I'm on my Knees, please Help me Stay Alive

"I'm becoming afraid, it's already too late, 

I'm on my knees, please help me stay alive... "

Lyrics from a song by Crown the Empire, that when I was running around dressed in an outfit that HellBone told me I shouldn't wear around the bikers, made the urge  to do something a little naughty stronger, and BOY did I get the look I was going for... The song was the one that I had playing in the background and I think it helped me to channel a victim style feeling LOL... Yet it was the look and the location that inspired this photo, both are a little risque, but oh-so-much fun hehe... 

So as the line of the song says I'm on my knees LOL... The pose is one from Signature Pose and it isn't part of the scenery, but it just fitted so perfectly... The victim being held in place by a magnetic force in the laboratory of a mad scientist...Least that's the look I was going for! The location is not one for the faint of heart though, it is a place that has a VERY rude name and use too actually - the location is called Get Fucked, so I will leave you to imagine what goes on there... Though it was empty when I went in, phew!
The outfit is one that I am in love with, and have worn a LOT - Hell is OK with it so long as I'm not around the biker boys or something LOL... I wore one of the newer releases from r2 fashions called Gekka. I LOVE the way that Rikka - the store's owner - seems to do magical things creating that perfect PVC look, especially the transparent PVC.
After finding the perfect outfit though, it was simple to scart accessorising - a pair of over the knee boots from BAX, a BabyDoll blindfold and some simple jewellery from (Yummy) and tapi, and this little captive of the mad scientist was ready to try to break free...
On a parting note today, while this little victim tries to break free, I think I should share with you the song that helped me inspire this photo... It's an older song but still an awesome one, Ladies and Gentlemen, Crown the Empire's song "Voices"...

What is she wearing;
Hair: SpellBound - Peaches in B Chapter I: Earth (Past OMGacha Release)
Skin: Glam Affair - Lauren in America 07 (Past Collabor88 Item)
Blindfold: BabyDoll - Bloody Blindfold (Past Event Release)
Collar: (Yummy) - Punk Collar in Silver and Black (Past Event Release)
Outfit: r2 - A/D/E gekka in Black (Available Now at Collabor88)
Bracelet: tapi - Hammered Punk Cuff
Boots: BAX - Regency Boots in Black Leather
Pose: Signature Pose - Shawna 2

Panda... he's your Father...

One last post for today and I wanted to show you something strange! Somehow - please don't ask me how, I've got no idea - it has happened again... Hell has caused us to adopt another of SL's strays... This time it's a baby panda!
What started out as Hell luring the sweet and innocent Athrun to the Dark Side, began heading them down a slippery slope until jokes about being his father actually started to mean a little more... Now I have a step son who, along with my hubby, thinks that Star Wars is the next best thing since Cake!
So please bare with me as I once again introduce you to a member of my SL Family I never knew I wanted and swore to myself that I would never again adopt more "kids"... It's time to show the world I am weak as I introduce to you my "Stepson" - that is rapidly becoming more son without the step part - Athrun "Panda" Holmes!

So happy to have you in our lives Ath, even if mine now has a little less cake in it... I count myself as fairly lucky to have someone that is willing to distract HellBone and keep him out of my way. He's also very good at entertaining HellBone with talk of Star Wars and building... But what makes me the most surprised is that when you look at the photo of the three of us, Athrun really does look a little like HellBone's offspring LOL... There is a definite family connection there!!! I mean OK sometimes he does have a little more fashion flair - obviously something he picked up from yours truly - but I just couldn't resist taking our new family photo with him and his dad looking so cute hehe...
Love you Athy, thank you for keeping Hell happy... *hugs you tight*

What is she wearing;
(If you want to know what either of the boys are wearing please feel free to ask me and I will try to find out!)
Hair: Catwa - WokeUp
Skin: Glam Affair - Lauren in America 07 (Past Collabor88 Item)
Face Wounds: Utopiah - Excessive Pain Makeup
Nose Piercing: DirtyStories - Heart Nose Piercing (Past Suicide Dollz Item)
Lip Piercing: Cute Poison - Wounded Piercing
Collar: {PSYCHO:Byts} - Black Choker in Studs
Dress: N-Uno - Shirt Dress in Denim Blue Yellow (Available Now at Cosmopolitan)
Bracelet: tapi - Nailed Cuff
Pose: .::Y&R::.Design - The Vampire Dairies Pose

The Psycho TeddyBear Killer!

