The Monster Within

It's been another busy day at work... There has been a lot of nonsense from people that seem to think that they know better than me about a subject I deal with on a daily basis, and think they have the answers to questions I answer about a million times per day... It brings out the monster in me. I feel like Dr.Jekyll sometimes, feeling frustrated and as that boils up I have to duck into the office to release Mrs Hyde... I think I prefer the Mrs Hyde version of me sometimes... 

This outfit was something that I had played around with when the Engine Room was around but due to all of the scary looks I've been playing with, Mrs Hyde, who is similar to Frankenstein's Monster in her crazy steampunkish way. 
She wanders through the KILLER rooms - a backdrop from PALETO - where all of her scientific equipment is dotted around the halls and the remnants of her experiments are left in a mess on the floor... 

What is she wearing;
Hair & Accessory: S-CLUB - ESTHER
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Cigarette: [AERTH] - Selene's Vape
Neck Bolt: [Cubic Cherry] - {Monstaar} neck bolts
Dress: Decoy - Varona Ambassador Dress
Book: Arkivet - Spooky Sketchbook (Available until November 1st at Trick or Treat Lane) 
Pose: Secret Poses - Davina, Pose 2M
Briefcase: [LINKRAVE] - Wormhole Suitcase
Science Equipment: [Rhyme nor Reason] - Strange Science Kit
Hanging Body: EQUAL - Sinister Attic Gacha Item in Hanging Body #16
Body Parts: Lilith's Den - Psycho Puzzle
Table: Granola - Fern's Half Moon Table
Backdrop: PALETO.Backdrop - KILLER

Memories on the Screen

Our brain is such a powerful tool, it makes the world's super computers look like amateurs, and even the most useless of people are brilliantly clever if they really put their mind to it! They run our bodies and keep us alive, they keep skills held tight so they can be used any time they are needed, and they hold on to so many of our wonderful memories as well as those things that we wish to forget, our secrets, our hopes and our fears... We can call on them when we need them, some come to the front of our minds unbidden, and others are locked up tight... 
If we had a machine that could tap into our memories, I wonder what we'd discover... 

I think if we had a machine that could share our thoughts it could be either really great - a way to help us clear our minds of the bad things - or really terribly - if things are used against us... Imagine if someone got hold of our innermost secrets?!!! 
I'd hope that if someone has seen memories in my head, they will only find the happy things. Memories of my childhood days, reminders of my favourite toys. There are so many that spring to mind at times, things I'd forgotten, things that may no longer exist... 
Whilst I don't have a machine, I will admit that I DO have a lot of toys, lots of them to remind me of my youthful days. Once the machine has found the image, it could be printed out and everyone can take a closer look at all my lovely toys... Things like my AMAZING Rocking Horsey - from Ananas at the Fifty Linden Friday Birthday Bash - or my beautiful dolls, but you have to be careful, there is one that is a little more lively than the others... Watch out for the Pistachio Puppet - from tardfish at Enchantment - he's not as cute as he looks, he's very stabby... 
Now as the image on the screen of the picture in my mind is small, luckily the print outs are a little bigger and give you a proper close-up... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Foxy - Haven Hair in Reds
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Evil Baby - Albus Spectacles
Shoulder Pal: Tardfish - Pistacio Puppet (Available until August 21st at Enchantment)
Top: V/.VoluptasVirtualis - [Khloe] 1.1 (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Hand Doll & Broken Floor Doll: {Sakura} - Broken Dolls
Pants: AsteroidBox - Lena Pants in Plaid
Boots: CULT - Yui
Horse: Ananas - Rocking Horsey (Available until September 2nd at Fifty Linden Friday Birthday Bash)
Doll & Pram: Remarkable Oblivion - The Doll Maker Gacha Items (No Longer Available!)
Toy Train: BIJOU - Wooden Train Sand
Jack in the Box: EQUAL - Sinister Attic Gacha Item in Bear in the Box
Ripped Teddy: {Sakura} - Ripped Bear in Brown
Magic Box: NOMAD - Magician's Set
Doll House: Apple Fall - Georgian Dollhouse
Machine: Dirty Rat - Machine of Memories (Available until August 20th at Midnight Order)
Backdrop: Trompe Loeil - Huron Cove Cottage 

Do You Wanna Play A Game?

I've been so bright and colourful lately, I love the bright Spring colours but there are so many other sides of me and I have to admit that the dark colours that need to come out to darken the day... 
I think that I have a bit of a desire, I want to do something fun... Maybe, perhaps... Do you want to play a game? 

