjoying life again... It's just everything still seems so bleak and I HATE not being able to pick up the phone and speak to mum... 
The Queen of the family has fallen... I'm just not sure how long it will take for her eldest to be able to step up and assume her role... 

You never think that it's going to happen... I mean I'm not stupid I KNEW it would happen one day, but her mother is 94, alive and kicking... I thought I had at least another 20 years of nonsense with her yet... Still, sometimes the Princess has to step up, stand in the shoes of the Queens before her and guide her life in it's own direction... I'm just hoping she's going to be like the Jedi in Star Wars... Always there, always feeling her "Force"... 
So the battle may be over but the uphill climb has now begun... The mourning period is diminishing, and wearing black is less of a done thing. The crown must be adjusted and worn with pride... I don't know if I'm ready, but the Midnight Order of things demands a Queen shall rise... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: About Love - Enigmatic Hairstyle (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Crown: UNA - Ruise Crown in Gold (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Circlet: random.Matter- Guila Set in Warm Tones
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Make-Up: Izzie's - Smeared Mascara & ARISE - Running Mascara (No Longer Available!)
Necklace: random.Matter - Gwyneira Collar in Warm Tones
Sleeves: Voluptas Virtualis - Exuvie.Arms (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Weapon: Opifex - Thorn (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Dress: [NOBEL CREATIONS] - Jasmine in SUNSET GOLD (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Pose: [piXit] - Beatrice, Pose F5R
Armour: DRD - Mystic Bastion Item in Knight Decor
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Lavender & Lace - LIGHT {360} Backdrop 

Time for a Rest

Day off today and I know that tomorrow and Saturday are likely to be madhouse situations... I am NOT looking forward to working at the shop when it's going to be crazy busy but it is Easter and therefore should be busy enough that the day will go faster, I mean I hope at least... Today though I decided to take a few hours to just let myself rest up and relax in preparation... 

I took the long way through the gardens but eventually made it to the inner sanctum, or the halls of Rosethorn Manor - which happens to be a backdrop from FOXCITY that is just totally and utterly GORGEOUS - which happens to be a quiet place within the cavernous, mysticism of the Engine Room and decided to sit for a moment... Boots were kicked off, prosthetic legs - which are an AsteroidBox release for Second Life Syndicate's Engine Room until April 20th -  were rested on the arm of a Captain's Lounge Chair - a set of furniture created by LORE for Engine Room by the way - and as I listened to the soft classical music being played by the radio - the "Aetherys Lux" Radio from Duplexity for Engine Room - I felt myself falling asleep... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: About Love - Nerve Hairstyle (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Robe: SOJOUR - Vintage Robe
Lingerie: SOJOUR- Katerina Bullet Bra (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Legs: AsteroidBox - Francis Legs & Boots (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Pose: [piXit] - Paradise Bird, Pose F4
Chairs, Table & Ashtray: LORE - Captain's Lounge (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Boots: [Arltos] - Heloise Boots (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Radio: [Duplexity] - "Aetherys Lux" Radio in Wood/Gold (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Decanter: 8f8 - Storyteller's Burrow in Whisky Set
Footprints: Half-Deer - Muddy Tracks in Footprints
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Rosethorn Manor

Beasts Released!

Oh my gosh it's the end of January... Where did January go? Normally the month seems to go on forever and yet this year it was a blink and you miss it situation... 
Now though the Valentine's feelings are able to come in and cause epic amounts of chaos for a couple of weeks... The little naked flying babies have been released and they are on their way to earth BUT there may be a slight problem... A little error occurred in the release process... 

When the release button was pushed, it somehow unlocked other containment units at Cryptid HQ, and things that should have stayed locked away until the scary season have been released... Monsters that may cause Valentine's to become Anti-Valentines, and at this time it is unsure how many of these things were let loose... 
Now, never fear everyone, we have warned the illusive Secret Society that is the Midnight Order, and they will be working tirelessly to both assist our recapture efforts and provide distraction with their wonderful shopping experience... 
Now we just gotta play like they are Pokemon and catch 'em all...Just a shame we don't know how many got loose? This could cause chaos... Valentine's could either be cute or deadly... I guess we have to watch this space right?!

What is she wearing;
Hair: About Love - Widow Hairstyle (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Visor: Violetility - Visor
Collar & Cuffs: AVEC TOI - Iris Jewellery in METAL (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Necklace: SIGMA - Minos Necklace (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Dress: AVEC TOI - Iris Dress in LATEX (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Pose & Screen Prop: FOXCITY - Bang Bang, Pose 5
Monster: H&C - Sea Monster
Backdrop: Synnergy - Control Room [360] Backdrop

Prepping the Bad Magic before Valentine's

Ahhh Wednesday, thank fuck you're finally done for me and I have the day off tomorrow... I NEED to have some time to relax, although with the building preparations and having to pack umore stuff I think I have a lot more to do than I might have anticipated LOL.... 
For tonight I'm going to kick back and work a little magic... The month of the hearts and flowers and romance is alomost upon us and for the next couple of weeks everything will no doubt be full of Valentine's sweetness... I'm not a Valentine fan, can't it be Halloween again?! Perhaps I need to find a way... 

