Bonnie Chaos at Midnight

I'm at that stage now, where I don't know what to do but I don't really want to do anything... Yes it is apparently just me going through the grieving process but right now I feel somewhat useless and nothing I seem to try is working... I can't get into reading, knitting, decorating in RL or SL, and blogging therapy seems to be a non-starter too... There are so many fun things I could be doing... What am I doing? Doom-scrolling and staring into space... Everything I try seems to be going wrong!!

I NEED to find a way to turn my brain off, to stop myself from wallowing and yes, allow myself to grieve but allow myself to find strength and start finding my "normal" again... I'm dreading it!
Everything seems to be going wrong or turning to chaos and I'm NOT going to let myself drown in that... Think of the chaos that some people go through, real or imagined and things don't look so bad, I guess... 
I NEED a RL distraction for a bit... Something Dark, Mysterious and set in a Midnight Order perhaps... Something with gangsters and molls, something twisted and chaotic... 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Magika - Abigail Hair Hat
Hair: About Love - Sultry Hairstyle
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Jacket: [VOZ] - Umbrae Set in Coat (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Corset Top: SOJOUR - Luize Corset (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Lace Skirt: Stories&Co - Sherry Skirt in Cream&Black Lace
Pose & Prop: [PiXit] - Juliette, Pose F5
Car Decor: Dirty Rat - The Botched Job
Falling Money: [Bad Unicorn] - The Heat Gacha in Falling Cash
Gun Case: /MURDER\ - Commie Tommy
Backdrop: PALETO.Backdrop - Decatur Street 

A Rest before the Salvage Station!

June 1st today, and there are lots of things going on in our little corner of the world that Second Life looks like a really fun and wonderful place to be... Pride at Home and the fun events surrounding Pride started today, leading in the events for the month... One of those events is totally different from the rainbows and sparkles of Pride, is the opening of Salvage Station... 
It's Electrifying... 

The Atomotel - a building kit from LORE for Second Life Syndicate's Salvage Station, opening today until June 30th - is like a neon mirage in the middle of the Grand Canyon desert... This perfect, little neon hotel is run by a little miss Frankie, who will welcome you to her hotel as you make your trip to the Salvage Station, so long as there is no funny business and she doesn't have to introduce you to her Stun Nail Bat - from Arts&Gear, also at Salvage Station - which will be more of a shock when she hits you with it than any normal bat... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: FUNKYSTENCH - FRANKS COSTUME WIG (No Longer Available!)
Goggles: AsteroidBox - Night-vis Goggles
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Neck Bolts: HAUNT - Frankie Bolts
Dirt: Izzie's - Face & Body Dirt
Stitches & Wounds: Sweet Thing - Patchwork
Top: Stories&Co - Evan Tank (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Bodysuit: AsteroidBox - Rowan Bodysuit in Damaged
Shorts: Mug - Jett Shorts in Dusty
Bat: Arts&Gear - Stun Nail Bat (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Walkie Talkie: Synnergy.Tavis - Old Walkie Talkie
Pose: [piXit] - Cyberbilly, Pose 1R
Decor (Buildings, Walkways, Signs, Post Box & Bin): LORE - Atomotel Kit & Deco (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Backdrop: Synnergy - Grand Canyon Camper [360] Backdrop 

Ordered the Burger Surprise!

I spent sooooo much time working on chores today, I couldn't get myself into the right brain to think about much more than getting through the cleaning. I'm trying to wrap myself up in things that are avoiding the guilt of not being present to help over the Easter Weekend, but I have to keep reminding myself that I AM allowed to have time off since I'm working Friday and Saturday... Let the guilt go, seriously I'm working my shifts and the fact that I'm living here shouldn't be  reason to worry about not helping downstairs... Rant over... For now I think?! 
Now onto the more prominent task... What is for dinner?! 

Burgers it is... I fancy something gross and greasy and fastfood would be perfect. Nothing like a little Junk Food to make a girl feel a bit better about her grumpy mood... 
I'll head to the California Burger bar, and grab myself a delicious cheese burger... I was NOT actually expecting the surprise that followed. The burger attacked me... It was a Surprise Attack... A delicious but wonderful surprise attack... Things got a little saucy, a little cheesy but it was all in good fun! 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Sorumin - Bucket hat SET in Burger
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Corvina in Redhead
Glasses: Junk Food - Pickle Vision
Nose Accessory: FOXCITY - Fryends Bento Pose in Prop Nose Fries
Make-up: Izzie's - Mouth Mess in Ketchup
Chest Accessory: parfait - Pizza Slvt Melted Cheese EXCLUSIVE
Arm Accessories: MIWAS - Bubble on me (Recoloured by me!)
Top: Stories&Co - Portia Bustier in Fatpack (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Costume: Junk Food - Burger Costume
Pose: [piXit] - Surprise!, Pose F5
Burger Box & Bag: Junk Food - Macky D's Tray Items
Fries & Drink: Half-Deer - Fast Food Clutter Items
Sauce: Junk Food - Dino Nuggets Plate Set in Ketchup
Backdrop: Focus Poses - California Burger Backdrop

Demonic Heart Collectors

It's almost February, and there has been a slow, subtle trickle of all sorts of hearts and flowers beginning to appear in the Second Life universe... It's the season of Love and it's almost here, and although I am NOT a huge fan of Valentine's, the romance is not something that can really be avoided... There's plenty of love out there for everyone, lots of love that can be sweet, passionate and burn bright hot, but it can also cause a world of hurt and pain. There may be angels singing songs and prising the good side of love, but there's always a demon that loves love for the darker reasons... 

