Feel the Force?!

It's Star Wars Day... Here in the Netherlands it's actually Dodenherdenking, to remember those that have falled in times of war as tomorrow is actually the rememberance day of the Netherlands being freed from Nazi control at the end of WW2... Hell is observing this, I am partially paying respects but I kinds feel a little guilt - even though the Brits were some of the Allied Forces that helped to free the Netherlands - for all of the destruction that was caused on route to the freedom, and so I choose to celebrate Star Wars Day with a little chaos from a galaxy far, far away... 

I doubt there would be any spoilers here, but now that Darth Sideous is gone and there are lots of people on either side have spread out across the galaxy, there has to be a way to decide which side will top trumps... 
I think I'm definitely veering more towards the thrills of the Dark Side, I mean I read enough Smut full of dark boys and their darker pleasures... The good boys were really never my thing... 
Whatever you feel like doing today... May the Fourth be with you today!!!

What is she wearing;
Headdress & Hair: Curemore - Star Gals Gacha Item in Royal Hair Red
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Eye Make-Up: Gorsimi - Slatra Shadows
Lipstick: PSYCHO:Byts - Sadayakko Lipsticks Pack
Choker: random.Matter - Vanir Collar in Cool Tones
Necklace: random.Matter - Briar Necklace
Sabers: [Krescendo] - Starwhores Toys (Some parts of the item have been edited, please see the original here)
Dress: NeverWish - Star Fall Dress (Available until May 10th at Fantasy Faire Canny Valley)
Halos: Curemore - Star Gals Gacha Item in Parade Halo PURE & CURELESS[+] - Pygmalion's Bride Gacha Item in Goddess Touch Halo BLACK
Pose: [piXit] - Athanasia, Pose F4
Orb: Curemore - Star Gals Gacha Item in Death Orb WHITE
Stars: CREATiCA - Glowing Panels in Stars
Backdrop: H&C - Darth Sidious Scene

Fairy Defence in the Darkness!

Sometimes I have a craving when it comes to blogging to do things that are NOT normal and let myslf get lost in a fairytale, be that a good or a dark one... Being lost in a fairytale really helps me with my mental state and right now being lost feels like a great idea. There is just too much going on in my own little world, as well as in the real world, and without complaining here too much I feel like I'm losing the battle pretty fast... So step back from the norm Rudh and find a way to embrace the darkness... My darkness feels like a HUGE monster, lets make him more friendly and things will calm down once more?! I hope... 

In the garden of the Spinners, my monster floats through the light that breaks through the trees and the darkness... He's a cloaked Hornswoggle - made by Tardfish, available at the Fantasy Faire Aventurine Promenade to raise money for Race for Life - and though he lurks in the dark, when he comes into the light he's a lot less scary and more like a Ringwraith from the Lord of the Rings... 
He's always trying to scare the fae folk that wander through the gardens.. Rudh as a sassy little fae isn't one to mess with. I guess that's why I decided to take on my monster as a fae today... She's a little thorny, but she sparkles in the dark so that the monsters are intimidated. She's armed with her Willowvine Wand - from Simply Shelby at the Fantasy Faire Stoneveil Crossing Sim - and the magic within will keep her monster at bay... 

What is she wearing;
Hair Flowers & Thorns: LODE - Thorns & Grace Gacha Items
Hair: Truth & FAGA - Pendulum in Redhead
Glasses: Violetility - Thorn-Rimmed Glasses (Available until May 18th at The Warehouse)
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Wings: Doe - Dawnwood Wings in Magic
Necklace: KOSH - THE LEAF NECKLACE
Vines: Static - Luminettle Arm Vine in Brown
Wand: Simply Shelby - Willowvine Wand in Elder (Available until May 10th at Fantasy Faire Stoneveil Crossing)
Dress: Faunus - Eryl Dress
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Glitterati & Starstuff
Pose: [piXit] - Not So Lovely Lolli, Pose 4
Monster: Tardfish - Hornswoggle in Comic (Available until May 10th at Fantasy Faire Aventurine Prominade Sim)
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Spinner's Crypt II (Modified a little by removing some of the sunlight rays & the Wall, please see original Here)

Peaceful Fluttering

Today is the last day of April and that means we're already a quater through the year, the Spring has almost totally sprung and Summer is on the way, PLUS HellBone and I are almost half way through the rennovations to the house and SOON we can go back home... I cannot wait... I'm counting down the days, not wishing the year away or anything but I want to be home SO MUCH... It's kinda hard to believe that I was excited about this little "adventure"... I'm trying to hold my shit together currently and wishing for ways to not crack... 

I need to disappear into a place of peace and quiet, never to return but always to be here for my family especially at the moment since Mum is sick and Dad needs the support to look after her.. HellBone needs to be looked after since he's over-stressed due to the rebuilding... 
All I want now is someone to look after me... I wish there was someone to help me feel better... Someone help me find peace... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Magika - Millie Hair
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Robe: SOUJOUR - Vintage Robe
Top: miss chelsea - Cora Set in Corset (Available until May 17th at Shotgun Pop Up Events)
Pants: miss chelsea - Cora Set in Pants (Available until May 17th at Shotgun Pop Up Events)
Pose & Cage Prop: [piXit] - Farfalle, Pose F3
Butterflies: Elm - Aurielle Decor in Flying Butterflies Cool
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Butterfly Conservatory {360} Backdrop

Kings Day 2026

It's a special day in Holland today because today is King Willem-Alexander's birthday and so the party that the whole country seems to be in waiting for has been happening ALL DAY today... Celebrating the King, partying and selling off your old junk at the free markets that are taking places in many cities across the country... 
Let's get our celebration on... 

