Detectives NEED Snacks!

There are often times that secrets will come out... Things slowly start to unravel and what was once a happy story can change so quickly overnight... The question is... WHAT DO YOU DO WITH THE INFORMATION YOU'VE RECIEVED?! How do you let it affect you? How will you move forward from any revelation?! Sometimes, the information you discover can be life shattering. It can change your perspectives on the life you've lived and the people you've been surrounded by... It becomes like a game of detective, and it's hard to know what's entirely the truth as you're missing a whole side of the story... Recently, my mind has been plagued with this kinda connundrum and I'm going to share with you,  my thoughts... Come into my little detective office... I have snacks! 

So backstory without too many details... I recently learned something new about people I love, and it hit me like a freight train, it wasn't even like being hit by a truck with the level of "what the fuck did I just learn?" it was MUCH, MUCH bigger than that... It's taken me a few days to process and I NOW need to vent a little just to clear my head before I can move on... Hence why I brought snacks... 
Now I've gotten my head around the information, and asked the people involved some VERY difficult questions. I want to move on with my life, but how will I do that? 
I'm not the kind of person that could harbour resentment to these people. I am the kind of person that feels massive amounts of anxiety though, and I NEED to figure out my game plan... Even though the news was earth-shattering, I have to take various parts of it with a pinch of salt. The person it involves cannot speak for themselves, and only having one side of the story is NEVER going to be total clarity. 
Yet I won't let this tarnish my relationship with this person, I won't let this tarnish the relationship I have with the others involved, and my history with these people will always been seen through the eyes I saw it with - not with the new information I have now - because I loved what I had and don't want to change how it was... 
Going forward though I'm treading carefully... I love the people involved. Secrets need to remain out in the open now though, NO MORE SECRETS because I cannot handle there being MORE surprises like this... The people involved know that, the people involved have been warned. I am not ready to move on too much with this new information, but that won't be this way forever and NOW I am just picking up the pieces... Wish me luck... 
Jamwich anyone?! 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Meadow TSS Ed. Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Top: Mug - Yvette Top in Medium
Coffee: Boutique #187 - Black Mood Cup (Available until September 27th at Black Fair)
Pants: AsteroidBox - Robin Pants (Available until October 10th at Kustom9)
Pose: piXit - Fauriche, Pose 4
Snacks: Junk Food - Jamwiches Wearables
Backdrop: K&S - // Detective's office. Backdrop 

Sunscreen Piggies Against Sunburn!

It's been a difficult year this year, I'm sure you've noticed that by now but then again I feel like it's gone so quick that we've blinked and missed a large chunk of the year... I'm glad for me the Summer months were a bit of a blur, I hate Summer lol but I do feel like I missed out on the Summer fun this year too... So I decided it was time to take myself off on an end of season break, avoid the crowds and HOPE that it wasn't TOO hot... 

Now there are some Brits out there that are sun lovers, sun worshippers if you will... Then there's the kind you see in comedy sketches, that only have to talk about the sun before they get sunburned... That's ME, I'm one of that type... I'm a natural redhead in RL, although now I'm older it's much more chestnut and going grey in places... Yet, like I said, I only have to think about the sunshine and I start to get a burn... When I'm back somewhere dark and cold, I don't stay tanned, I go white again!! 
SO, I am an advocate of ALWAYS WEARING SUNSCREEN... Rudh went off on a little holiday and didn't put any on, and look what happened... That's why when she went to the luxury resort in Zamalek - which happens to be a backdrop from The Bearded Guy - I made sure that she took some of the super cute Sunscreen Piggies - from the MishMish Heatwave Piggies collection - with her! 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & FAGA - Shadow in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - LunaRose Glasses
Nose Paint: Spookshow - Goth Block
Necklace: (Yummy) - Sunchild Necklace Set
Sunburn Layers: [Onyx] - Life's a Beach Sunburn
Top: miss chelsea - Pati Set in Cami
Pig: MishMish - Heatwave Piggies in Sunscreen Piggy
Shorts: miss chelsea - Pati Set in Shorts
Pose: R.Bento - My Glasses, Pose 2
Loungers & Parasols: Fapple - Mistress gets a tan Items
Backdrop: The Bearded Guy - Zamalek Day Backdrop 

Warning off the Wonderland Weirdoes!

Left alone for 5 minutes today, and in that time I managed to talk myself OUT of doing something too crazy when it comes to blogging, and INTO something crazy blogging wise that made me super happy... I love it when you can start with the smallest of items and think... WHAT THE HECK AM I GONNA DO WITH THIS? If you do it long enough, the outcome will surprise you, and it's THIS REASON that I've always said blogging is like a therapy for me, because I get distracted, I relax and magical things happen!!! Today, the magic happened in Wonderland... 