It's that time again... SIMPLY THE BEST time again... But this time I bring to you, someone fairly new to the Horror Haute event - at least this is the first time that I have seen them participate, maybe I am confused in the summer heat but someone will slap me and tell me otherwise if I'm wrong!
Today is horrific because I spent some time torturing and finally impaling an interloping teddybear! Normally I love plushies, I welcome them into my house - either RL or SL by the way - and give them all the love and attention they desire, but this little teddy was caught harming one of my little friends... LOL... So I brutally tortured him and then impaled him with my antlers LOL...

Gosh, that makes me sound more than a little insane right? I'm not sure Horror is the right word, more like Psycho perhaps?!
Still it's not entirely my fault, it can be in part blamed to today's "Simply the Best" Horror Haute outfit... As I said, this store seems to be new to the line-up, but it seems to be very promising! Actually I am in love with this outfit hehe... The dress is a gacha item, and this is a rare patterned version of the Grimina Grunge Dolly Dresses. The antlers however are my favourite items! They are Devilish Deer Teddy Hunter Horns, and although I chose the deer version there are demon and unicorn versions available too! Both of these items are available now at the Horror Haute location from {MOEKO}, and if this is what they are offering up for this month, I cannot wait to see what more comes from this store!! It's so exciting to find somewhere new that you like!!
The rest of the look I kept fairly simple, not wanting to distract from the dress... A cute Ring Collar from tapi, and my SpellBound wig held back by a pretty hairband... All in the cause of asking the gods for rain, whilst doing a rain dance, to cleanse myself of teddybear blood!  

What is she wearing;
Antlers: {MOEKO} - Devilish Deer Teddy Hunter Horns (Available Now at Horror Haute July)
Hair: SpellBound - Muse in Prints (Past Arcade Release)
Skin: Glam Affair - Lauren in America 07 (Past Collabor88 Item)
Eyelids: SLINK - Mesh Lids and Lashes
Face Wounds: Utopiah - Excessive Pain Makeup
Blood: Ama - Blood Splatter
Collar: tapi - Ring Collar
Dress: {MOEKO} - Grimina Grunge Dolly Dress in Patch Monochrome RARE (Available Now at Horror Haute July)
Pose: Signature Pose - Aron 1

I miss you guys...

HELLO SL I WAS HERE TODAY... Sometimes having a megaphone makes you feel strong, maybe that's just me but today was one of those days when everyone had gone to work in RL and I was left at home to fend for myself hehe... At least for a few hours... 
So I logged into SL, went shopping to grab myself things that I might have missed otherwise and sent a HUGE hello to the people that I am missing whilst I am in RL... It seems strange that even when you go on holiday the people you leave behind in SL are very much missed... 

So I send a HUGE shout out to everyone that I know and love in SL... The people I speak to every day, those I miss more than anything, and the people I work with in SL because without you it's not the same... 
The photo I am sharing today is one that I had made before I left for the UK, as all my photos are at the moment. It features a cute but smart outfit that had been a past Fi*Friday release from Bens Boutique, as well as the awesome megaphone I had to use hehe... 
By the way... In case you didn't realise, I miss you all!!!

What is she wearing;
Hair: Catwa - WokeUp 
Skin: Glam Affair - Lauren in America 07 (Past Collabor88 Item) 
Eye Make-Up: Corvus - Evil Eye Makeup 
Face Wounds: Utopiah - Excessive Pain Makeup 
Nose Piercing: DirtyStories - Heart Nose Piercing (Past Suicide Dollz Item) 
Collar: tapi - Moo Collar 
Outfit: Bens Boutique - Evelyn Outfit in White-Gray (Past Fi*Friday Release) 
Name Tag: .DirtyStories. - NameTag (Past Suicide Dollz Release) 
Bracelets: Kibitz - Chara bangles in Silver (Past Fantasy Collective Release) 
Shoes: N-Core - SHAE in Black 
Pose: Signature Pose - Be My Valentine 

I Doo Voodoo...