Happy Birthday King Willem-Alexander, thank you for letting the country celebrate today... There have been lots of delicious Dutch snacks eaten in this house today, and we were good kids wearing our Orange uniform to help you celebrate... 

What is she wearing;
Crown: Junk Food - Inflatable Tiara in Orange
Hair: Wasabi - Kiss K9 Ed. Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - 70's Round Glasses
Top: miss chelsea - Arlo Set in Jeans (Available until April 30th at Anthem)
Confetti Poppers: hive - Confetti Poppers
Jeans: miss chelsea - Arlo Set in Jeans (Available until April 30th at Anthem)
Pose: FOXCITY  - Warm Up, Pose 6
Dutch Food: DRD - Dutch Snack Table (Past Group Gift) & C L  A Vv - Dutch Cuisine in Cup of Tea & Stroopwafels (No Longer Available!)
Window Decor: Hangry - Birthday 101 in Happy Fucking Birthday Sign & spruce - Festive Felt Garland in Tangerine
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Brew Haven

Bad Girls have the Uncensored Tapes!

Everyone has their hobbies, and the fact that we all have so many different hobbies is wonderful because it shows how unique we can all be... Some love sports, some love music, others love crafting things be that cooking or knitting or pottery or making something wonderful with your hands...
I love to be creative and use my blog to do that, I also love to junk journal and knit, I love music of all different kinds and you should know by now that I read and read and read... Mostly Smut but I read...

Some other people love movies, HellBone is a movie lover, but with so much choice, how hard is it to choose a movie these days... I know that HellBone is a horror movie lover, I would spend forever getting lost in Middle Earth and on a bad day The Princess Diaries helps me feel better, but there are other types of movies out there... Some days you just need the kind that make you shiver with a different type of Anticipation... 
Nights like tonight when you're on a visit to the Bad Girls Club, and there's this one naughty girl in the Crimson Nights - a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - room with a collection of those naughty Uncensored Tapes - from Krescendo until the end of today at Fetish Fair, yes I KNOW it's almost the closing but they will be at the mainstore soon I'm sure - that we can watch on the Retro TV Combo - from MadPea - in the room to get us in the mood... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & Litterbug - Chrome in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Collar: GABRIEL - Take me Leash in Black
Outfit: Psycho Barbie - [Darkmoon Set - Fatpack]
VHS Tapes: [Krescendo] - Uncensored Tape (Available until April 26th at Fetish Fair)
Pose: [piXit] - Annette, Pose F1R
TV: MadPea - Retro Combo TV in Black
Stacked Tapes: Mithral - VHS Tape Stack Set
Crate: Ariskea - [Hiyoku] Just a Trunk  in Black Common
Neon Sign: [Krescendo] - Kinky Neon, 4
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Crimson Nights {360} Backdrop

Cubs and Cuties

It's Friday Night and when I was younger that was an excuse to be able to head out for a party... I used to do it fairly often at Uni, but now the thought of that and all the havoc that goes with it is just way too much to handle... I'm definitely not ready for that kinda chaos... I wanna be at home in my jammies with my book, a cuppa tea and my cat... Rudh on the other hand always has different ideas, and in the early evening sunshine tonight she met up with ther fairy friends for a trip to get food and check out the cute local boys... 

I dunno if you've heard of it, but there is an amazing little Fairytale Cafe called the Lucky Clover Cafe - a backdrop from FOXCITY that is one of two similar designs both in regular and fairytale from Collabor88 - where you can get some of the most delicious grub... I fully recommend the Popcorn Cubs - from Junk Food - that look like cute little bears and taste just like the best chicken nuggets you've ever had... 
I was so keen on the delicious dinner that I was able to ignore my two little fairy friends checking out the cute Little Pan boys on the other side of the restaurant... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi  - Nectarine Hair in Absolute Pack
Head Accessory: muffin - Teddy Headband in Brown
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Wings: Doe - Fairstar Wings in Fatpack
Necklace: AsteroidBox - Fiona Accessories (Available until May 10th at Kustom9)
Dress: AsteroidBox - Fiona Dress (Available until May 10th at Kustom9)
Pose: Foxcity - Pretty, Pose 7
Food: Junk Food - Popcorn Cubs
Fairies: MishMish - Fairy
Pans: MishMish - Little Pan
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Lucky Clover Cafe in Fairy (Available until May 6th at Collabor88)

Magic of the Fantasy Faire

Today is an important day today in Second Life, since today is the day that Race for Life opens it's Fantasy Fair and therefore the fantasy beings will be able to gather some amazingly wonderful things, experience just a little more magic and raise some funds that will head towards cancer research... 
Cancer Research is something very important but at the moment I am finding it more so than ever because of my mother being sick with Pancreatic Cancer... I would do anything to find a way for her to feel better right now... I would hope that any glimmer of magic could help... 

We are trying to find happiness in every little thing that we're doing, and we aren't planning things too far ahead so that she can just take things easy and let things happen as they happen... 
I'm searching for as much magic as I can in Second Life to help me get through this, so I can support her... 