On an Evil Night like this one, the demons are already on the look out for those little love hearts that have gone astray. Collecting up the beating hearts - like the Beating K-Hearts from KitCat available this weekend for the Saturday Sale - this little demon has decided that wearing some adorable gloves like her favourite pair of "clawed halfgloves" - from Quills & Curiosities, available now at The Warehouse - to pick them any she finds. These ones are relly, super pretty... 

What is she wearing;
Horns: [VERBOTEN] - Zellthrax Horns (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Hair: ZAO - Squirrel Hair Pack (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Eye Make-Up: Gorsimi - Scream Queen Shadows
Lipstick: Suicidal Unborn!- Lovesick Lip Gloss
Collar: LILITHIUM - Samara Collar (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Tattoo: Nuuna - Silmad Tattoo (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Wings: Sweet Thing - Demon Wings
Top: Wicca's Originals - Rasha Top (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Gloves: Quills & Curiosities - Clawed Halfgloves (Available until February 18th at The Warehouse)
Hearts: KitCat - Beatring K-Heart in Red White
Skirt: Stories&Co - Midnight Stories Skirt01, Holo Red
Pose: Secret Poses - Anna, Pose 1 (Available until February 4th at Cosmopolitan)
Backdrop: PALETO Backdrop - EVIL NIGHT

Rainbow Heaven

I am a massive fan of Supernatural, and I LOVE everything that it was. All the characters, the locations, the stories, but today while I'm rewatching old episodes my mind is lost in the Supernatural version of heaven... It's nothing like the way I'd imagine heaven to be, if a place like that did exist...
I'd imagine my version of heaven to be a little different... Full of rainbows, sparkles and light... 

I'd love to feel the warmth of the light on my body, the sparkles kissing over my skin as they dance through the air, and my fae like wings - from Decoy for the recent Saturday Sale - flutter in the breeze... Everything sparkles, from her chest, caused by the LuluB! Cosmica Chest - available at Planet29 - to the glitter that reflects in her oil slick dress.. 

What is she wearing;
Large Halo: [Idiosyncratic] - Tirnanog Halo in Saoirse Gold
Hair & Moon Halo: Doe - Moon (Available until June 30th at The Arcade)
Star Halo: Neverwish - Dreamer Halo in Iridescent Gold
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Ahegao - Kaleidoscope Glasses
Wings: Decoy - Angela Wings in SS Pride
Chest Piece: #LuluB! - Cosmica Chest Piece in Large Blue (Available until June 22nd at Planet29)
Gold Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Glitterati in Gold
Dress: Stories&Co - Charli Mini Dress in Oil Slick Latex
Hand Sparkles & Pink Halo: Cole's Corner - Planetary Princess in Moon
Pose: Secret Poses - Andra, Pose 1 (Available until June 25th at Cyber Fair)
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Cute Thing in Rainbow 

Keeping the Earth, Safe in it's Place!

Fantasy Faire is up and running, it's one of the biggest events of the year in SL that has been running for years, and raises millions of Linden Dollars for Relay for Life... As you might imagine it's all fantasy based, but for a girl like me it feels like wonderland... I bought more than I might normally because it was for a good cause but now my hoard is overflowing with new fantasy pretties! 
I fell in love with my new balloon, and that lead to the angel in me to float in the galaxy, keeping the earth safely in it's place... 

So the whole thing started because I fell in love with the Holding Planet from Boudoir, and then found the amazing make-up from Venge... Both of these things are available at the RLF Fantasy Faire, and yes you cannot really see the make up clearly but I have added a close up below.
All the pretties as she floats through space... Dancing through the stars, keeping the Earth safe in it's place! 

What is she wearing;
Halo: [ keke ] - Pulsing Star Halo (Past Gift) 
Moon & Stars Halo: random.Matter - Astrid Aura in Head Glitter & Stars 
Tiara: AMBIX - Chrysalis Crown in Glacial (Available until May 10th at Fantasy Faire, Melusina Sim) 
Hair: Raven Bell - Nereid Hair in Crystal (Available until May 10th at Fantasy Faire, Auxentios Pass Sim) 
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory 
Make-Up: Venge - Luna Makeup Revisited (Available until May 10th at Fantasy Faire, Zodiac Sim) 
Eyelashes: Venge - Cosmic Lashes (Available until May 10th at Fantasy Faire, Zodiac Sim) 
Eyes: Suicidal Unborn - Phantom Eyes 
Bindi & Choker: Blah. - Shining Star 
Necklace: (Yummy) - Starburst Shaker Necklace 
Wings: Blueberry - Icon Angel Wings in White 
Dress: Kaithleen's - Bellagwen Blouse in Mint 
Underwear: Stories&Co - Merry Sequins Lingerie Set in Mermaid 
Balloon: Boudoir - Holding Planet (Available until May 10th at Fantasy Faire, Lunafae Sim)
Pose: FOXCITY - Night Owl, Pose 6 
Planets: Boudoir - Moon Rider Gacha Item in Planets Pile 1 
Galaxy: Half-Deer - Patch of Galaxy in Blue 
Sparkles: [ keke ] - Shimmer Cloud 
Backdrop: bonbon - Sleepy Star Gacha Item in Backdrop RARE