Detectives NEED Snacks!

There are often times that secrets will come out... Things slowly start to unravel and what was once a happy story can change so quickly overnight... The question is... WHAT DO YOU DO WITH THE INFORMATION YOU'VE RECIEVED?! How do you let it affect you? How will you move forward from any revelation?! Sometimes, the information you discover can be life shattering. It can change your perspectives on the life you've lived and the people you've been surrounded by... It becomes like a game of detective, and it's hard to know what's entirely the truth as you're missing a whole side of the story... Recently, my mind has been plagued with this kinda connundrum and I'm going to share with you,  my thoughts... Come into my little detective office... I have snacks! 

So backstory without too many details... I recently learned something new about people I love, and it hit me like a freight train, it wasn't even like being hit by a truck with the level of "what the fuck did I just learn?" it was MUCH, MUCH bigger than that... It's taken me a few days to process and I NOW need to vent a little just to clear my head before I can move on... Hence why I brought snacks... 
Now I've gotten my head around the information, and asked the people involved some VERY difficult questions. I want to move on with my life, but how will I do that? 
I'm not the kind of person that could harbour resentment to these people. I am the kind of person that feels massive amounts of anxiety though, and I NEED to figure out my game plan... Even though the news was earth-shattering, I have to take various parts of it with a pinch of salt. The person it involves cannot speak for themselves, and only having one side of the story is NEVER going to be total clarity. 
Yet I won't let this tarnish my relationship with this person, I won't let this tarnish the relationship I have with the others involved, and my history with these people will always been seen through the eyes I saw it with - not with the new information I have now - because I loved what I had and don't want to change how it was... 
Going forward though I'm treading carefully... I love the people involved. Secrets need to remain out in the open now though, NO MORE SECRETS because I cannot handle there being MORE surprises like this... The people involved know that, the people involved have been warned. I am not ready to move on too much with this new information, but that won't be this way forever and NOW I am just picking up the pieces... Wish me luck... 
Jamwich anyone?! 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Meadow TSS Ed. Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Top: Mug - Yvette Top in Medium
Coffee: Boutique #187 - Black Mood Cup (Available until September 27th at Black Fair)
Pants: AsteroidBox - Robin Pants (Available until October 10th at Kustom9)
Pose: piXit - Fauriche, Pose 4
Snacks: Junk Food - Jamwiches Wearables
Backdrop: K&S - // Detective's office. Backdrop 

Amsterdam's Pride

Hello out there, remember me? I'm that girl that used to ramble on about nonsense in every blogpost I wrote, usually accompanying that with a silly picture that I loved but most people probably thought was a bit bonkers... I've had a bit of an unexpected absense recently... I've alluded to things in the past but mid house move, we had an emergency in RL and I had to make another mad dash back to the UK... I'm not really ready to talk about it yet, but I will in time, even writing this is making me emotional... 
Still, I NEED to start finding some semblance of normality... I'm back in Holland now, and since it's a special day in Amsterdam, I'm going to use it as a gentle way to get back to blogging... 

Today is Amsterdam Pride... Not being proud of Amsterdam - although that is an every day thing for the Amsterdammers that I know and love - although perhaps it's a good day to be proud of the city and it's people. A day when the Netherlands shines as a Gay capital of the world, and Amsterdam being the first city to legalize same sex marriages throws open it's canals for one of the most colourful parades in the world... I LOVE Amsterdam Pride every year, this year we're hosting World Pride too which makes it seem extra special. I just wish I was feeling strong enough to go and join the fun!!! Everyone should be celebrating love today... Love is one of the most important things a person can have, it's one of those very important things that keeps me going... I'm going to enjoy a little love today, celebrate Pride a little more and enjoy some special churros and maybe a little puff-puff-pass action?! 
HAPPY AMSTERDAM WORLD PRIDE DAY!!!!

What is she wearing;
Flags: Junk Food - Pride White Headband
Hair Accessory: miss chelsea - Love Pride Headband
Hair: Wasabi - Joyride Hair in Offbeat
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Make-Up: Keymoko - Pride Set (Past Gift!) (No Longer Available!), Palette - Pride Hearts (No Longer Available!) & Izzie's - Rainbow Glitter Freckles
Outfit: [RED GIRL] - Reese Shorts Overall Pride (Past Event Gift!)
Badges: Grandma's House - Pride Pins (Past Event Gift!)
Food: andika - "Pride Heart Churros" (Past Event Gift!)
Pose: [PiXit] - Beatrice, Pose F5
Leaf Friends: Junk Food - Weed Plushies
Clouds: kotte - Cloudy
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Tunnel of Love

BBQ by the Pool

It's the Summer now, I'm desperate to let myself enjoy it. HellBone and I are close the point of being able to move back home and we're planning for it to happen on Thursday IF we can... There will still be things we need to collect, cleaning that we need to do, but once we're over in our actual home, then I can think about making the daunting trip home to see my mum for the last time... I HOPE I make it in time, I hope I can get through a goodbye and carry on living without her... I cannot talk about it right now though, as I'm about to start crying... Let's think about something different, food is always a good distraction? Right?  