What is she wearing;
Hair & Horns: [monso] - Albedo Hair in Black & Red (Available until May 15th at Lewd Station)
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Wings: kotte - Fairy Wings
Dress: Faunus - Idunn Gown (Available until May 10th at Fantasy Fair)
Pose & Leaf Prop: -Extra- - Leafy, Pose 4
Chair: everfaery - Driftbloom Seat (Available until May 9th at Access)
Flower Lamps & Ground Cover: Simply Shelby - Enchanted Garden Lamp in Purple (Available until May 10th at Fantasy Fair)
Gazebo: Violetility - Masquerade Gazebo (Available until May 17th at Shotgun PopUp Events)
Backdrop: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - Swimming Hole {360} Backdrop

I'm a Hot Mess!

Right now I'm a little bit of a hot mess, I'm tired and sad because for the last few days my parents have been here to visit... I have LOVED having them here, it's been great to catch up with my parents, it's been a bit of a relief to see my mum and talk to her face-to-face about the chemo that she's having AND it's been great for my Dad to get a chance to see the house and talk about the work being done... 
Though now,  more than normal, it was hard to see them leave... I'm left here feeling upset and scared and really, pretty much like a Hot Mess... 

I decided to lose myself in oneof my books about bad boys and stalking and creepy perviness, I need something dark and totally different from reality... Some people watch TV and I like to read smut, but sometimes the things do have a little effect on my picture making process... I may be a Hot Mess, but I'm going to be the kind of Hot Mess that could be the fantasy of one of the boys in my books... 
My outfit may scream that I'm a Hot Mess - it's actually made up of an amazing Karina Skirt from AsteroidBox at the current round of Equal10 worn over a tank and leggings from The Kiwi Co's Hot Mess set - accessorised with a new Lips Jeans Bag - available from Boutique #187 at Ouh LaLa until May 8th - so that I look HOT and less of a Mess on the metro and distract myself and the creepy guy sitting pretending to take a call... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Tease Hair in Offbeat
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Gum: [Pink Fuel] - Yum Bubblegum!
Necklace: AsteroidBox - Emery Jewelry
Top: The Kiwi Co - Hot Mess White Tank
Bag: Boutique #187 - Lips Jeans Bag (Available until May 8th at Ouh LaLa)
Skirt: AsteroidBox - Karina Skirt (Available until May 8th at Equal10)
Pants: The Kiwi Co - Hot Mess Leggings v1
Pose: [piXit] - Annette, Pose F1
Mesh Model: DisturbeD - Alton Sitting Guy on Phone Character
Backdrop: K&S - // Shadow Subway. Backdrop

Payback Can Hurt!

I'm in a bad mood, I'm wanting to kick some ass of some random people and that's all because recently some random woman decided to respond to the basic question "Can I help you?" with opinions of how I could do with losing weight and that because she'd done it maybe it would help me too... I didn't know this woman, I was asking a customer that came into the store if I could help her with anything and, frankly, she was lucky I was being polite because I was at work...
Really in my mind, I wanted to show her how her rude words affected me... I was pissed... 

I guess in my mind I kinda planned out all of the things that I could have said rather than the polite, but I'll admit Mrs Brown based "That's Nice", whilst the Rudhish side of me, like the little devil on my shoulder, wanted to go all Resident Evil and show her much weight she could afford to lose, starting with the rude tongue in her head... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: [monso] - Fine Hair in Black & Red
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Strap Outfit: Static - Tsutsumu Tape in Bandage Black (Available until April 19th at NEO-JAPAN)
Skirt & Fishnets: AsteroidBox - Jayne Skirt in FLF Version
Pose & Sword Prop: FOXCITY - Venom, Pose 5
Bodies: H&C - Death Zombie
Beds: Sooden Store - Gurney Siden
Dogs: H&C - Zombiedogs
Backdrop: PALETO.Backdrop - TT3

In Need of Magic Spells!

Life really needs a little magic, getting news and dealing with all of the news that I've had over the last few months since the start of 2026, there's issues in the world, there's issues in MY world and I'm barely holding it together... I NEED a little magic... I don't want it, I NEED it and we all know there is a massive difference... I'm going to take matters into my own hands, and try to conjure something up... 

At this point I wish I could channel some of my inner Ursula, ya know the one that sings "Well I fortunately know a little magic, it's a talent that I always have possessed"... If you don't know, it's time to go watch a Disney film about a Little Mermaid... 
I know that my outfit is a little Witchy today, it's the fault of the dress and the amazing Vampyre Gloves - from Psycho Barbie - but when the magic was flowing from my fingers and Aetherlune reaction happened - the Aetherlune Jewels were released at the Magic Fair by Static and although the event has closed, they should be available at the mainstore - and the magic of the Crystal Cauldron started to glow... Let's hope that this helps... 