I dunno if you've realised this yet, maybe you have and it's OK if you haven't but sometimes my blogging gets a little strange LOL... When I get fantasy I always find myself slipping into a story, and there aren't many classics that seem as weird in their landscapes as Wonderland has always felt... It's easy for my tired mind to go there... 
Today a cuttle little Bunny - which is actually the head released by BeSpoke that comes with SO MANY options it's definitely worth checking out  - Girl found herself in Wonderland, looking for her friends that were hosting their tea party... Luckily she was warned in advanced to come prepared because the critters in this world can be a little pushy... She packed a can of Repellent Spray - from Boutique #187 that was released for Ouh Lala a while ago and should now be at the mainstore - to ward off the likes of the slightly mad Cheshire Cat... 

What is she wearing;
Head & Ears: BeSpoke - Bunny
Hair: Wasabi - Wildflower Hair in Offbeat
Eyes: Mana - Daemon Eyes
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Necklace: random.Matter - Hanako Choker
Fur: CURELESS[+] - Cheshire's Shawl
Dress: Pixicat - Dreamy Dress
Can: Boutique #187 - Repellant Spray
Pose: piXit - Gothabilly, Pose 1F4
Cat: HEXtraordinary - Cheshire Cat Companion
Bunny Plants: BROKEN ARROWS - Wonderland Rabbit in Grass Rabbit Green
Arches: Simply Shelby - Rustic Autumn Archway Collection
Soldiers: Boudoir - Card Soldiers (No Longer Available!)
Door: ionic - Door to Wonderland
Backdrop: The Bearded Guy - Chess Paradise Backdrop PBR 

Closing Away the Midnight Order!

Today is the 20th of August, WHERE DID AUGUST GO? We're nearly done, it's nearly over and there is SO MUCH that has happened I feel like my head is spinning a little bit... Today is also the day that the Midnight Order closes it's doors on this visit, and so it's time to start locking the dark little monsters away before they can continue to wreak havoc in Second Life... 

The team is slowly rounding them up, locking them in their specially designed cells and discussing the possibilities of them coming out to play in a few months for Halloween... Can you believe that it's ALMOST Halloween season?! 
Lots of these monsters are being "housed" in the LAB FIK - a backdrop from Paleto - where they can be constantly monitored... The guards are protected by the latest in Tubed Gas Mask Technology - thanks to the ERG release for Midnight Order - as if the locks fail, the area will be filled with some very strong knock-out gasses. Failing that, each staff member carries their own Waffle "Toothpick" knife for added safety... If they lose it, that's their problem, all staff are issued with these daggers! 
We do have one other way that the duards can communicate with the central offices... Each guard is provided with a Mood Board - from Boutique #187, available now at Ouh LaLa until September 18th - so they can communicate through the cameras in the eventuality that communications go down!! 
We at the Midnight Order like to keep our staff safe from Monster Rage! 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Exile -  Signe in Fantasy
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Mask: (:ERG:) - Tubed Gas Mask (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Outfit: AZARAN - ROSE OUTFIT (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Sign: Boutique #187 - Mood Board (Available until September 8th at Ouh LaLa)
Knife: [WAFFLE] - Toothpick  (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Pose: [piXit] - Melanie, Pose 4
Model: H&C - Crazy
Pipes: Petrichor - Kerethan Pipe
Backdrop: PALETO.Backdrop - LAB FIK 

A Dark Day at the Beach

Everyone and their aunty seemed to be flocking to the beach yesterday as it was supposedly the best place to see the Eclipse that happened last night... I should have gone, I should have tried to participate but I just felt like crap and while I was in my PJs I missed the event as the sun was hidden behind a building on our street... It's fine, for me I feel like the sun has already gone, and the Summer can quite frankly sod off now... I'm done with the heat... I cannot wait for the Brrrrr months! 
Still I realised that I haven't been to the beach this Summer, I haven't felt the sand between my toes and the cold waves rushing to meet me... So maybe I need to rectify that situation a little bit?! 