Since it's Summer there is only one type of food I have a desire to eat... It comes in different variations but BBQ Food is just what Summer requires... 
Today I decided to set up the BBQ at the Poolside - which is an old but still amazing backdrop from FOXCITY - and got HellBone to get his Grilling hat on... He's the king of the BBQ in our house... I set up the amazing Moo Sprinkler - from Krescendo - so that I could enjoy it as I floated around in the pool while waiting for the Cookout Feast - from Junk Food - and a portion of HellBone's Famous BBQ Platter - a release that was discounted this weekend from the amazing Lucas Lameth... Now I'm drooling, luckily I can hide that in the pool LOL... 

What is in the picture:
Front Plate: Junk Food - Cookout Feast Plate 1
Sprinkler: [Krescendo] - Moo Sprinkler
Table Plate: (Lucas Lameth) - Famous BBQ Platter
BBQ: Junk Food - Grilling Set v1
Chair & Table: CHEZ MOI - Maluma Beach Set Items
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Poolside

Shark Bites are Ouchies!

I NEED to do something silly and whimsical today or I am going to actually drive myself nuts... I had NO IDEA what I wanted to do, and in RL we have been so busy moving things around so that HellBone and I can move back home sometime next week that we're both getting frustrated and tired. It feels like we've not done much today but we did a LOT and tomorrow there will be a LOT more to come too... 
So right now I NEED something fun and silly before my head implodes! Dramatic I KNOW, but it is what it is now... So that's why this happened... 

I decided to take the dogs for a walk down at the beach by the Baywater Lighthouse - a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - and we had one of those magical moments where as soon as they hit the water, they transformed into adorable little Shark Pups - from Aardvark - SUPER Cute and super fun... I pulled on a hat so that I could join in the fun, and was told that this Chomper Shark Hat - from Junk Food in the weekend sales this week - would keep me safe... Apparently it was the wrong information... One of the shark pups was a little hungry, and decided to take a Shark Bite - which is the shark on my leg and part of the Beach Day Gacha Collection from Mug at Equal10 now - outta my leg... OUCH!

What is she wearing;
Hat: Junk Food - Chomper Shark Hat
Hair: ARGRACE - CHIZURU in Reds
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Goggles: STOIC - SUMMER GOGGLES
Body drips: Izzie's - Wet Body & Face
Shark Leg & Outfit: Mug - Beach Day Gacha Items in Fun Bikini RARE & Shark Bite Blue (Available until August 5th at Equal10)
Pose & Floatie Prop: [piXit] - Summer Vibes, Pose 1F2R
Shark Puppies: Aardvark - Shark Pups
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Baywater Lighthouse {360}Backdrop in BLUE

Farmers Market for Lunch

It's been the last of my days off for the weekend, and I am ready to go back to work this week.. Just 4 more days until I can go back to England and right now that seems more important than ever as Mum has been in hospital and I'm worried about her... At this rate, the real reason for going now will be a whole lot less wonderful and a whole lot more scary other things... 
I wanted to try and have a day to relax as I waited for news, I decided that since I'm living on the farm I was going to get out and see the countryside... 

I stopped at the Meadow Market, a gorgeous little farmers market - which is a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - and stopped at the Mobile Bakery and grabbed myself some Junk Food in the form of a Deli Sandwich filled with cheese and pickles and salad! The jalapeno chips look like I should grab a bag of those too... OOOOH and they have a blind date with a book stand... I've always wanted to try those, though I worry if I get a book I've already read I'll be a little disappointed LOL... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Miku Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - Snake Glasses (Available until June 25th at Astrophe)
Dress: The Kiwi Co. - Jaime Set in Dress
Pose: [piXit] - Zenia, Pose 3R
Deli Food: Junk Food - Deli Sandwich Kit
Book Rack & Book: Sari-Sari - Thrifted Books Shelf
Table: Ariskea - [Virginia] Wood Bench Decor
Cart: dust bunny - Mobile Bakery in White
Bicycle: [Merak] - Summer Bicycle
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Meadow Market {360} Backdrop

Is it all just a game?

I've been thinking about something since I had a conversation with a RL colleague about how Tim and I met in Second Life. She was curious and I explained to her about the Second Life world, what it's capable of and all of those wonderful things that can happen because of it... She was raving about the Sims, comparing the two and suggesting that she would be interested in coming to see what SL was like... She said she was looking for a new game, and I offered to help her out, but part of me was twitching about it being game... What are your thoughts?