What is she wearing;
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Dress: AsteroidBox - Aleyda Dress in Green
Gloves: Psycho Barbie - Vampyre Gloves in Charcoal
Bracelets, Rings & Hand Accessories: Static - Aetherlune Jewels in Blue
Pose: [piXit] - Dead X Portraits, Pose DF5R
Crystal Cauldron:  [Krescendo] - Crystal Cauldron in Black
Crystal Lamp: Ariskea - [Seraphite] Glowing Lamp Crystal in Mixed
Book: random.Matter - Moon Witch - Spellbook in Black
Cards: spruce - Spirit Box
Hourglass: Schadenfreude - Memento Mori Hourglass (Available until May 6th at Collabor88)
Bottle: Tentacio - Death Is Coming Poison
Cat: Aardvark - Little Hunter Cat
Cauldron & Plant: Ariskea - [Spellbound] Cauldron & Books
Table Top: random.Matter - The Escritoire in Chestnut Gold
Sparkles: {aii} - Astral Smoke & LuluB! - Magic: Star Spell (No Longer Available!)
Backdrop: PALETO.Backdrop - XV

Froggin' Fishin'!

It's been a Lazy Sunday, and there has been nothing much going on in my life except a day to relax... Boy was it necessary, it was lovely and so very necessary... 
I kicked back and let myself have a day of NOTHING that has left me feeling relaxed and comforted... 

Today I wanted to take a day of just chillaxation by doing something I don't normally have a chance to do... Nothing... 
I decided to take the day that I would be "Gone Fishing" - a backdrop that I have actually altered a little by adding some swamp like things such as the trees and the grasses and things, to the Synnergy.Tavis Gone Fishing Backdrop - I wanted to be a lazy little Frog - thanks to the idea coming out from the BeSpoke Frog Gizzy head and the Feet Frog - and spend the day fishing in the bayou! 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Amitie - Lavender Straw Hat (Pose Prop)
Head & Skin: BeSpoke - Frog Gizzy
Body Plants: Nani - Dreamy Pond Body Weeds
Overalls: SPIRIT - Yola Denim Overalls in LIGHT BLUE
Fishing Rod & Tackle Box: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - Tackle & Tides [Holdables]
Feet: BeSpoke - Feet Frog v1.1
Pose: NANTRA - It's a Doll's Life, Pose 5
Rocking Chair: THOR - Old Rocking Chair
Cooler: The Annex - Tailgate Party in Open Cooler
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Gone Fishing [360} Backdrop (With Addition of LOVE - SWAMP TREES & GROUND, LOVE - SWAMP BUSH CLUSTERS, LOVE - SWAMP GRASS & LOVE - VINE WATER COVER)

The Cavalier Captain

I want a little more fantasy in my mind, I am bored little mind right now as everything seems to be crazy busy and then same old, same old... I'm going to have to find myself an adventure, maybe there is an adventure to be had before the Engine Room closes it's doors and takes away it's wonderful characters until next time... 

I've heard it said that the Engine Room will be closing it's doors on April 20th, so that doesn't give us long anymore to enjoy the adventures that it has brought with it's opening... 
Today we're onboard the boat of the Piratas Salvajes - which is a backdrop from The Bearded Guy - as it sails on the stormy seas. The captain of the vessel is a bit of a Cavalier - dressed in a set from toksik, available until April 20th at the Engine Room - but she's being guided by the spiritual Haunting Buns - from Tardfish - that are naughty and devious, and leading this girl's crew on a perilous adventure... 

What is she wearing;
Hat: FenDuDu - Digital Noble in Hat (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Hair: Usagi Society - Lindsay Hair in Fatpack (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Eyepatch: ERSCH - Berth Eyepatch
Outfit: toksik - Cavalier Set (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Pet: Tardfish - Haunting Buns in Smoke
Hand Accessory: FenDuDu - Digital Noble in Brass Telescope (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Pose: [piXit] - Annette, Pose F6
Backdrops: The Bearded Guy - Piratas Salvajes Backdrop & Synnegy - Stormy Seas Backdrop

I wanna be an Easter Feaster!

Easter Monday has always felt like a weird one for me, WHY is there a second day of Easter? I know that for religious reasons Good Friday is supposed to be the day he died, and Easter Sunday was when he was resurrected don't ask me for more details I don't know a lot more than that, I'm sorry... Yet, WHY IS EASTER MONDAY A THING? I'd never complain about extra days off work but hmmm... Christmas has a second day, which we often refer to as Boxing Day - and yes I KNOW the historical reason for that in the UK at least - Easter has two days... When can we start having time off for two days of Halloween?! 

Yet I guess it's just another day to relax, spend time with family or friends, or even on your own like I did a lot of today, and enjoy the treats of the day before just a little bit longer... Easter Monday was always a time to enjoy the eggs that I didn't get to eat on Easter Sunday because we'd spent it at our Grandparents as a little kid... Mum and Dad used to make an excellent family lunch and it was better than the day before because we could be relaxed and not expected to be on our best behaviour lol... 
I wanted an Easter feast for lunch today... I think I got a little carried away. I made sure there was Easter Cakes - thanks to Junk Food - some delightful little Butterfly Sandwiches - from Lucas Lameth - which really helped with the Spring feel to lunch, and even some Hot Cross Buns - from vespertine - that happen to be some of my favourite Easter treats from home... There was plenty of chocolate and loads of eggs too... Perfect for the picnic that I set up on the table in the garden... So perfect that even the little birdies came to visit and join in the fun... 