Apparently it's going to be another scorchingly hot day today and I'm REALLY not a fan of that... Like I said, roll on the Brrr months! Dark little Living Dead me, really isn't a fan of being too hot... I'd much rather be too cold and wrap up under a ton of blankets! The beach and I are just not really friends because of that LOL... 
It really is too fecking hot today, the beach will be the coolest place, least one can hope anyway!!! 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Mug - Beach Day Gacha Item in #6 Beach Hat Black
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Beach Day in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Sunglasses: Boutique #187 - Metal Frame Sunglasses
Necklace & Bracelets: Static - Morte Ornare
Black Top: Mug - Birdie Top in Black
White Top: Mug - Delilah Tank in White
Shorts: Mug - Delilah Shorts in Black
Bucket: Doe - My Gothic Beach Bucket in Dinosaurs
Pose: [piXit] - Pupa, Pose 3
Chair: CHEZ MOI - Maluma Beach Chair
Parasol: [Merak] - Parasol Stripe
Backdrop: K&S - // Lighthouse Backdrop 

Hot in a Heatwave

I wanted to get back to blogging with a bang... I wanted to throw myself into blogging and use it as I always have - it's always been a form of therapy for me and now that things happened two weeks ago I'm finding that I really need an outlet where I don't have to face people just yet... There's only one problem... WHY IS IT SO GODDAMN HOT?! 

YES YES I know that it's Summer and we're supposed to be this hot... Yes yes I KNOW that in Holland it's not as hot as other places in Europe like Spain where the temperatures are in the mid-40s every day at the moment... It's STILL way too hot for this part of the world where the houses are built to keep the warm in and the cold out. 
I'm trying to find somewhere I can be alone and cool so I can cry and dwell in the past in peace... Both of these things are hard to do, everywhere right now is SO FUCKING HOT!

What is she wearing;
Hair: [monso] - Noelia Hair in Black & Red
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Top: miss chelsea - Leni Set in Top
Shorts: miss chelsea - Leni Set in Shorts
Fan: Boutique #187 - Black Quotes Fan
Pose: -Extra- - Wildflower, Pose 1 (Available  August 1 - 23rd at Smokefest 2026)
Tissues: Puddles - Tissues for your issues
Backdrop: K&S - // Forest Nest. Backdrop

A Laundry Day Discovery!

I'm having one of those days, the kind of days when your brain is so messed up, and you've forgotten that you've already blogged something but then you remember it's OK, it's laundry day anyway... I have so much laundry since I have yet to unpack from my trip home... Some things still smell like the laundry detergent that my parents use... I guess though it's time that I suck it up and do some laundry...

I did a lot of laundry at home when I was helping my dad with things for him and mum, but there's always some stuff that I have to wash... 
When I was playing with my clothes in Second Life, I discovered that there was a lot laundry to get done there too... I tend to wear outfits so often and then I never see them again after a week's wearing of them LOL... Perhaps I should wash them before I put them away... So I grabbed all of my dirty wash and headed on down to the Bubble Bliss Laundromat - a backdrop from K&S - and started sorting my clothes into the machines... 
It was then that I made the crazy discovery... A friend of my Dad's, the pigeon named Walter - a release from YOKAI for the Animal Party that can be found until July 10th at Kustom9 - happened to sneak into my luggage and he was only just found... Luckily it was me and not my cat that found him... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Doremi in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - Metal Frame Sunglasses
Bird Friend: YOKAI - Animal Party pt.II in Pigeon RARE (Available until July 10th at Kustom9)
Necklace: AsteroidBox - Sylvia Chains
Top: miss chelsea - Nara Set in Top
Overshirt: Mug - Jett Top in Black Flannel
Jeans: miss chelsea - Nara Set in Jeans
Pose: {NANTRA} - Norma Jean, Pose 4
Puppies: JIAN - Scruffy Shepherds in 12. Laundry Pups
Bottle: Deco Franzy - Laundry Detergent in 'Refresh Mountain'
White Basket: dust bunny - Laundry Corner in Laundry Basket
Backdrop: K&S - // Bubble Bliss Laundromat. Backdrop

Solar Relics and Forbidden Rituals

Some day soon I'll be able to relax but today at work was horrible, I think that I need a miracle... I don't want to be at work, I don't want to be living at this farm right now, and I want to be about a million miles away from here.. Is that weird? Probably but I want to let myself get lost... I'm going to find a little monsterous magic... 

In the forgotten temple, there are monsters that thrive amongst the salvaged remains... This monster is disturbing to look at... She's a Remnant - thanks to the chest tattoo from Nefekalum at the Salvage Station - and her headdress that covers her teeth behind a Chthonic Cultist Mask - from Static - and she's learning more and more each day using her Solar Relic - from floro, also at Salvage Station - and a myriad of Forbidden Rituals... 