I have thought long and hard about this topic for the past 20 ish years of being in Second Life. When I think of games I do think of things like board games or video games, I think of PC games like the Sims and world building games, but then do I still consider Second Life in the same way? 
For some it looks like a game... Creating a character, creating a world and living a life that is different from the real one, it's an escape and a chance to be someone you want to be... But is it a game, or is it more of a chat simulation programme? I've worked in Second Life in a Real Life job, I met my husband in Second Life and we've been married for 12 years now, and I met some people that I will keep with me always too... Does that make it a game or is it something different? Is it because I've been here so long now that I feel this way, is it still a game to the new inhabitants or is it really a place that's something different? 
What do you think?? I've been pondering this a lot today whilst going about my boring chores, I just want to know if I'm the only one that feels this way... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH  & Wasabi - Doremi in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - Metal Frame Sunglasses
Necklace: AsteroidBox - Sylvia Chains
Top: miss chelsea - Nara Set in Top
Shirt: Mug - Jett Top in Black Flannel
Pants: miss chelsea - Nara Set in Jeans
Beer & Cigarette: Junk Food - Beer & Cigarette
Pose: [piXit] - Beatrice, Pose F1R
Dice: random.Matter - Game Night Dice Tray in Red
Beer Cans & Ice Bucket: hive - Beer Buds Pack
Backdrop: blaink - D&D Club

Allergies Be Gone!

Allergies are one of the weirdest ailments that we seem to suffer from... It's always made me wonder about the amazingness of humans when some people are allergic to somethings and others are not. I know that we're all different but then you add something like that to the mix it's just another amazing thing, in a world full of amazing... There are so many things people are allergic too, and that can change any time. I'm just glad some of the worst ones aren't things I suffer with... 

I have a colleague that had a lactose intolerance and because she worked in the cheese shop and tasted small amounts every day she seemed to cure herself, whilst a friend of mine at university ate pasta and noodles for every meal and ended up with a gluten intolerance lol... It's amazing how these things can be affected by the way we live our lives... 
I don't think I have an allergy to anything, but I am MAJORLY against the heat... It's been boiling here for the past few days and while I LOVE the early morning sun and the cooler evenings, the height of the heat in the middle of the day can just bite me... 
SO aside from the rambling I want to say to those that do suffer I'm sorry... I'd love to aide in your healing, I want to welcome you to the Pollen Club - a collection from Junk Food, that contains tea, pills, tissues, and other things to clear the air - where we have tea and cake and lots of things that will help to make you feel better... 

What is in the picture;
Allergy Pills: Junk Food - Pollen Club in ALLERGY MEDICATION
Tea Pot: DISORDERLY - Floral Tea in Teapot
Plushie: dust bunny - Daisy Duckie Plush in Butter
Honey Pot: DISORDERLY - Floral Tea in Honey Pot
Candle: Junk Food - Pollen Club in CANDLE
Nose Spray: Junk Food - Pollen Club in EYEDROPS
Mask: Junk Food - Pollen Club in EYEMASK
Tea Cup: Junk Food - Pollen Club in MUG
Package of Candies: Junk Food - Cough Drops Bag
Cake: BROKEN ARROWS - Berry's Cake in Vanilla & Raspberry Flower
Tea Tins: Dahlia - Dolce in Tea Tins Decor
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Soft Focus Vol.1 in Sun (Available until June 6th at Collabor88)

A Little Dane-ish Basketball!

Well it's a HOT day today... How can it legally be allowed to go from 12degrees centigrade to 27degrees centigrade in less than a week... We're experiencing Summer temperatures in MAY and last week it was freaking cold here... WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON? 
Since work was so crap today I NEED to find a way to let off a little steam tonight... I've decided to do something wild and crazy, I'm taking my puppies out for a little fun?! 

I took my Danes - from Jian - out for a game of Street Basketball - a backdrop from PALETO - and they seemed to be having a LOT of fun playing ball by themselves. I don't know if the local basketball playing boys felt like it was good too... I had to send them a sign as I drank my Blueberry Slushi Cup - from Junk Food - so I waved the Anti Fan glove - from Boutique #187, available until June 8th at Ouh Lala - and asked them a question across the court... 