What is in the picture;
Hot Cross Buns: {vespertine} - Hotcross Bun Sandwich Prep
Egg Basket: Pitaya - Cozy Kitchen Decor in Eggs Wire Basket
Bird Vase: {vespertine} - Spring Buds Tree in Colorful Birds
Carrot Cakes: Junk Food - Carrot Cupcake
Butterfly Sandwiches: (Lucas Lameth) - Butterfly Sandwiches
Creme Eggs:  Junk Food - Primbury Eggs
Easter Basket: Elm - Easter Basket
Chocolate Bunny: dust bunny - Chocolate Bunny
Cup Tower: Mura - Charcu-tea-rie Cup Tower
Cake: Junk Food - Easter Cake
Cheese: MOVEMENT -  Camembert Bliss Serving Plate
Striped Eggs: Simply Shelby - Happy Easter Candy Eggs & Happy Easter Striped Eggs
Table: [Merak] - Harborline Table
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Mystic Bloomstead {360} Backdrop

Welcoming the Easter Bunny!

Happy Easter Sunday, it's Easter, it's Zombie Jesus Day and it's the day when chocolate for breakfast is actually required rather than frowned upon... 
I used to love Easter Sundays because Mum would play the game of being our Easter Bunny and hide mini chocolate eggs all over the house and then invariably my sister and I would not only be finding eggs all morning but we would find them randomly for the next few months too LOL... I'm not a religious girl, but would never turn down a chance to find chocolate everywhere... 

Since I'm a little bit too old for being allowed to hunt chocolate eggs, although Hell did provide me with some delicious Cadbury's Mini Eggs this morning, but the only way I'd be getting on the fun would be via the chance to slip into a little Easter Bunny moment of my own... Thank goodness for being able to do just that in Second Life hehe...
There's a whole garden in Silverlake Meadows - which is a gorgeous backdrop from FOXCITY, that is available for a few days longer at Kustom9 - where the Easter Eggs - from Simply Shelby - are found resting between the Grass rabbits and their living counterparts, which because it's a fairytale realm come in candy painted rainbow colours... 

What is she wearing;
Ears: STOIC - RABBIT PARTS
Hair: Magika - Robyn Hair
Necklaces: (Yummy) - Oversized Pearl Gemstone Necklace & Alienbear Design - Pearl Double Necklace (No Longer Available!)
Dress: miss chelsea - Fawn Set
Halo: [Faunus] - Easter in Wreath
Shoes: REIGN - DANNY PLATS V2 in FATPACK
Pose: FOXCITY - Fields, Pose 7
Bunnies: JIAN - Easter Bunnies in Flopped & Straight
Eggs: Simply Shelby - Happy Easter Candy Eggs & Happy Easter Striped Eggs
Bunny Plants: BROKEN ARROWS - Wonderland Rabbit in Grass Rabbit Moss
Flower Grass: Simply Shelby - Optional Wildflower Dirt Pile
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Silverlake Meadows (Available until April 10th at Kustom9)

Time for a Rest

Day off today and I know that tomorrow and Saturday are likely to be madhouse situations... I am NOT looking forward to working at the shop when it's going to be crazy busy but it is Easter and therefore should be busy enough that the day will go faster, I mean I hope at least... Today though I decided to take a few hours to just let myself rest up and relax in preparation... 

I took the long way through the gardens but eventually made it to the inner sanctum, or the halls of Rosethorn Manor - which happens to be a backdrop from FOXCITY that is just totally and utterly GORGEOUS - which happens to be a quiet place within the cavernous, mysticism of the Engine Room and decided to sit for a moment... Boots were kicked off, prosthetic legs - which are an AsteroidBox release for Second Life Syndicate's Engine Room until April 20th -  were rested on the arm of a Captain's Lounge Chair - a set of furniture created by LORE for Engine Room by the way - and as I listened to the soft classical music being played by the radio - the "Aetherys Lux" Radio from Duplexity for Engine Room - I felt myself falling asleep... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: About Love - Nerve Hairstyle (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Robe: SOJOUR - Vintage Robe
Lingerie: SOJOUR- Katerina Bullet Bra (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Legs: AsteroidBox - Francis Legs & Boots (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Pose: [piXit] - Paradise Bird, Pose F4
Chairs, Table & Ashtray: LORE - Captain's Lounge (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Boots: [Arltos] - Heloise Boots (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Radio: [Duplexity] - "Aetherys Lux" Radio in Wood/Gold (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Decanter: 8f8 - Storyteller's Burrow in Whisky Set
Footprints: Half-Deer - Muddy Tracks in Footprints
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Rosethorn Manor

Ordered the Burger Surprise!

I spent sooooo much time working on chores today, I couldn't get myself into the right brain to think about much more than getting through the cleaning. I'm trying to wrap myself up in things that are avoiding the guilt of not being present to help over the Easter Weekend, but I have to keep reminding myself that I AM allowed to have time off since I'm working Friday and Saturday... Let the guilt go, seriously I'm working my shifts and the fact that I'm living here shouldn't be  reason to worry about not helping downstairs... Rant over... For now I think?! 
Now onto the more prominent task... What is for dinner?! 