What is she wearing;
Mask & Teeth: Static - Chthonic Cultist Mask
Numeral Halo & Collar: Zibska - Aegir Set (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Sun Halo, Gold Body Paint & Pasties: [Faunus] - Helios
Chest Tattoo: Nefekalum - Remnant (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Skin: LUMAE - Fantasy Skins 2024 in DEVILISH (No Longer Available!)
Right Hand: Boutique #187 - Forbidden Ritual (Available until June 15th at Dubai)
Left Hand: floro - Solar Relic (Available until June 30th at Salvage Station)
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Glitterati & Aii - Astral Smoke
Pose: NANTRA - Norma Jean, Pose 1
Backdrop: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - Forgotten Temple [360] Backdrop

Farmers Market for Lunch

It's been the last of my days off for the weekend, and I am ready to go back to work this week.. Just 4 more days until I can go back to England and right now that seems more important than ever as Mum has been in hospital and I'm worried about her... At this rate, the real reason for going now will be a whole lot less wonderful and a whole lot more scary other things... 
I wanted to try and have a day to relax as I waited for news, I decided that since I'm living on the farm I was going to get out and see the countryside... 

I stopped at the Meadow Market, a gorgeous little farmers market - which is a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - and stopped at the Mobile Bakery and grabbed myself some Junk Food in the form of a Deli Sandwich filled with cheese and pickles and salad! The jalapeno chips look like I should grab a bag of those too... OOOOH and they have a blind date with a book stand... I've always wanted to try those, though I worry if I get a book I've already read I'll be a little disappointed LOL... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Miku Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - Snake Glasses (Available until June 25th at Astrophe)
Dress: The Kiwi Co. - Jaime Set in Dress
Pose: [piXit] - Zenia, Pose 3R
Deli Food: Junk Food - Deli Sandwich Kit
Book Rack & Book: Sari-Sari - Thrifted Books Shelf
Table: Ariskea - [Virginia] Wood Bench Decor
Cart: dust bunny - Mobile Bakery in White
Bicycle: [Merak] - Summer Bicycle
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Meadow Market {360} Backdrop

Is it all just a game?

I've been thinking about something since I had a conversation with a RL colleague about how Tim and I met in Second Life. She was curious and I explained to her about the Second Life world, what it's capable of and all of those wonderful things that can happen because of it... She was raving about the Sims, comparing the two and suggesting that she would be interested in coming to see what SL was like... She said she was looking for a new game, and I offered to help her out, but part of me was twitching about it being game... What are your thoughts?

I have thought long and hard about this topic for the past 20 ish years of being in Second Life. When I think of games I do think of things like board games or video games, I think of PC games like the Sims and world building games, but then do I still consider Second Life in the same way? 
For some it looks like a game... Creating a character, creating a world and living a life that is different from the real one, it's an escape and a chance to be someone you want to be... But is it a game, or is it more of a chat simulation programme? I've worked in Second Life in a Real Life job, I met my husband in Second Life and we've been married for 12 years now, and I met some people that I will keep with me always too... Does that make it a game or is it something different? Is it because I've been here so long now that I feel this way, is it still a game to the new inhabitants or is it really a place that's something different? 
What do you think?? I've been pondering this a lot today whilst going about my boring chores, I just want to know if I'm the only one that feels this way... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH  & Wasabi - Doremi in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - Metal Frame Sunglasses
Necklace: AsteroidBox - Sylvia Chains
Top: miss chelsea - Nara Set in Top
Shirt: Mug - Jett Top in Black Flannel
Pants: miss chelsea - Nara Set in Jeans
Beer & Cigarette: Junk Food - Beer & Cigarette
Pose: [piXit] - Beatrice, Pose F1R
Dice: random.Matter - Game Night Dice Tray in Red
Beer Cans & Ice Bucket: hive - Beer Buds Pack
Backdrop: blaink - D&D Club

A Little Dane-ish Basketball!

Well it's a HOT day today... How can it legally be allowed to go from 12degrees centigrade to 27degrees centigrade in less than a week... We're experiencing Summer temperatures in MAY and last week it was freaking cold here... WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON? 
Since work was so crap today I NEED to find a way to let off a little steam tonight... I've decided to do something wild and crazy, I'm taking my puppies out for a little fun?! 

I took my Danes - from Jian - out for a game of Street Basketball - a backdrop from PALETO - and they seemed to be having a LOT of fun playing ball by themselves. I don't know if the local basketball playing boys felt like it was good too... I had to send them a sign as I drank my Blueberry Slushi Cup - from Junk Food - so I waved the Anti Fan glove - from Boutique #187, available until June 8th at Ouh Lala - and asked them a question across the court... 