What is she wearing;
Hat & Hair: Wasabi - Rookie Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glove: Boutique #187 - Anti Fan in Blue (Available until June 8th at OUH LALA)
Top: The Kiwi Co - Honey Set in Cropped Tank
Drink: Junk Food - Slushi Cup in Blueberry
Waist Shirt: The Kiwi Co - Honey Set in Tied Shirt
Shorts & Tights: The Kiwi Co - Honey Set in Shorts w/Stockings
Pose: [piXit] - Valentina, Pose F7
Dogs: JIAN - Great Danes in Adult & Puppies
Ball: Flower Pose - Basketball Pose Prop
Backdrop: PALETO.Backdrop - Street Basketball

Tail Waggers in the Dog Park

One of the most beautiful things about Second Life is that you can be whoever or whatever you want to be... You can be as creative as your mind will let you and it frees us of any real life limitations. SOMETIMES that works in bad ways, as we have seen recently with all the drama surrounding one of the head honchos at Linden Labs and they happiness at his recent departure. More often than not though, it gives people the creative space - and so long as they aren't hurting anyone - I feel that this can be an amazing opportunity to be, do, and try new things that you'd NEVER have the chance to explore in reality... 
There have been so many interesting advancements in all my years in world... From prim to sculpties to mesh and beyond, animations improved, HUDs revolutionised everything and now there are creative people out there running experiences... There's something for everyone... 

Today I decided to take a trip to the park with the Spring Courtyard - from Synnergy.Tavis - and the Eupawria Dog Park - with items from the Krescendo collection available at Kinky until May 22nd - which is a collection of the cutest puppy things and the perfect place to play... 
This visit ties in with what I was talking about earlier though... Second Life is full of new innovations and every day we see brilliant creators coming up with things to make their entertainment space better... I am going to preface this with saying that I am not a girl with this particular kink, nor am I a Furry - although I have plenty of friends and family that are in both Second Life and Real Life too - but I do LOVE to play dress up and will always be a barbie doll with a big costume box...
An old friend of HellBone's has come out with something that can, will and should be a great new tool for people that have a love of pet play. At the moment there are systems for Puppy and Pony play, all running under the brand of Tail Waggers; a one woman show with a system similar to that of the plant pets and zooby babies that grow... The system will mean that a Puppy or Pony with the HUD needs feeding, exercise, attention and even medical care, and this in turn will create an interactive connection between pet and handler... 
Now as I said this isn't really my bag, but there are so many people out there that may be interested and I feel that this system has been so well thought out that I think people need to know about it... More information can be found in world... Are there any Puppy's or Pony's out there that would enjoy something like this?! 

What is she wearing;
Ears & Tail: HAZEL - CANINE BUNDLE
Hair: Wasabi - Coeur FLF ED. Hair in Absolute Pack
Face Paint: MoonPhase - ClassicWereWolf FacePaint
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Collar: [Krescendo] - Bone Collar
Top: miss chelsea - Odea Set in Shorts
Leash: [Krescendo] - Rope Leash
Shorts: miss chelsea - Odea Set in Shorts
Pose: [piXit] - Manaram, Pose 2
Dog Decor (House, Food, Bones): [Krescendo] - Eupawria Gacha Items (Available until May 22nd at Kinky)
Ball & Chew Toy: MadPea - Puppy Care Kit Items
Dog Biscuits: Junk Food - Pet Collection in Dog Treats
Sign: Tail Waggers - Information Board
Backdrop: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - Spring Courtyard [360] Backdrop

Sad, Trapped and Lost

I'm feeling very low today, I don't know why I mean aside from the random things that I usually complain about lately... I'm worried about people I care about are sick, I've got the stress of the house and the fact that HellBone is getting stressed and pissed and overdoing things, and I'm very very very tired... Today, nothing is making me feel happy, and I need to find a way to get my head above water...

I feel like I'm sitting alone in the dark and I am just going through the motions to keep my brain working and not breaking... I'm trying to keep my joyful attitude joyful by bouncing around on one of the Gummy Chairs - a release from Junk Food - that has been abandoned in my mind since my teens. 
I'm feeling shite, I'm sorry that I've been ranting here and there and I'm just wishing I could go home and spend some time with my Mum... I wish I could be there to help her and I wish that I could get back to my own home... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: [monso] - Choco Hair in Black & Red
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Collar & Chains: random.Matter - Neze Collar
Top: Mug - Morgana Top in Black
Body Dirt: Izzie's - Face & Body Dirt
Jeans: Mug - Christina Jeans in Gray
Feet Dirt: Izzie's - Dirty Feet
Pose: -Extra- - Dockside Daydream, Pose 1
Chair: Junk Food - Gummy Chair in Black
Hanging Decor: Static - Backwood Wards
Garbage: UrBaN SpIrIt - Garbage Day in Large Trash Bag Pile
Floor Litter: DRD - San Mora Item in City Trash Ground
Backdrop: Paparazzi - BACKDROP - Scrawled Hall 5

Kings Day 2026

It's a special day in Holland today because today is King Willem-Alexander's birthday and so the party that the whole country seems to be in waiting for has been happening ALL DAY today... Celebrating the King, partying and selling off your old junk at the free markets that are taking places in many cities across the country... 
Let's get our celebration on... 