Burgers it is... I fancy something gross and greasy and fastfood would be perfect. Nothing like a little Junk Food to make a girl feel a bit better about her grumpy mood... 
I'll head to the California Burger bar, and grab myself a delicious cheese burger... I was NOT actually expecting the surprise that followed. The burger attacked me... It was a Surprise Attack... A delicious but wonderful surprise attack... Things got a little saucy, a little cheesy but it was all in good fun! 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Sorumin - Bucket hat SET in Burger
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Corvina in Redhead
Glasses: Junk Food - Pickle Vision
Nose Accessory: FOXCITY - Fryends Bento Pose in Prop Nose Fries
Make-up: Izzie's - Mouth Mess in Ketchup
Chest Accessory: parfait - Pizza Slvt Melted Cheese EXCLUSIVE
Arm Accessories: MIWAS - Bubble on me (Recoloured by me!)
Top: Stories&Co - Portia Bustier in Fatpack (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Costume: Junk Food - Burger Costume
Pose: [piXit] - Surprise!, Pose F5
Burger Box & Bag: Junk Food - Macky D's Tray Items
Fries & Drink: Half-Deer - Fast Food Clutter Items
Sauce: Junk Food - Dino Nuggets Plate Set in Ketchup
Backdrop: Focus Poses - California Burger Backdrop

For The Matrix

The world we are living in right now seems like it's falling apart... I know that we all have our own problems in life but has anyone tried to turn off the world simulation that the minds behind the matrix are currently running and restart it again, because apparently somewhere the code isn't up to scratch?! Someone unplug themselves from the simulator please and check to see what is going on back there?

I know that the Engine Room is a steampunkish magical event and that steampunk outwardly does not look like it could hande something as futuristic as the control of the simulation that runs our daily lives, but you know what they say... Never judge a book by it's cover... Behind the hidden doors of the Engine Room runs some extremely powerful, hidden magic... Magic that could ensure the world runs as it should. I'm sure the mainframe of the Matrix is back there. I NEED to break through and find out if it can be restarted so we can get some peace?!

What is she wearing;
Hair: MIRJA - SIVA in Fatpack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: [Duplexity] - Astrium Glasses (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Outfit: ABSENCE - Latex Gear (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Guns: Reve Obscura - Bad Things Pose Prop (No Longer Available!)
Pose: FOXCITY - Racer, Pose 1m
Lamps: Boutique #187 - Funky Lava Lamp (Available until April 15th at DUBAI)
Statue: What's Lost Spirits - CYBER STATUE in BELIEVE 2.1 (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Computers: [Waffle] - Artificial Mastermind (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Pipes: NOMAD -  Neon Cables
Backdrop: The Bearded Guy - The Matrix Backdrop

Leave me alone... I'm Reading!

After a day like today I want to do nothing more than tell the world to sod off.. I want to be left alone somewhere I'm surrounded by books, without anyone near me and the only thing I have to wonder about is WHAT am I going to read...

I long for the kinda days I used to hate... The days when our school required us to spend anhour lesson a week in the library reading all kinds of different books... I wish I could go back to that, rather than working my arse off as an adult... Being an adult is majorly overrated!!!
Also can I just take a moment to say... I FREAKIN LOVE THIS OUTFIT!!!! A pair of Aika Pants - from AsteroidBox at Kustom9 until April 10th - and the coolest looking shirt and tie combo - from amiable - it's like the best version of a school uniform that I never had!!! 
Now, Leave me alone... I'm reading!

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Meadow TSS Ed. Hair in Absolute Pack
Head Accessory: lock & tuft - cozy forehead notes in 'leave me alone, i'm reading'
Top & Tie: {amiable} - Drawstring Open in Shoulder Shirt01
Books: OMY - Bookworm in Lover Pack
Pants: AsteroidBox - Aika Pants (Available until April 10th at Kustom9)
Pose: -Extra- - Dreamer, Pose 2
Sofa: Nutmeg - December Living Room Sofa
Notebook: Flite - Mypad Notebook Display in Brown Leather
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Literary Lounge {360} Backdrop

The Engine Room's Magical Carni

Once again you might be able to guess that I have had a day off today because when I am free I tend to get creatively creative LOL... I find a sparkle and something just magically clicks and magic seems to happen... 
Today while I was trying to find a little creativity, I met another of the Engine Room's interesting characters and she wanted to come and meet you... 

She decided to meet us on the bridge of the Everlasting Story - a backdrop from K&S - she posed in the moonlight as she danced in the moonlight, conjuring up a little more magic while the power of the Engine Room thrummed through Second Life... 
She's a magical carnival fate, jokes and medieval magic seep from her pores to allow her access to the mysteries of the universe... 

What is she wearing;
Crown: moon amore - Heaven's Gate TIARA in Pure
Hat: BEARCAT.EGG - Carni Hat (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Hair: [monso] - Pink Hair in Black & Red
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Mask: BEARCAT.EGG - Carni Mask (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Tattoo: Nefekalum - Emboss in Gold 70% (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Wings: Aii - Dark Fae Wings (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Dress: moon amore - Heaven's Gate
Nipple Covers: FOE - Castor's Purity Seals Drape (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Halo: CUREMORE - Voodoo Tribe in Ngami Drapes RARE
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Glitterati
Pose: FOXCITY - Fields, Pose 6m (Available until April 10th at Kustom9)
Backdrop: K&S - // Everlasting story. Backdrop in Night

The Devil is Coming!

Today was a crazy, weird day and I am tired of people already. Soon we will be facing the Easter rush, it's supposed to have happened in Amsterdam already but seriously people are staying away it seems... The city is still rather quiet, and there are SO MANY reasons that may be the case... I'm not going to get into my thoughts on the world right now, but it feels like the reaper is coming, bringing his brothers and the world may be doomed for a historical repeat... The devil is coming... 