What is she wearing;
Hat & Hair: Wasabi - Rookie Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glove: Boutique #187 - Anti Fan in Blue (Available until June 8th at OUH LALA)
Top: The Kiwi Co - Honey Set in Cropped Tank
Drink: Junk Food - Slushi Cup in Blueberry
Waist Shirt: The Kiwi Co - Honey Set in Tied Shirt
Shorts & Tights: The Kiwi Co - Honey Set in Shorts w/Stockings
Pose: [piXit] - Valentina, Pose F7
Dogs: JIAN - Great Danes in Adult & Puppies
Ball: Flower Pose - Basketball Pose Prop
Backdrop: PALETO.Backdrop - Street Basketball

Time to Rehydrate

I had a day off and decided to spend the day with lots of music and dancing and it made getting my chores done much, much, much more interesting... I'm on a happy cloud nine where music is concerned at the moment... Next month I get to go back to the UK to see Take That - as well as my parents and sister - and yesterday I booked tickets for HellBone's Birthday to see Five Finger Death Punch on their anniversary tour in Europe next year... I know that they are total opposites musically but I LOVE both... I'm a happy girl now... 

So today, I've taken myself out for a little more dancing, the club "Night by Cyber" - a backdrop from Vile - I got dressed up in the most Divine Set - from Psycho Barbie - the comes with a gorgeous spiked corset, dress, garters and stockings. The metal spikes reflect the light and the shiny fabric will catch the eye... 
As much as dancing is fun, I might have to take a few minutes for some fresh air and a chance to sneakily rehydrate - from my Midnight Flask by Boutique #187 at the current round of Dubai - before I head back in to dance some more... I'm not as young as I used to be, this is a lot harder than it looks... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Blush Hair in Offbeat
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Collar: GABRIEL - Slave Chain Necklace in Black
Drink: Boutique #187 - Midnight Flask (Available until May 15th at DUBAI)
Phone: REIGN.- Coven Phone Collection Gacha Item in Weirdos
Outfit: Psycho Barbie - [Divine Set - Fatpack]
Pose: [piXit] - Juliette, Pose F4
Backdrop: [Vile] - Night by Cyber Backdrop

Kings Day 2026

It's a special day in Holland today because today is King Willem-Alexander's birthday and so the party that the whole country seems to be in waiting for has been happening ALL DAY today... Celebrating the King, partying and selling off your old junk at the free markets that are taking places in many cities across the country... 
Let's get our celebration on... 

Happy Birthday King Willem-Alexander, thank you for letting the country celebrate today... There have been lots of delicious Dutch snacks eaten in this house today, and we were good kids wearing our Orange uniform to help you celebrate... 

What is she wearing;
Crown: Junk Food - Inflatable Tiara in Orange
Hair: Wasabi - Kiss K9 Ed. Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - 70's Round Glasses
Top: miss chelsea - Arlo Set in Jeans (Available until April 30th at Anthem)
Confetti Poppers: hive - Confetti Poppers
Jeans: miss chelsea - Arlo Set in Jeans (Available until April 30th at Anthem)
Pose: FOXCITY  - Warm Up, Pose 6
Dutch Food: DRD - Dutch Snack Table (Past Group Gift) & C L  A Vv - Dutch Cuisine in Cup of Tea & Stroopwafels (No Longer Available!)
Window Decor: Hangry - Birthday 101 in Happy Fucking Birthday Sign & spruce - Festive Felt Garland in Tangerine
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Brew Haven

I'm a Hot Mess!

Right now I'm a little bit of a hot mess, I'm tired and sad because for the last few days my parents have been here to visit... I have LOVED having them here, it's been great to catch up with my parents, it's been a bit of a relief to see my mum and talk to her face-to-face about the chemo that she's having AND it's been great for my Dad to get a chance to see the house and talk about the work being done... 
Though now,  more than normal, it was hard to see them leave... I'm left here feeling upset and scared and really, pretty much like a Hot Mess... 