Happy Birthday King Willem-Alexander, thank you for letting the country celebrate today... There have been lots of delicious Dutch snacks eaten in this house today, and we were good kids wearing our Orange uniform to help you celebrate... 

What is she wearing;
Crown: Junk Food - Inflatable Tiara in Orange
Hair: Wasabi - Kiss K9 Ed. Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - 70's Round Glasses
Top: miss chelsea - Arlo Set in Jeans (Available until April 30th at Anthem)
Confetti Poppers: hive - Confetti Poppers
Jeans: miss chelsea - Arlo Set in Jeans (Available until April 30th at Anthem)
Pose: FOXCITY  - Warm Up, Pose 6
Dutch Food: DRD - Dutch Snack Table (Past Group Gift) & C L  A Vv - Dutch Cuisine in Cup of Tea & Stroopwafels (No Longer Available!)
Window Decor: Hangry - Birthday 101 in Happy Fucking Birthday Sign & spruce - Festive Felt Garland in Tangerine
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Brew Haven

Cubs and Cuties

It's Friday Night and when I was younger that was an excuse to be able to head out for a party... I used to do it fairly often at Uni, but now the thought of that and all the havoc that goes with it is just way too much to handle... I'm definitely not ready for that kinda chaos... I wanna be at home in my jammies with my book, a cuppa tea and my cat... Rudh on the other hand always has different ideas, and in the early evening sunshine tonight she met up with ther fairy friends for a trip to get food and check out the cute local boys... 

I dunno if you've heard of it, but there is an amazing little Fairytale Cafe called the Lucky Clover Cafe - a backdrop from FOXCITY that is one of two similar designs both in regular and fairytale from Collabor88 - where you can get some of the most delicious grub... I fully recommend the Popcorn Cubs - from Junk Food - that look like cute little bears and taste just like the best chicken nuggets you've ever had... 
I was so keen on the delicious dinner that I was able to ignore my two little fairy friends checking out the cute Little Pan boys on the other side of the restaurant... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi  - Nectarine Hair in Absolute Pack
Head Accessory: muffin - Teddy Headband in Brown
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Wings: Doe - Fairstar Wings in Fatpack
Necklace: AsteroidBox - Fiona Accessories (Available until May 10th at Kustom9)
Dress: AsteroidBox - Fiona Dress (Available until May 10th at Kustom9)
Pose: Foxcity - Pretty, Pose 7
Food: Junk Food - Popcorn Cubs
Fairies: MishMish - Fairy
Pans: MishMish - Little Pan
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Lucky Clover Cafe in Fairy (Available until May 6th at Collabor88)

I wanna be an Easter Feaster!

Easter Monday has always felt like a weird one for me, WHY is there a second day of Easter? I know that for religious reasons Good Friday is supposed to be the day he died, and Easter Sunday was when he was resurrected don't ask me for more details I don't know a lot more than that, I'm sorry... Yet, WHY IS EASTER MONDAY A THING? I'd never complain about extra days off work but hmmm... Christmas has a second day, which we often refer to as Boxing Day - and yes I KNOW the historical reason for that in the UK at least - Easter has two days... When can we start having time off for two days of Halloween?! 

Yet I guess it's just another day to relax, spend time with family or friends, or even on your own like I did a lot of today, and enjoy the treats of the day before just a little bit longer... Easter Monday was always a time to enjoy the eggs that I didn't get to eat on Easter Sunday because we'd spent it at our Grandparents as a little kid... Mum and Dad used to make an excellent family lunch and it was better than the day before because we could be relaxed and not expected to be on our best behaviour lol... 
I wanted an Easter feast for lunch today... I think I got a little carried away. I made sure there was Easter Cakes - thanks to Junk Food - some delightful little Butterfly Sandwiches - from Lucas Lameth - which really helped with the Spring feel to lunch, and even some Hot Cross Buns - from vespertine - that happen to be some of my favourite Easter treats from home... There was plenty of chocolate and loads of eggs too... Perfect for the picnic that I set up on the table in the garden... So perfect that even the little birdies came to visit and join in the fun... 