It's a perfectly dark, and mysterious lifestyle to fit perfectly into the Horror Haute event theme, although this isn't always the case and there can be lighter forms of voodoo too...
I mean OK I don't know a lot about Voodoo - other than what Disney's Princess and the Frog, and the Godsmack Voodoo song tell me, which to be frank isn't all that much LOL - but there is such a wealth of information on the internet - some of it more reliable than others - I guess I should do some research before launching into the ramble about Horror Haute's theme this month huh?!
Apparently - and it's lesson time with Rudh lol - Voodoo comes in 4 slightly different forms depending on your location, but it seems that one which is most well known would be the Louisana Voodoo...  It's the one I have associated my Horror Haute stylings with, its the one in which it is believed that Voodoo Dolls originated and as it is Louisiana the swamp vibe I have going on totally fits...
End of lesson for today... Let's talk about HORROR HAUTE MAY!!!

I took a little break to relax in my tree in the swamp whilst I was working on the Voodoo me and thought wow this would work for what I wanted in a photo...
My voodoo look was made up of a layering of skin from [Stargazer Creations], with tattoos from [Gauze], a face and neck tattoo laid over the top from Ama and then a smearing of red lipstick too...
The rest of my outfit and props are items for the Horror Haute this month... The dress and pin jewellery that I am wearing is from Brick-A-Brack, and the props - including the flag, staff and skulls are all releases from Lilith's Den. I'm even smoking a Facepalm Cigar that I stole from the Son of Samdedi!!!
I have my doll out ready though, so who shall I play with for a while, whilst I sort out my next look... OH HELLBONE!?!

What is she wearing;
Hair: Magika - Friday
Skin: [Stargazer Creations] - Plagued Skin (Past Horror Haute Release)
Black Eye Make-Up: Gothica - Lost Souls Face Tattoo
Eyes: Laudanum Lollipops - Death's Stare (Past Horror Haute Release)
Face Tattoo: Ama - Twisted Soul Eater in Turquoise
Lipstick: [Stargazer Creations]  - Lip Set in Red Pentagram 3
Dress & Pins: Brick-A-Brack - Voodoo Doll (Available Now for Horror Haute May)
Tattoo: [Gauze] - Idra Tattoo in Cauldron
Bracelets: tapi - Hammered Blanc Cuff
Cigar: Facepalm - Cigar (Included in the Son of Samdedi Outfit) (Available Now for Horror Haute May)
Pose: Signature Pose - The Von Schnitzel Series 2
Flag, Staff & Skulls: Lilith's Den - Voodoo (Veve, Staff and Skull Stands) (Available Now for Horror Haute May)
Doll: No Longer Available!

The 90's had the Spice Girls...

Now my sister Lilian and I are proving that the 21st century predictions were all true... 2015 is the year that we're able to explore in space - provided that we are wearing the obligatory space suits - and so the 90's may have had the Spice Girls, the year 2015 has the Space Girls LOL... So long as we don't see any aliens, we will be fine, otherwise Lil will have to handle them on her own as I run away!!

The inspiration behind the space girl look came about because of these very risque, very sheer and so very sexy latex body suits - with their matching boots - from r2. As soon as we saw these at Collabor88 this month, Lil and I had to have them... Me chosing Black - no surprise there - and Lil chose a vibrant metallic silver colour, she decided to match me on the dark make-up look too, which makes me think no matter what we'd win a war in space! Any male opponent would fall to his knees at the sight of the pair of us... Surely?! Failing that I am sure we'd be able to get any of those lonely astronauts to go weak at the knees - if a lack of gravity hadn't done that already hehe... If you're a lonely astronaut and feel brave enough maybe you should come find us at the Larisa Incident Sim!

During our explorations, Lil and I landed on the Moon to take a walk around and check out the Moonbase as well as the Moon's Surface... Now I know, I know I don't have a helmet on, well being a Space Girl gives me special powers LOL... I don't need one!! Or at least that's what I'm telling people, and it's my story LOL...
Just for interests sake by the way, I decided to keep my hair short in this older style by Truth, I pulled on a studded bracelet from tapi and even had myself tattooed with this dark spiderweb print from White Widow... All older items in my hoard but they just looked so awesome with my space look, I couldn't bring myself to change out of them hehe...
Today I am also going to do a little showcase of someone else's talents... Lilian Howley, my darling sister, has recently decided to open a photography studio, so it's time for some promotion...