I decided to lose myself in oneof my books about bad boys and stalking and creepy perviness, I need something dark and totally different from reality... Some people watch TV and I like to read smut, but sometimes the things do have a little effect on my picture making process... I may be a Hot Mess, but I'm going to be the kind of Hot Mess that could be the fantasy of one of the boys in my books... 
My outfit may scream that I'm a Hot Mess - it's actually made up of an amazing Karina Skirt from AsteroidBox at the current round of Equal10 worn over a tank and leggings from The Kiwi Co's Hot Mess set - accessorised with a new Lips Jeans Bag - available from Boutique #187 at Ouh LaLa until May 8th - so that I look HOT and less of a Mess on the metro and distract myself and the creepy guy sitting pretending to take a call... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Tease Hair in Offbeat
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Gum: [Pink Fuel] - Yum Bubblegum!
Necklace: AsteroidBox - Emery Jewelry
Top: The Kiwi Co - Hot Mess White Tank
Bag: Boutique #187 - Lips Jeans Bag (Available until May 8th at Ouh LaLa)
Skirt: AsteroidBox - Karina Skirt (Available until May 8th at Equal10)
Pants: The Kiwi Co - Hot Mess Leggings v1
Pose: [piXit] - Annette, Pose F1
Mesh Model: DisturbeD - Alton Sitting Guy on Phone Character
Backdrop: K&S - // Shadow Subway. Backdrop

For The Matrix

The world we are living in right now seems like it's falling apart... I know that we all have our own problems in life but has anyone tried to turn off the world simulation that the minds behind the matrix are currently running and restart it again, because apparently somewhere the code isn't up to scratch?! Someone unplug themselves from the simulator please and check to see what is going on back there?

I know that the Engine Room is a steampunkish magical event and that steampunk outwardly does not look like it could hande something as futuristic as the control of the simulation that runs our daily lives, but you know what they say... Never judge a book by it's cover... Behind the hidden doors of the Engine Room runs some extremely powerful, hidden magic... Magic that could ensure the world runs as it should. I'm sure the mainframe of the Matrix is back there. I NEED to break through and find out if it can be restarted so we can get some peace?!

What is she wearing;
Hair: MIRJA - SIVA in Fatpack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: [Duplexity] - Astrium Glasses (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Outfit: ABSENCE - Latex Gear (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Guns: Reve Obscura - Bad Things Pose Prop (No Longer Available!)
Pose: FOXCITY - Racer, Pose 1m
Lamps: Boutique #187 - Funky Lava Lamp (Available until April 15th at DUBAI)
Statue: What's Lost Spirits - CYBER STATUE in BELIEVE 2.1 (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Computers: [Waffle] - Artificial Mastermind (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Pipes: NOMAD -  Neon Cables
Backdrop: The Bearded Guy - The Matrix Backdrop

A Tear and A Ted

I have had a day that has been a little mixed emotion-wise. Today was the funeral of an old family friend in the UK, he was someone I grew up with a little like an extra uncle and his wife was someone that I was very close to. She has been a rock for my mum whilst mum is undergoing her chemo treatments and I cannot be at home to help her. So it's been a day of thinking of the lady he left behind, the memories I have of him in the background of my childhood and my mother, who knew him well and is trying to keep her friend supported in this difficult time.. It's times like this when I HATE being so far away from the family. It's times like this when I feel like I'm not doing enough, and not being a good, supportive daughter... I'm trying not to cry as I say this but I miss my parents more than anything at the moment... 

I think I'm just feeling highly emotional... I turn 40 next Thursday and I won't be seeing my family. It's UK mother's day on Sunday and I won't be seeing my mother, and I guess I'm a little jealous that she's going to be seeing my sister instead but it's easier to go to her between chemo treatments than come all the way to Amsterdam. I'm living in a place that I don't like, that has no privacy and feels like I am CONSTANTLY at work. There are other things too but I am going to get through this and things will be better by the end of the year, I live in hope... 
I needed someone to love me, I needed to feel cozy and comfortable and cuddled... Teddy Bears and cuddly toys have always been my friend in this. I have lots and will keep collecting them and I cuddle them all, despite the fact that I am nearly 40. It is always a nice feeling to have something soft and sweet and friendly to cuddle, right?! For now, until I get a chance to see the family, facetime on the phone and cuddling teddies is the best that it's going to get... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: [monso] - Meiko Hair in Black & Red
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Eyes: Izzie's - Lua Eyes in Teary Eyes Green
Tear Make-Up: Izzie's - Little Tears & Smeared Mascara
Top: Mug - Serena Top in Olive
Shorts: Mug - Serena Shorts in Olive
LARGE Back Bear: Tardfish - Huggy Bear in Brown
Phone: Boutique #187 - Leather Phone Case 2.0
Pose & Teddy Prop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Sittin Pretty Bento Pose Set, Pose 5 (Available until April 6th at Collabor88)
Tissues: Puddles - Recovery Essentials in Tissues for your issues
Colourful Teddies: hive - My Colorful Teddy
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Softly (Available until April 6th at Collabor88)

A Queen in Hiding!