There is a little magic as I've opened the toy closet and suddenly become a little twisted in my head... I dont know what it is but my voice sounds deeper... If I looked into the mirror I'd probably give myself a shock at what I "Saw"... 
There are so many different toy in the cupboard, all kinds of different games including mouse traps - the game lol although be careful of the traps on your fingertips - and a very special dice that you'd "Roll for Initiative" and that I'm keeping in a very safe space - the awesome new gag created by Ama for the current round of FaMESHed X - but it still leads to th question, "Do you wanna play a game?"

What is she wearing; 
Hair: Wasabi -  Delaney Hair in Offbeat 
Make-Up: L'Emporio - Saw Makeup 
Gag: Ama - Roll for Initiative in D20 (Available until May 10th at FaMESHed X) 
Collar: Assane Store - You Prisoner 
Outfit: AsteroidBox - Rowan Bodysuit in Damaged 
Mousetrap: Iso Darling - Mouse Snap Trap OUCH 
Snake: hive - My Pet Snake 
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Glitterati in Diamond, Valkyrie in Silver Aura & Wicked Witch in Heatwave 
Pose: Secret Poses - Rachel, Pose 2 
Cards: ionic - Flying Cards 
Ladder: Jian - Hillside Orchard Ladder 
Teddy: EQUAL - Sinister Attic Gacha Item in Bear in the Box #19 
Chess Pieces: Tentacio - Mad Alice Chess Decor 
Rocking Horse: Remarkable Oblivion - Hotel Paranoia Gacha Item in War 
Dartboard: floorplan - Target Practice Dartboard 

They're trying to steal my friend...

The last two days I've been at work in RL, so my 31 for Halloween is running a little late... I'm also feeling tired and more than a little drained... There's so much of a stress when it comes to RL due to the second wave of Covid, that I needed some time to just have a lazy day and well, today that's what I've had... Mostly because I've been suffering with a headache all day! 
I've been locked away in the semi-darkness, trying to make my headache go away but my mind has been playing tricks on me, and I've made some very naughty new friends... 

I always had lots of friends in my bedroom, I like to have lots of plushies so that I can hug them at any time... I LOVEEEEE having a huge collection, and that goes for SL too... 
So while I'm locked away in the dark, with the little shadow children - that were the reason that I got locked away in the first place... I have some new plushies in my little room right now, friends from Cerridwen's Cauldron, Astara, Witchcraft, EQUAL and darkendStare, and we were all sitting around telling awesome scary stories when these cute but mean little Undead Hexers - some might say cute little unstable demons - snuck out from under my bed and started to carry off one of my plushie pals... 

What is she wearing; 
Hair: [monso] - Liah Hair in Black & Red 
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory 
Top: Psycho Barbie - Necrosis Tee (Available until October 11th at Necrosis) 
Pants: Pseudo - Minthe Trousers in Black 
Pose: FOXCITY - Ground Sits VOL 2, Pose 4 (Alternate Leg Position) 
Plushies on Bed: Cerridwen's Cauldron - Cthonian Critters Gacha Collection (Available until October 31st at Gacha Guild's Hallows Horror Carnivale) 
Ball Plushies: Astara - Portly Pals Gacha Collection (Available until October 31st at Gacha Guild's Hallows Horror Carnivale) 
Little Dolls: unstable - Undead Hexer Gacha Collection (Available until October 31st at Gacha Guild's Hallows Horror Carnivale) 
Bat Plushie: {WitchCraft} - Baby Bat Plushie (Available until October 11th at Necrosis) 
Voodoo Doll: EQUAL - Sinister Attic Gacha Item in Boy Voodoo Doll #21 
Goat Plushie: darkendStare - Baphomet Plush in Pastel Pack 
Ghosts: MadPea - Shadow Ghosts 
Backdrop: Ex Machina - Welcome Home 

The search for Coffee...

 Friday is officially my first day of the week that I'm not having to go out to work in RL... I am SUPER LAZY on days like today, I woke up so late and then lad a lazy lunch, took a long hot shower and have spent the day getting some of the stuff I needed to do done in SL! It's been great... BUT here's the thing... I log into SL and drink my first cuppa coffee while shopping or checking out blogs... DO NOT EXPECT ME TO PAY ATTENTION TO YOU LOL... Before that first cuppa coffee - after which I become more normal and switch to tea - Rudh is a no disturbance zone lol, you message at your own risk... 

I had just woken up this morning and was in search of my first cup of coffee... I must have looked like a bit of a mess lol... Comfortable slouchy clothing - although these new "What's The Tee?" Shirts from Misschevious that are available tomorrow for the Saturday Sale, are super cute and don't deserve to be used as slouchy wear, they could look great all dressed up too! I'm only just awake, I pulled on the wrong glasses - it's hard to see without my reading glasses and in the dark I pulled on my Ananas "Henry's Hands Glasses" instead so I'm blind as a bat... Teddy and I went in search of coffee... 