What is in the picture;
Hot Cross Buns: {vespertine} - Hotcross Bun Sandwich Prep
Egg Basket: Pitaya - Cozy Kitchen Decor in Eggs Wire Basket
Bird Vase: {vespertine} - Spring Buds Tree in Colorful Birds
Carrot Cakes: Junk Food - Carrot Cupcake
Butterfly Sandwiches: (Lucas Lameth) - Butterfly Sandwiches
Creme Eggs:  Junk Food - Primbury Eggs
Easter Basket: Elm - Easter Basket
Chocolate Bunny: dust bunny - Chocolate Bunny
Cup Tower: Mura - Charcu-tea-rie Cup Tower
Cake: Junk Food - Easter Cake
Cheese: MOVEMENT -  Camembert Bliss Serving Plate
Striped Eggs: Simply Shelby - Happy Easter Candy Eggs & Happy Easter Striped Eggs
Table: [Merak] - Harborline Table
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Mystic Bloomstead {360} Backdrop

Ordered the Burger Surprise!

I spent sooooo much time working on chores today, I couldn't get myself into the right brain to think about much more than getting through the cleaning. I'm trying to wrap myself up in things that are avoiding the guilt of not being present to help over the Easter Weekend, but I have to keep reminding myself that I AM allowed to have time off since I'm working Friday and Saturday... Let the guilt go, seriously I'm working my shifts and the fact that I'm living here shouldn't be  reason to worry about not helping downstairs... Rant over... For now I think?! 
Now onto the more prominent task... What is for dinner?! 

Burgers it is... I fancy something gross and greasy and fastfood would be perfect. Nothing like a little Junk Food to make a girl feel a bit better about her grumpy mood... 
I'll head to the California Burger bar, and grab myself a delicious cheese burger... I was NOT actually expecting the surprise that followed. The burger attacked me... It was a Surprise Attack... A delicious but wonderful surprise attack... Things got a little saucy, a little cheesy but it was all in good fun! 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Sorumin - Bucket hat SET in Burger
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Corvina in Redhead
Glasses: Junk Food - Pickle Vision
Nose Accessory: FOXCITY - Fryends Bento Pose in Prop Nose Fries
Make-up: Izzie's - Mouth Mess in Ketchup
Chest Accessory: parfait - Pizza Slvt Melted Cheese EXCLUSIVE
Arm Accessories: MIWAS - Bubble on me (Recoloured by me!)
Top: Stories&Co - Portia Bustier in Fatpack (Available until April 20th at Engine Room)
Costume: Junk Food - Burger Costume
Pose: [piXit] - Surprise!, Pose F5
Burger Box & Bag: Junk Food - Macky D's Tray Items
Fries & Drink: Half-Deer - Fast Food Clutter Items
Sauce: Junk Food - Dino Nuggets Plate Set in Ketchup
Backdrop: Focus Poses - California Burger Backdrop

Collecting the Snacks

Another day off and one again all I could seem to think about was food... I WAS STARVING but as per usual I didn't have anything in the house that I wanted to eat LOL. Is that just the case for me or does everyone suffer this fate? I've never been a dieter, always allowing myself the things I like to eat but do it in moderation, if I didn't and tried to stop myself the moment that I'd get my hands on what I was craving I'd go crazy and eat far too much of it, but I still get times like this when the one thing that I want to eat is the one thing that we don't have in the house... 
So what did I actually want to eat... I'm not even sure I knew that and could tell you lol... 

I had to thinkof things that would distract me... It's not easy when I'm living in this current situation, I know I'm lucky to have a place to live but I really wish I could be moving back home already, and I can't even do what I'd normally do and play loud music to pay attention to other things. I cannot risk causing any disruption to the customers in the shop below the flat, or my boss will be pissed... 
So headphones are a permanent fixture on my head now, and today it was all about the loud emo rock of my teens... As I'm heading towards being 40, I am very much regressing back into my childhood loves LOL... Loud rock music, Cold coffee and Burgers till I pop... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH - Nicki in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Eye Make-Up: Gorsimi - Slatra Shadows
Collar: PSYCHO:Byts - Black Choker+Spike
Upper Necklace: AsteroidBox - Spike Pendant in Holo Version
Lower Necklace: LaGyo - Spooky Necklace
Top: NeverWish - Rawr Set in Spaghetti Strap Shirt
Arm Warmers: NeverWish - Rawr Set in Arm Warmers
Coffee: Junk Food - Coffee Bucket in LIGHT BREW
Burgers: Junk Food - Burger Bucket in RED
Belt: NeverWish - Rawr Set in Pyramid Spike Belt
Skirt: NeverWish - Rawr Set in Skirt
Pose: [piXit] - Not So Lovely Lolli, Pose 4
Backdrop: K&S - // Underground

A Queen in Hiding!

Finally a day off and I had the chance to have a lay in. It was blissful, until we heard the staff of the shop below arriving for work and disturbing the wonderful slumber... It was so lovely cuddling up with Hell and my cat,and then reality came through and we had to go to our house and do some of the final work before we handover the keys next week... The first thing I NEED to do though is get a very, large cup of coffee... 