Finally a day off and I had the chance to have a lay in. It was blissful, until we heard the staff of the shop below arriving for work and disturbing the wonderful slumber... It was so lovely cuddling up with Hell and my cat,and then reality came through and we had to go to our house and do some of the final work before we handover the keys next week... The first thing I NEED to do though is get a very, large cup of coffee... 

Even though I'm happy to have a day off and had a bit of a lay in, I'm still bloody exhausted and I know that HellBone is too... 
I'll sit around for a while, hide my exhausted eyes and unwashed hair under a cap - the Queen Cap from Boutique #187, available until February 25th at Astrophe - and pretend to read my book while I doom scroll through my phone as I find out what is going on with the rest of my friends in the Barely Functioning Club... 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Boutique #187 - Queen Cap (Available until February 25th at Astrophe)
Hair: Beusy - Plume Hair
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Eye Make-Up: Izzie's - Insomnia
Necklace: Kibitz - Lyona's Collar in Silver (Available until March 8th at Equal10)
Dress: miss chelsea - Noel Dress
Pose: -Extra- - Cafe Babe, Pose 3
Coffee: Junk Food - Barely Functioning Club in Currently Buffering Coffee
Phone: Junk Food - Barely Functioning Club in CELL
Bagels: MOVEMENT - Bagle Display in Penault Butter Bagle
Book: OMY - Bookworm in Open Book, Lover Pack (Available until March 9th at Kustom9)
Tissues & Pills: Puddles - Recovery Essentials (Available until February 27th at Anthem)
Boxes: RC Cluster - New Home Moving Box (No Longer Available!) & Atelier Burgundy - Moving Boxes in Box with Packing Peanuts
Plant: Pitaya - Love Monstera in Green Leaves
Sign: [Krescendo] - Funny Frames in Kitchen
Backdrop: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - Bryant Skybox in Light

Chinese New Year

It feels like a lot is happening all at once in a Spiritual sense at the moment... There are so many different religious and cultural things going on in the world at the same time right now and it feels kinda different that everyone is celebrating something spiritual all at once. It would be nice if it would unite the world a little more, bring us all together since we're all a little closer to our spirituality right now but I doubt very much that will be the case since we all feel so broken... 

Now I know that I am NOT a religious person. I definitely believe in spiritual things, I am always going to believe in fairies and magic, and I LOVE all of the stories from different religions that are uplifting and full of meaning, and I REALLY hope I'm not going to cause offence but I don't like to think anyone's beliefs are more important than anyone elses... I love that we can all be different and believe what we choose, so long as it doesn't harm anyone - yes I KNOW that Wars are constantly, even now, being fought over religious reasons - but it would be such a boring world to live in, if EVERYONE thought the same, believed in the same, dressed the same or acted in the same way... That's my 10cents anyway...
I'm not trying to offend anyone, but I wanted to look a little at some of the current spirituality taking place that I know little about... Besides things I learnt at school there is SO MUCH TO KNOW about two big things taking place right now... Today I will be looking a little at the Chinese Lunar New Year.
So, for us that are not in the know, what is Chinese New Year?
Well apparently it's the most important Chinese Holiday, covering 15 days to celebrate the start of the Lunar New Year, and this year it started on February 17th - yes I KNOW I'm two days late, but I'm moving houses at the moment, give me some slack lol... The reason for the celebration is that it's a start of change, it celebrates family - often honouring ancestors - saying goodbye to the old and welcoming the new fortune for the new year. The whole celebration will culminate 15 days after it starts - so that's March 3rd - with the Lantern Festival!
Another interesting thing that I've often seen but never really thought much of, is that the Chinese Zodiac characters are animal based. Now there is a LOT of information about this, and I could basically write a whole other blog post for it, but this year is the year of the Horse - apparently as I was born in 1986 I am from the year of the Fire Tiger! 
Anyway, thank you for listening to me ramble and learn something new as I went along, I actually really enjoyed looking into something I knew little about and putting together a post for it. I think I will try it more often, and don't worry as always there will be something pretty to look at with a list of what I've got in the picture too... Just accept my ramblings LOL you know you want to... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & FAGA - Symphony in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - Moda Glasses
Dress: Psycho Barbie - Moonspire Dress
Dragon: {Sakura} - Chinese Dragon Plush
Basket: kotte - CNY Basket
Lantern: kotte - Yuan Xiao in Lotus Lantern in Red
Confetti: kotte - Xin Nian in Envelope Confetti
Pose: FOXCITY - Warm Up, Pose 2
Gold Hanging Decor: (Lucas Lameth) - Feng Shui Linden Money Charm $$$
Coin Plant: (Lucas Lameth) - Fortune Tree in Red
Orange Plant: kotte - Xin Nian in Mandarin Tree
Horse Bush: dust bunny - Garden Creatures in Horse Green
Plant Stands: {what next} - Bronze Plant Stands in Bronze
Backdrop: Paparazzi - BACKDROP - Chinese New Year

Sorry, but I'm Keeping the Ring!