What is she wearing; 
Hair: Doe - Twist in Colors A 
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory 
Glasses: Ananas - Henry's Hands in Glasses 
Top: Misschevious - What's The Tee? in Dork Pack Weird Girl (Available Saturday 12th for Saturday Sale)
Teddy: EQUAL - Sinister Attic Gacha Item in Teddy Bear 
Pants: PSEUDO - Minthe Trousers in Black  
Pose: NANTRA - 6 Feet of Separation, Pose 1M 
Coffee Machine: dust bunny - coffee machine 
Backdrop: David Heather - Kitchen Backdrop RARE (Available for use at Backdrop City) 

Saturday Morning Eclipse Cartoons

Saturday Morning when I was younger meant only ONE THING... Cartoons!! As a kid - like many other kids out there - I'd be getting up, grabbing some cereal and laying on the floor watching the same cartoons I'd seen replayed a thousand times on Nickelodeon. 
Now that I'm older, it doesn't seem to be so much of thing that I'm able to do anymore, BUT there's always wishful thinking... Maybe next Saturday?! 

Of course when Rudh watches Saturday Morning Cartoons, it's done with her usual dead girl flair... mostly because the cartoon that is about to start is ECLIPSE based. It was bound to be a little dark and macabre... although maybe not to the same extent as her Teddy Bear?
She's been good and pulled on some decent looking clothes that could be seen as floppy around the house clothes - although technically it's actually a Tank Top from Pretty Sexy Things at Rally to Rescue and a pair of Storybook pants - yet there's more than a couple of things from the new round of Eclipse too! 
Her new earrings are a release by Spookshow called Diabolos. A set of earrings that may need modifying to fit your ears, but are very easy to make fit no matter the style of ears you wear. You may also notice those reddish looking scars on her cheeks - that's blood by the way - and it's a new makeup release, along with the adorable little Skull Ribbons, from The White Crow. Both of these things can be grabbed at the new round of the ECLIPSE... The Eclipse, so I'm told, will be changing soon too! A new Eclipse will appear once in the two months, and there are more changes to come too... Sounds exciting doesn't it, let's wait and see what the future brings, but for now enjoy the new Eclipse!

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH - Astra (Past Group Gift) 
Hair Ribbon: -[TWC]- - Skull Ribbons in Black (Available until June 30th at ECLIPSE) 
Horns: DOUX - Demon Hairstyle in Reds 
Skin: Glam Affair - Seya in Europa 2 
Eyes: Izzie's - Demon Mesh Eyes 
Cheek Wound: -[TWC]- - Blushful Tattoos (Available until June 30th at ECLIPSE) 
Earrings: Spookshow - Diabolos Earring Set (Available until June 30th at ECLIPSE) 
Top: Pretty Sexy Things - Tuffy Tank in Hotter Than Hell (Available until June 20th at Rally To Rescue)
Pants: Storybook - Shelke in Black 
Pose: -Extra- - Perfect Body 
Teddy: EQUAL - Sinister Attic in Teddy Bear 
Backdrop: *cm*.MESH - Keep Shut Backdrop (Available for use at Backdrop City) 

I got the Pumpkins! Who wants to make the Pie?!

I know that Halloween has come and gone already, and I know that for many people there's not really a need for pumpkins anymore - at least not in Europe - but in America, Thanksgiving is coming now and this means there's time for a feast on the way. I'm not going to pretend I know anything about Thanksgiving BUT I will say I've been told about a little thing called Pumpkin Pie, which sounds ABSOLUTELY YUMMY!!! 
So, even though I don't really have a need for pumpkins at home anymore, I have American Momma's... Maybe one of them will make me a pumpkin pie?! Maybe I'll get a pumpkin just in case!

I picked up a really nice looking pumpkin at our local farm, that's Sol Farm by the way - thanks to an adorable pose from Secret Poses that is available until November 8th at Sense - but being down on the farm, and thinking about my dear ol' Daddy, made me feel like getting a little countrified... It's not something I'm very good at, but I look kinda cute so maybe it works!?!
I LOVE this dress, I'm not sure if it's meant for a country girl, but it really does work for one. It's great when you're trying to make it look like a rock chick style too! It's an Avril Denim Dress from Hilly Haalan, and as with all the HH range you get a vast number of different colour change options thanks to an easy to use HUD. 

What is she wearing;
Hat & Hair: TRUTH - Jill in Reds 
Skin: Glam Affair - Seya in Europa 2 
Cardigan: [Cynful] - Fuzzy Cardigan in Grey 
Dress: Hilly Haalan - Avril Denim Dress 
Boots: EQUAL - Demi Boots in Grey 
Pose & Props: Secret Poses - Pumpkin Patch! Bento (Available until November 8th at Sense)