I always think about the Grim Reaper from Supernatural and how cool he was, his brothers were lame and easily killed in one episode which I always felt was a waste of a good storyline lol... When he died we had a weak replacement, I'd have been better... I'd have been a better Reaper replacement I think... 
As Rob Zombie once sang "the Devil is coming" and today that devil looks a little like Rudh hehe... She's dressed in her gorgeous silk Martha dress - from AsteroidBox, available until April 8th at ACCESS - and the orb of her cane glows with her power, but she radiates wrath, power and death... Don't fear the Reaper, but the Devil is Coming... 

What is she wearing;
Horns: MS Design - Baby Horns Natural (No Longer Available!)
Hair: [monso] - Marin Hair in Black & Red
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: NI.JU - Rimless Glasses (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Choker: AsteroidBox - Martha Set in Collar (Available until April 8th at Access)
Outfit: AsteroidBox - Martha Set in Dress (Available until April 8th at Access)
Belt: AsteroidBox - Martha Set in Belt (Available until April 8th at Access)
Jacket: Oracle - Sovereign Jacket
Pose, Cane & Cigarette Prop: [piXit] - Vera, Pose 5
Backdrop: VARONIS - Nihilum Backdrop

Warning Signs in the Club Tonight!

I may have had the day off today but I've been a busy girl... I'm trying to keep myself occupied at the moment, living in this craphole of a flat... They even asked me if I'd be interested in covering shifts downstairs, and I KNOW the moment that they get me on their list that any time it's busy I WILL be called to come downstairs and help any time it's busy. No thank you, really... I don't want that at all... 
If I was going to take on another job it would be something totally different from the work I already do, aside from the fact that I am entertaining people as they buy cheese, I think I'd need to do something of a little different sort of entertainment?! 

When I first started Second Life, I like a lot of people started as a dancer and an escort. I read a LOT of smut and love it in lots of different forms. I was always a rather bad girl, until I settled down with my hubby that is captain vanilla and like a big teddybear... I love him, don't me wrong but I'm kinda dying to be a bad girl LOL... Maybe that's the new job I've got to start... Maybe I should go back to being an escort and let the bad girl run free... 
It's play time - as the signs on the toy shelves from Krescendo - state, and this club is known to get a little wild... While the money rains down, as I take a moment to sit comfortably - in a pose from piXit - and get a lot of attention just for eating one of the club's Naughty Waffles - from everfaery at this month's round of Lewd Station... It's true what some say, food kinks are the best paying kinks hehe... I will have to put up some signs to warn people about any wetness that may be present around the stage!!! 

What is she wearing;
Hair: [monso] - Sophie Hair in Black & Red (With extra bangs from the [monso] Pink Hair)
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Drool: ARISE - Lip Drool (No Longer Available!)
Outfit: Psycho Barbie - [Darkveil Set] in Fatpack
Lolly: everfaery - Naughty Waffles (Available until April 15th at Lewd Station)
Pose & Chair Prop: [piXit] - April, Pose 2
Yellow Signs: [Krescendo] - Wet Warning
Pink Signs: Elm - Slippery Safety Cone in Love Juice
Shelves: [Krescendo] - Spicy Shelf in Play Time Pink
Pole & Dance Pad: Violetility - Retrowave Dance Pole
Mop & Bucket: Elm - Slippery Safety Mop & Bucket
Panties: CHEZ MOI - Slippers and Panties
Money: (falling) [Bad Unicorn] - Falling Cash 'The Heat' & (floor) The Salvage Yard - Cash (No Longer Available!)
Backdrop: Paparazzi - BACKDROP - Night Stage 3

Toxicity in the Engine Room

I am a few days late but the Engine Room has opened it's doors into the world of Second Life and there are lots of amazing things in the treasure trove to be discovered, as well as so many interesting new characters to meet... I cannot wait to meet them all, the rag-tag bunch of Steampunkish, colourful characters are bursting through the doors of this event and introducing us all to the magic of the Engine Room... 

The first of the crazy beings that we see through the doors of the Engine Room is the metalized Machina NOVA - named for the outfit she's wearing from Madame Noir, and the skin at the skin set from SOMEONE, both of which are available at Second Life Syndicate's Engine Room - with the toxic touch - thanks to the DeadBoy, also at Engine Room - who is the controller of the Time Spinner - by Static - that she wears proudly as her halo... 
This magical being can be found hiding out in the sewers - a backdrop from Dirty Rat by the way - of Second Life whilst the event is open, and she will be creating and providing the grid with lots of fresh toxic waste, brewed up in her Industrial Alembic - from MoonSha - for the best power to run the grid... 

What is she wearing;
Halo & Wrist Guards: Static - Time Spinner (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Head Wings: [Cubic Cherry] - Aralia Headgear (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Floating Crystals: Normandy - Skaoi.Crystals in Toxic-Static
Hair: POISON ROUGE - Alexandria in Ruby Gold
Head: BeSpoke - Nopperabo
Skin & Tattoo Overlays: SOMEONE - Machina NOVA in Gold (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Outfit: Madame Noir - Metalized Catsuit (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Gloves: [The DeadBoy] - Toxic Touch (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Book: ERG - Alchemist Codex (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Pose: [piXit] - Dead ex Portraits, Pose DF3
Still: [MoonSha] - Industrial Alembic (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Bags: Pagan - Waste Toxic
Barrels: Frio's - Nuclear Waste Barrel in Black
Backdrop: Dirty Rat - Sewer

It's My Birthday!