It's almost the month of Love, well technically unlike Christmas or Halloween, Valentine's shouldn't get a whole month as it's halfway through and therefore we suffer less with it perhaps?! I shouldn't complain, I've had HellBone for the last 15 Valentine's but meh, it's such a boring holiday lol... 
All that trouble rejecting the (Non) Valentines that I get every year - it makes me laugh since I NEVER actually get one, even from the hubby - but it's such a chore LOL... I might as well get started early... 

Now I am no fool, I don't need all of these romantic gestures and gifts, BUT since the trouble was taken to choose and give me these things, it would be rude of me not to keep them and put them to good use... 
I'll write them a nice letter back and may even take pictures of me posing with some of the pretty gifts like this fabulous diamond ring that was sent as "The Promise" - which is actually a release from Boutique #187 for DUBAI until February 15th, and there are SO MANY different options for what you want the card to say... Such a fun idea for this time of year don'tcha think? - and it's a promise I'm going to have to make him break with a well written note of thanks... 

What is in the picture;
Ring Box: Boutique #187 - The Promise (Available until February 15th at DUBAI)
Letters, Cards, Cup & Stamp:  (Nylon Outfitters) - Yours Truly Collection (Available until February 6th at Collabor88)
Bust: Dahlia - Glam Revue in Dressed Bust (Available until February 6th at Collabor88)
Jewellery Hanger: Dahlia - Glam Revue in Jewels (Available until February 6th at Collabor88)
Roses: hive - Romantic Rose Bouquet
Tea Pot: BackBone - Tea Party in Teapot
Magazines: random.Matter - Clutter: Girls Night in Magazines [I]
Cake: Kalopsia - Flora's Battenberg Cake
Table: [Merak] - Harborline Table
Cabinet: Mithral - Wooden File Cabinet in Pack D
Inside Plant: dust bunny - Paradise Plants in Fan Palm
Balcony Chair & Table: Petite Mort - Pomona Rattan Chair & Table Set
Balcony Book: dust bunny - Beach Day in Breezy Book
Balcony Plant: hive - Bird of Paradise Plant
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Neighbourhood

Bang Bang!

I wonder sometimes when I watch movies, especially the action kind, would I prefer to be on the side of the hero or the villain. When I was a little girl - and I'll not hide that it is still true now I'm a big girl too - I was always on the side of the hero, especially in the case of the Disney films that I chose. For example, I LOVE the Little Mermaid, and when I was a kid I wanted to be Ariel, now that I'm an old lady I feel more aligned with Ursula... So perhaps when I grew up I was destined to feel more like I'm hiding a villain deep inside, although plenty of people will tell you I'm a good girl... 

So I don't know about you but when I start working on a blog post I NEVER know where I'm going to bewhen I finish it. Ideas never seem to come easy and when they do form it's like magic... I'm not as creative as some people, and I'm not as able to creative such high quantities of blog posts as I'd like but to think that what I do makes others smile as much as they do me...
Today's post randomly came to me when I was thinking about things to do with Villains... I pulled on a look and for some reason I ended up with a weird Gotham style feeling... Maybe I'll make a Batman adversary, maybe I'll be able to be in league with the Joker... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Cherie FLF Ed. Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - Ouhlala Glasses (Available from January 14 - February 8th at OUH LALA)
Earrings: CUREMORE  - AsylumVillains in Bang Earrings
Top & Corset Set: AsteroidBox - Fran Sweater& Corset (Available until February 5th at Equal10)
Dynamite: [Krescendo] - Bomb Clock in Red
Gun: CUREMORE  - AsylumVillains in  Jester's Surprise Revolver
Skirt & Stockings: AsteroidBox - Bobby Skirt (Available until February 8th at ACCESS)
Pose: Secret Poses - Detective, Pose 5
Helicopter: H&C - Helicopter Crashed
Fires: Razor Bird - Scavenger's Camp Fire
Lights: H&C - Spotlight
Backdrop: The Bearded Guy - Horny Cravings in La Terraza