Now if there is one thing I do know is that Monster Smut is often a good way to enjoy the romance and seduction without things being too sickly sweet... Since starting my reading journey I've discovered a LOT of new things that are somewhat intriguing... 
I've decided to let the bood thirsty monster out of myself, I'm going to let her let her hair down and plan her Valentine season... No mush, no sickly sweet, not even a card, just dark Valentine funsies... She's already preparing herself, she's had something to drink and has been to see the magical beings of the Midnight Order - which runs until February 20th by the way - to pick up some Love Potion and a Blood Vial - from Ritual - so that she can get started... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: About Love - Sultry Hairstyle (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Circlet: random.Matter - Guila Set in Circlet Warm Tones
Head: Quills & Curiosities - Scargoyle Head (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Skin & Blood: SOMEONE - Bloodbound Maneater: Skin Bundle(Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Eyes: UniCult - Wynter Eyes (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Piercings: Quills & Curiosities - Scargoyle Piercings (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Glasses: random.Matter - Hanako Glasses (Past Event Gift)
Necklace: (Yummy) - Bloody Elegance Pearl Necklace
Robe: SOJOUR - Vintage Robe (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Corset: TRASH - Lacuna Corselette (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Vial: Ritual - Blood Vial (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Heavenly Ranger Hand Dancer in Red
Pose: -Extra- - Cheers!
Tray & Glass: BROKEN ARROWS - Love Potion in Red
Weapon: Apple Fall - Silver Sickle
Blood: [nefarious.inventions] - splish.splash (No Longer Available!)
Table: LEMME - New 20's Trolley Table in Glass
Curtains: everfaery - Garden Bloom Curtains (Available until February 8th at Access)
Candelabra: Pitaya - The Last Vampire in Candelabra
Bed: everfaery - Glimmerveil Dreambed
Body: Boudoir - Covered Dead Body
Backdrop: Paparazzi - BACKDROP - Haunting Arches

Commander Mellowen and the Sky Sharks

Battle stations everyone... News has reached this part of Second Life that the Steampunkers are taking over, the Engine Room has once again opened it's doors and is welcoming in to meet the Second Life Syndicate... The doors opened on September 20th and we've been warned to keep our eyes open for all manor of crazy characters... So it's time to man those battle stations before they rally together and their armies can amass...  

There are lots of strange people working their way down to the Second Life earth... One of those is rumoured to be commander Mellowen and her squad of Sky Sharks, both Hammers and Shredders - from AxisMundi at the new round of Engine Room until October 20th - some of which have been armoured up to make them even more threatening... She's wearing the Protectorate Uniform - from REBIS, also available at the Engine Room - and is the operator of their invasion... Let's cross our fingers and hope those sharks are friendly, even if their commander isn't... 

What is she wearing;
Hat & Hair: About Love - Bold Hairstyle (Available until October 20th at Engine Room)
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Headset: Waffle Science - Operator Headset (Available until October 20th at Engine Room)
Outfit: REBIS x Stinkydod - Projectorate Uniform in OMNIPACK (Available until October 20th at Engine Room)
Pose & Prop: piXit - Felina, Pose F6
Pets: AxisMundi - Sky Hammer & Sky Shredder Pets (Available until October 20th at Engine Room)
Backdrop: The Bearded Guy - Gargantua Backdrop

Time for a little Dark Magic!

I need a little magic after the events of yesterday, and I'm really sorry but I really hope that the driver of the truck who decided to drive fast through a puddle and therefore soaked me for my whole day at work got caught in traffic with a case of explosive butt pee... There is very little chance that the magic I am channelling will be for good... It's like to be some kind of twisted, dark necromancer magic...  

Luckily in Second Life we are still experincing the magical effects of the Midnight Order. This event will be reaching it's halfway peak over the next few days and there will be plenty more chaos to make those that want the dark magic, able to find it... 
Take it from Rudh, a witness account if you will, one moment she was confessing her sin regarding the explosive butt pee in the Corrupted Churches' Confessional - which is a Midnight Order release from LORE by the way - and the next the magic was swirling as she becomes an Infernal Undead Lady Mortis awaiting her orders by the Necromancer's Necrohex Table - from BROKEN ARROWS also at Midnight Order! 

What is she wearing;
Hair: About Love - Lilith Hairstyle (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Skin: LUMAE - Female Fantasy Skins in MORTIS
Make-Up: FATHER - Undead Face
Mouth Blood: [KRR] - Internal bleeding
Flames: THIS IS WRONG - Infernal in GREEN
Outfit (Including Necklace): toksik - Dreary (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Tattoo: Evermore - Siren Carving
Garter: Tentacio - Goula Bandleg (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Scythe: YaYa - Shinigami (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Enchantress & Starstuff & aii - Astral Smoke
Pose & Cape Prop: [piXit] - Thanatosia, Pose F4 (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Bottle & Glasses: [ ISHIKU ] - DIONAEA GILDED CRYSTAL DISPENSER (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Candles: BROKEN ARROWS - Necromancer's in Deathlight (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Juice: BROKEN ARROWS - Poison Potion in Golden
Table: BROKEN ARROWS - Necromancer's in Necrohex Table (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Booth: LORE - Old Confessional in Corrupted (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Background: LORE - Corrupted Chapel (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)