Breaking News, not just in Second Life but in Real Life too... 
The big news is that your girl, the randomest rambler of the blogging world - yes a big statement and I doubt it's true but I'm feeling a little silly right now - has been celebrating her birthday today... The random rambler has finally stepped out of her 30s and today she is starting her 40th year... 

I've spent a VERY long time in SL now, I've been here through my 21st birthday, and through years of work and marriage, and lots of friendships, but I WOULDN'T change a thing. I celebrated today with my hubby, that I met in SL, I spoke to my bestie that I know from years and years of Second Life friendship and I have had such a lovely day... It's been so nice I don't want to go back to work tomorrow LOL... Still for now, would anyone like a piece of cake to help me celebrate?!

What is she wearing;
Headband: TOMASU - Birthday Wishes Headband
Hair: everfaery - Natasha Hair
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Sweater: miss chelsea - Vika Set in Sweater
Cake: hive - Celebration Cake
Pose: piXit - Dead eX Portraits, Pose DF6
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Breaking News {360} Backdrop

Bloomy & Pixie

There's magic in the air tonight... There's something brewing and there may be big news tomorrow... Something that will affect me, more than anyone else but for now the calm has come before the storm, and the storm is brewing... I needed a break from things that were chaotic, work was yuck and I wanted to slip away into a little fantasy tonight... I needed some breathing space, so I took a walk in the garden... I was not expecting to meet something magical... 

In the garden of the farm I'm currently inhabiting, I was watching the sunset behind the gorgeous Faelight Crystal Lanterns - from Simply Shelby at We Love Roleplay until March 28th - and a little movement caught my eyes.
I spotted a gorgeous little fae, flitting amongst the flowers, talking happily to her cute little Bloomy - from MishMish at Kustom9 until April 10th - even though she's a little twisted with her Draconic skin - from Faunus - and daemonic eyes but really she's just an adorable little pixie... 

What is she wearing;
Hat & Hair: Moon. Hair - Pixie
Head: BeSpoke - Willow
Eyes: Mana - Daemon Eyes
Mushroom Make-Up: TentatioN - MakeUp FACE #15
Scale Body Paint: Faunus - Draconis Body Layer
Friends: MishMish - Bloomy in Orange (Available until April 10th at Kustom9)
Wings: kotte - Fairy Wings
Top: [Faunus] - Sunflower Outfit in Top
Pose: piXit - Perla, Pose F3
Garden Lanterns: Simply Shelby - Faelight Crystal Lanterns (Available until March 28th at We Love Role-Play)
Flower Cushion: {vespertine} - Spring Pals Pillows in Sunny Flower (Available until April 10th at Kustom9)
Large Daisies & Poppies: dust bunny - Paper Blooms
Backdrop: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - Fairytale [360] Backdrop

St.Patrick's Day

It's St.Patrick's Day today... Traditionally only a special day in Ireland, it seems like it's slowly seeping out into the world, and I kinda get the feeling it's become more of a thing in America now than Ireland even. Maybe I'm wrong, but anyone that I spoke to today that seemed to be celebrating was not current Irish but of Irish decent... Funny how traditions shift and change throughout the world isn't it? Wonder why St.Patrick's Day become such a phenomenon, but things like St.George's Day - which is a patron saint day of the English - for example, was less of a thing... I mean everyone celebrates their own chosen things, personally outside of SL I wouldn't be doing anything for St.Patrick's Day but in SL is a whole different story... 

I've seen so many people partying and enjoying their St.Patrick's Day celebrations in Second Life and I think that's bloody awesome... I really do... I've always been like that and lately I'm a LOT less like the party animal I once was. I spend far too much time on my own at the moment, I think I should make some new friends or hang out with the old ones that I still have... I wanted to do something different, something more my usual loner style at the moment... Something with a hint of magic, something to test myself with practising decor pictures... 
Today, I heard a noise in the shed... When I snuck down there was a magical air to the place, the table top where I am learning the new art of flower pressing and drying for arts sake had some gorgeous little bright green shamrocks all over it... Gold coins glittered in the rainbow light, and there was a mysterious hat on the table that wasn't there when I left the shed earlier... 
So for now I'm going to set up a trap and wait to see if there is a Leprechaun exploring my shed, until then, Happy St.Patrick's Day... 

What is in the picture;
Shamrock Plants & Leaves: Gumi's Flower Shop - Shamrock Giver
Hat: [Faunus] - Leprechaun Set in Hat
Cauldron: BROKEN ARROWS - Witch's Alchemy in Cauldron Black
Glasses: Violetility - Charon Coin Glasses in GOLD
Shamrock Wreath: Boudoir - Sain't Patrick Shamrok Wreath
Other Table Top Decor: (Nylon Outfitters) - Botanist Study Collection
Bead Garlands: spruce - Festive Felt Garland in Shamrock
Coin Scatter: LOVE - SCATTERED LUCKY COINS
Table: Half-Deer - Floral Apothecary Cabinet in White
Building: dust bunny - Gardenia Shed
Rainbow: Boudoir - Mesh Rainbow
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Garden Retreat