Even though I'm happy to have a day off and had a bit of a lay in, I'm still bloody exhausted and I know that HellBone is too... 
I'll sit around for a while, hide my exhausted eyes and unwashed hair under a cap - the Queen Cap from Boutique #187, available until February 25th at Astrophe - and pretend to read my book while I doom scroll through my phone as I find out what is going on with the rest of my friends in the Barely Functioning Club... 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Boutique #187 - Queen Cap (Available until February 25th at Astrophe)
Hair: Beusy - Plume Hair
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Eye Make-Up: Izzie's - Insomnia
Necklace: Kibitz - Lyona's Collar in Silver (Available until March 8th at Equal10)
Dress: miss chelsea - Noel Dress
Pose: -Extra- - Cafe Babe, Pose 3
Coffee: Junk Food - Barely Functioning Club in Currently Buffering Coffee
Phone: Junk Food - Barely Functioning Club in CELL
Bagels: MOVEMENT - Bagle Display in Penault Butter Bagle
Book: OMY - Bookworm in Open Book, Lover Pack (Available until March 9th at Kustom9)
Tissues & Pills: Puddles - Recovery Essentials (Available until February 27th at Anthem)
Boxes: RC Cluster - New Home Moving Box (No Longer Available!) & Atelier Burgundy - Moving Boxes in Box with Packing Peanuts
Plant: Pitaya - Love Monstera in Green Leaves
Sign: [Krescendo] - Funny Frames in Kitchen
Backdrop: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - Bryant Skybox in Light

Moving all that Emotional Baggage

This week and next are CRAZY busy weeks in my RL. From February 26th, HellBone and I don't have access to our house in RL because we are having some MAJOR rennovations done that are necessary and we HAVE to get things done. SO, HellBone and I are tidying, packing, sorting and prepping not only ONE but TWO places because luckily for us, my boss was willing to let us live on one of their properties... I have large amounts of anxiety over my roughly 6-month temporary relocation, but for now I'm just getting things ready... 

Every time I have a day off it's like the typical Moving Day scene - a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - there are boxes and cleaning supplies and mess everywhere... It's not just the stuff though, it's all the emotional baggage that I'm carrying - represented so perfectly by The Bearded Guy's What I Carry box - that is making this harder. I am exhausted, I am running on high anxiety and I can feel the clock ticking in a count down to when we are needing everything done and ready by... The cat isn't helping too as she's stressing while the house empties around her and she screams at the top of her little lungs in the voice of her people... I wish there was more hours in the day, just a few hours more then I'd be able to have a proper dinner, rather than just some pizza in my mouth as I dash past... Although Mouth Pizza is flipping delicious... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Sunset in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Mouth Pizza: Junk Food - Mouth Pizza in Supreme
Box: The Bearded Guy - What I Carry
Pants: CryBunBun - Badgirl Jeans in Blue
Tights: [SHIFUKU] - Fishnet Leggings
Pose: [piXit] - Juliet, Pose 5
Vehicle: FINCA  - Delivery Kutto in Peach
Cat Carrier: MadPea - Crazy Cat Lady's Starter Kit in Cat Carrier
Cat: Aardvark - Paws & Reflect Cats in Stretch Armstrong
Pizza: Junk Food - Pizzeria Pizza
Bear: hive - My Colorful Teddy
Books: buildworksdecor - Kinky Books Series Colored, [Merak] - Nocturnes Books, Dahlia - Lunaria in Stacked Books & spruce - Book Collection in Botanical Series
Other Furniture & Boxes: Atelier Burgundy - Moving Day Gacha Items
Backdrop: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - Moving Day Scene

Gummy Bears Don't Go THERE!

Sunday is always officially been the start of my weekend, for the longest time anyway... So what does any party girl like to do on her weekend... PARTY of course... A working week for me is often busy and stressful, and people irritate the everloving piss out of me, but that just wants me to let my hair down and go crazy... So for the party this weekend, expect some interesting shinanigans LOL... Maybe something involvin gummy bears lol... 