Lily like me was a bit unsure of her talents, but I know that when I see her photos I am in awe... She does no post editing, and only uses windlights to capture her gorgeous photos. You should DEFINITELY check her out!! She's on Flickr, you have no excuse now... Go check out Lilian Howley on Flickr... Do it now... Or the Space Girls will come and get you lol...

What is she wearing;
Hair: Truth - Nova
Skin: Glam Affair - Lauren in America 07 (Past Collabor88 Item)
Eye Make-Up: Corvus - "Gone Mad" Face Tattoo
Face Wounds: Utopiah - Excessive Pain Makeup
Nose Piercing: DirtyStories - Heart Nose Piercing (Past Suicide Dollz Item)
Lip Piercing: Cute Poison - Wounded Piercing
Tattoo: [White~Widow] - Spider (Past Event Release)
Outfit & Boots: r2 - Rikka in Black [A] (Available Now at Collabor88)
Bracelet: tapi - nailed stud wristcuff
Pic 1 (With Lil): Image Essentials - Women's Stand 33 (Past Event Release)
Pic 2 (Solo): Image Essentials - Playmate 5

Mirror, Mirror, Take Control...

Mirror, Mirror, Take control, Of my Living Dead Girl Soul...

Pageant winner as you see, Have your evil way with me...

Mists within you have the power, In the darkest, haunting hour...

I am yours now, Heart and soul, Mirror Mirror, Take Control.

I got randomly creative with this one... I think it was a mixture of the prop, the costume and the Halloween feeling in the air! I also got a little saucy with it... Sorry if it offends anyone, but I wanted to use that spirit in the mirror in a depraved kind of way, and make it seem like it had taken control of the dead beauty pageant winner that had arisen from her slumber!
The mirror and its heap of skulls is a creation from ImmateriA. It had been given up as a hunt prize within the Gator Maze, but the hunt is now over and all of the prizes will be returned to their designer owners! Thank you to those people that donated gifts for the hunt, we hope that you had some interest from new shoppers!
The outfit was one of my "costumes" - although I wore it just because I liked it hehe - but it did cause a bit of a stir, as well I was mostly naked!
The most obvious part of this look has to be the wounding! I mean you really cannot miss the fact that I have been cut up and my skin has been removed in large chunks! Thanks to F'N'HawT and it's weird sense of Skin Deep Fashion, The Beauty Pageant - running until November 1st - will never be the same again LOL... The Zombie Queen Sash was a prize worthy of a winner, from the store STATIC... To finish the look I added a pair of specially made Collabor88 Prudence Pumps from Noodles... These skin pumps are perfect for walking the stage and wowing the Zombie judges!!! 

What is she wearing;
Tiara: Canimal - Boneyard Voodoo Tiara (No Longer Available!)
Hair: Magika - Mint
Skin: Glam Affair - Candy Skin in America 09 (Past Arcade Item)
Eyes: Insufferable Dastard - Zombie Eyes
Face Wounds: (Under the Eyes) Utopiah - Excessive Pain Makeup, AND,  (Forehead) REPULSE - Lobotomy Stitches Face Tattoo
Piercing: Cute Poison - Starlust Piercings
Sash: STATIC - Zombie Queen Sash (Available now at The Beauty Pageant) 
Body Wounds: F'N'HawT - Skin Deep Fashion  (Available now at The Beauty Pageant)
Bracelet & Ankle Cuff: tapi - Nailed Punk
Shoes: Noodles - Prudence Pumps in Bloody (Available now at Collabor88) (Worn with SLINK High Feet) 
Mirror: ImmateriA - Welcoming Death
Pose: Image Essentials - Playmate 7m

Death Takes Me Away... A Berry Meme!

TIME FOR A BERRY MEME YAY!!!! Berry has stopped with the regular Monday Memes, can't say I blame her to be honest, they must have been hard work creating something like that every week, but she has promised that occasionally there will be a Meme pop up randomly and we can join in when they do! To be honest, that seems kinda exciting hehe, we never know what we will get or when one will happen hehe...
This time though things got a little morbid... That's not a problem with me, if you ever read my blog you will possibly have realised just how morbid I am at times hehe, but it's Berry's Birthday week, so some might think it's a little strange LOL!