Random I KNOW, but that's just me and besides who doesn't love a good gummy bear... I was given a bag of Haribo Gummy Bears and they somehow became my inspiration LOL... 
So when I was being weirdly random and digging through my hoard to find something to wear over a pair of ripped fishnet stockings - that just happen to be a creation from Psycho Barbie, that comes with ripped and non-ripped BOM versions plus a pair of BOM panties - it could have been a look that went in any direction... Then I had a call, that lead to a game of playtime and a little bit of drinking, and before long kinkier things were happening than just a fun game with gummy bears... This MAY have lead to Gummy Bears being hidden in places that could have caused stickiness and SHOULD NOT be hiding places for candy... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Vesper FLF Ed. Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Face Gummies: kotte - Gummy
Jacket & Bikini Top: AsteroidBox - Pippa Jacket in Black
Rings: kotte - Gummy Rings
Skirt & Panties: SEKA's - CutiePoo in LIGHT
Tights: Psycho Barbie - [Fishnet Stockings]
Tail: [FAME] - Glamorous Demon in Tail (Available January 20th - February 20th at Midnight Order)
Shoes & Socks: UNA - Bitten Shoes
Pose: FOXCITY - Fuego, Pose 4 (Lewd)
Candy Bucket: Junk Food - Gummy Bucket in Gummybear PINK
Candy Bag: Junk Food - Rainbow Gummybears Bag in Pink
Bottles: Junk Food - Circroc Vodka Gummi Set
Loose Candies: Junk Food - Circroc Vodka Gummi Set in Scattered 
Giant Candy: MadPea - Gummy Bears 
Phone & Light: Junk Food - Mukbang Fatpack in Ring Light Black
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Bad Habits in Dark 

KABOOM Loading... The Machine Uprising!

Today has been a day when it felt like the world went BOOM... I know there is SO MUCH going on in the world right now, we're teetering on the edge of some pretty bad times but I am also dealing with things in my RL situation that I've mentioned before but they are getting closer and more daunting day by day... 
Today we discovered the officialy starting date for the work on our home, I'm not looking forward to February 27th... It's D-Day... The day that my own little world will go BOOM... 

I needed to do something a little bonkers to make me feel a little less high-anxiety and thought maybe if the BOOM was able to happen, then I'd be able to relax... BOY, did that happen. I couldn't stop giggling as this picture came together on my screen... 
The outfit I wore as I set the flaming match to the fuse of my Bomb - a Boom Baby Holdable Bomb from piXit - was provided by the Division Union - actually the Division set released by AsteroidBox at Kustom9 - as part of my uniform for the resistance... Apparently the machines are coming to life, raising a little hell and I'm not just talking machines in the military... As I was sending out the Emergency Broadcast I had the shock of my life, there on the balcony of the office building, amongst other robots of varying shapes and sizes, was my Funky Fridge - from Junk Food - and my toaster!!!! It's an Armageddon of robotic proportions... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: [monso] - Anto Hair in Black & Red
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Match: Never Sleep - Firestarter Matches
Collar: AsteroidBox - Division Collar (Available until February 10th at Kustom9)
Top: AsteroidBox - Division Top (Available until February 10th at Kustom9)
Bomb: [piXit] - Boom Baby Holdable Bomb
Pants: AsteroidBox - Dakota Pants in Black
Pose: {NANTRA} - Beach Illustrated 2024, Pose 8
Green & Yellow Machines: [Waffle] - Atomic Coolers in Tropical & Yella (Available January 20th - February 20th at Midnight Order)
Fridge: Junk Food - Funky Fridge in Black
Flying Robots: Aardvark - Tiny Tech Bot
Breakfast Robot: Aardvark - Breakfast Bot
Toaster: dust bunny - Toaster
Backdrop: The Bearded Guy - Armageddon Backdrop

Exercise or Spring Rolls?

So a few posts ago I was all gun ho, full of excitement in planning things for the year. Working on getting through the year and maybe finding time for myself along the way... HOWEVER, like I said in that post, I am totally unreliable when it comes to getting exercising... I work SUPER hard every day, and know I should make time for exercise but I'm always running around so when I'm free I love to relax and rest... I've come to a new conclusion in life... It's like Krescendo read my mind... 

"My winter fat is gone. Now I have Spring Rolls" I mean I guess that it's half true, it's not gone it has just trasferred to being my Spring Rolls LOL... I know I'm a big girl in RL, I have no shame admitting that I'm not a skinny beam pole but I'm also not the kinda girl to go without jokes about it. I've always said I have more rolls than the supermarket... 
I gave up on working out and decided to find some food... Suddenly I have craving some Chinese Takeout - from Junk Food - I think I might have to get two portions of Spring Rolls... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Sangria in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Headphones: Mug - Sara Sports Bra in Black Headphones
Cardigan: miss chelsea - Kiva Set in Cardi (Available until February 8th at Equal10)
Bodysuit: miss chelsea - Kiva Set in Bodysuit (Available until February 8th at Equal10)
Pants: miss chelsea - Kiva Set in Sweats (Available until February 8th at Equal10)
Pose: FOXCITY - Street Style, Pose 4
Food Props: Junk Food - Chinese Takeout Set V.2
Sign: [Krescendo] - Spring Rolls Sign (Available until January 19th for Fifty Linden Friday)
Half Ball: Promagic - Workout-Bosu Ball in Blue
Yoga Mats: CHEZ MOI - Mandala Mat Holder
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Home Gym II (Recoloured by me!)