Death look for me is normal LOL, I always say Rudh is like a Living Dead Girl - Thank you Mr. Zombie for giving her a theme song for her identity LOL - but when you have to make a look to fit a Meme, I tend to think ARGH what am I going to do, and even for a normal look for me I had this problem!?! Weird huh?! 
I pulled on some new, with some old and let myself die, all in the name of working on a Berry Meme hehe... 
Berry gave us a list of questions, as she sometimes does to go with a Meme... Let's answer those, shall we?!
Do you ever think about dying? How do you expect you’ll die? To be honest, although I live my SL as a zombie almost, I don't really ever think about dying in RL. It seems weird to think about it now, but I would prefer to be one of those people that died in my sleep. I know it will be hard for those left behind but I would rather that than something which caused them more pain than my passing alone, ya know?!
Do you believe in an afterlife? If so, how do you visualize it? I don't mind saying here that I am a non-religious person. I wouldn't say I am an Atheist as there are things that I believe in, a possible afterlife being one of them, but not the Heaven and Hell ideology. I'd like to think that my soul will continue on after my body dies, I've learnt so much for it to go to waste hehe...
What is your preferred form of apocalypse and why? I think if the world was going to end in an apocalyptic way it would have to be something that seemed really impossible. I mean OK I know Zombies aren't real, but you see them everywhere - in TV, film, stories, you name it - so maybe something totally random like a teddy bear apocalypse - a zombie teddy bear apocalypse - or a giant cookie apocalypse! That sounds like fun, right?!
How many times have you cheated death so far? Ummm, touching wood here, I don't think there is any occasion when I can say I have had to cheat death.
Which fictional villain would you be okay being killed by? First off, Berry, if Thor comes to save you - especially the Chris Hemsworth Thor - can I have him next? As for the fictional villain I'd be OK to be killed by Maleficent maybe, I always thought she was the scariest Disney Villain. However, if we were going to be saved from the villain, I'd also be willing to risk myself for any of the Supernatural Villains... Sam Winchester can save me ANYTIME!
If you’re murdered, do you stay and haunt the culprits forever or do you give up that opportunity to leave and go to heaven/hell/Cancun? It would depend on who I was allowed to haunt. I might stay by HellBone, not because I'd never want to leave him, but it would be fun to mess with his mind a little bit LOL... 
Will you have done everything you have wanted by the time you die? To be totally honest, I don't want to have... I want to die without knowing it's coming so that I won't even have the chance to think what didn't I do?! I take each day as it comes and try everything life throws at me... Least that way I can't say I wish I had done that when I had the chance!

Sounds so morbid, but it really gave me a chance to think while I was answering these! Next time you set up a Meme though Berry, how about something silly and frivolous?! LOL

What is she wearing;
Hair & Gasmask: Truth - Rogue (Past Uber Item) 
Skin: Glam Affair - Candy Skin in America 09 (Past Arcade Item) 
Bolts: 7mad;Ravens - Dead Bolt (Available now at Suicide Dollz) 
Eyes: REPULSE - Rotten Eyes 
Face Wounds: (Under the Eyes) Utopiah - Excessive Pain Makeup, (Bruises) Corvus - Beaten Up Face Tattoo, AND,  (Forehead) REPULSE - Lobotomy Stitches Face Tattoo 
Piercing: Cute Poison - Starlust Piercing (Current Group Gift) 
Collar: tapi - Plain Choke Collar (Available now at Jewelry Fair 2014) 
Necklace: Cute Poison - Outland Necklace (Available now at Jewelry Fair 2014) 
Top: R3volt - Elianna Top 
Bracelets: (Left & ANKLETS) tapi - Nailed Punk Wristcuff (Available now at Jewelry Fair 2014), AND, (Right) Cute Poison - Eruli Bracelet in Black (Available now at Depraved Nation Thrift Shop) 
Pants: R3volt - Niamh Leggings (Worn with SLINK Feet)
Pose: (Sofa) [dgaf] - Snow White's Poison Apple (No Longer Available!), AND, (Close-up) PRETENSE - My Hand Obsession 5 (Past My SLINK Obsession Item)