Bang Bang!

I wonder sometimes when I watch movies, especially the action kind, would I prefer to be on the side of the hero or the villain. When I was a little girl - and I'll not hide that it is still true now I'm a big girl too - I was always on the side of the hero, especially in the case of the Disney films that I chose. For example, I LOVE the Little Mermaid, and when I was a kid I wanted to be Ariel, now that I'm an old lady I feel more aligned with Ursula... So perhaps when I grew up I was destined to feel more like I'm hiding a villain deep inside, although plenty of people will tell you I'm a good girl... 

So I don't know about you but when I start working on a blog post I NEVER know where I'm going to bewhen I finish it. Ideas never seem to come easy and when they do form it's like magic... I'm not as creative as some people, and I'm not as able to creative such high quantities of blog posts as I'd like but to think that what I do makes others smile as much as they do me...
Today's post randomly came to me when I was thinking about things to do with Villains... I pulled on a look and for some reason I ended up with a weird Gotham style feeling... Maybe I'll make a Batman adversary, maybe I'll be able to be in league with the Joker... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Cherie FLF Ed. Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - Ouhlala Glasses (Available from January 14 - February 8th at OUH LALA)
Earrings: CUREMORE  - AsylumVillains in Bang Earrings
Top & Corset Set: AsteroidBox - Fran Sweater& Corset (Available until February 5th at Equal10)
Dynamite: [Krescendo] - Bomb Clock in Red
Gun: CUREMORE  - AsylumVillains in  Jester's Surprise Revolver
Skirt & Stockings: AsteroidBox - Bobby Skirt (Available until February 8th at ACCESS)
Pose: Secret Poses - Detective, Pose 5
Helicopter: H&C - Helicopter Crashed
Fires: Razor Bird - Scavenger's Camp Fire
Lights: H&C - Spotlight
Backdrop: The Bearded Guy - Horny Cravings in La Terraza

Asking for my Fortune

At the start of every year, people always seem to be asking me whether or not I've made any new years resolutions. Some years I try to, and others I tend not, but then this year I HAVE made one and it's a very loosely set one. It could be interpreted in lots of different ways, and I'm quite happy to keep it open and flexible... I'm going to put more faith in the fortune telling machines than any resolutions though... 

The Fortune Teller - a release from Krescendo for the still running round of The Fifty until January 20th - may not give me the yearly resolution that I could work towards but their fortunate suggestions are just ambiguous enough that maybe they will help me out, a little?!

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Felina FLF Ed. Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Outfit: miss chelsea - Saba Set in Dress
Pose: FOXCITY - Street Style, Pose 6
Machine: [Krescendo] - Fortune Teller in Black (Available until January 20th at The Fifty)
Cards: DISORDERLY. - FLIGHT OF THE TAROT in CUPS
Sparkles, Smoke & Flames: Cole's Corner - Glitterati & Starstuff, THIS IS WRONG - Infernal smoke in PINK, CURELESS[+] - Sororis Obscura Gacha Item in Profane Invocation HELLFIRE & kotte - cloudy in clouds mist
Hanging Crystals & Curtains: NOMAD - Velvet Nocturne (Available until February 6th at Collabor88)
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Midnight Conservatory {360} Backdrop

A Little Spiritual Magic

I still feel the need for a little magic and since the Angel sacrifice helped to stop the snow and melt away what snow there was, I heard things about weather warnings and so I NEED MORE Magical interferrance so that the snow stays away and that I can get to and from work safely for the next few days... 
I'm going to reach out to some of the other spirits and see if I can get a little more help... 

The Spirit that I have found today happens to be a Soul Spirit and they have a lot more influence on the world around them than you might think... The Mask Soul worn on her face - is a mask from BeSpoke - hides the way she's really feeling but her magic is all-encompassing. She can work her magic to help everything from luck, love and in my case, even the weather... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Tableau Vivant - Editorial in Laying Funky
Mask: BeSpoke - Mask Soul in Wisp
Tears: CURELESS [+] - Dragon Tears & LaGyo - Matilda Crystal Tears
Body Layer: [Faunus] - Flame in Blue
Chest Tattoo: Nefekalum Tattoos - Enchanted
Bodysuit: [Faunus]- Skadi Jumpsuit
Wings: Doe - Flame Wings & Doe - Crystalline Wings in Fairy Friends
Crystal Orbs & Halo: HAZEL - MAGIC CRYSTALS
Magical Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Glitterati & Starstuff, CURELESS[+] - Sororis Obscura Gacha Item in Profane Invocation HELLFIRE & Quills & Curiosities - Voltaic
Pose: [piXit] - Citrouille, Pose F4R
Backdrop: K&S - // End of story..? Backdrop

Angellic Sacrifice

So today I had to have the day off for a Snow Day, the busses couldn't run and tomorrow I'll be home again which is giving me a chance to feel a little more rested and lot less nervous. Though I will say that the thought of going out in the snow instantly causes my anxiety to appear and I start feeling a little sick on the inside... Friday I have to go to work, Friday is a whole day away, while I have the day at home, I am going to spend the day hoping beyond all hope that the snow clears up so that it's NOT slippery on Friday... 

I don't know if the weather spirits will be able to help but I think that maybe I'll have to find a way to ask those in a higher power... No matter which of the dark gods is there and willing to help, I'll take any help... I'll leave them any kind of gift that they want, I'll sacrifice the Angels so that I can make it into work safely without slipping on Friday and Saturday... I can't not go to work again, I'm letting other people down and I HATE that, and on top of the feelings I am already dealing with, the thought of going out where it's slippery is just the knock my anxiety needs... SO, lets summon the dark gods and light the candles, as a Wax Witch - which happens to be the name of the candles worn on Rudh's shoulders from Static, available until January 18th at The Warehouse - has chained an angel into their magical ring and now we wait... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Magika - Selene Hair
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Collar & Chains: random.Matter - Neze Collar & Chains
Candles: Static - Wax Witch (Available until January 18th at The Warehouse)
Wings: Doe - Romantic Wings in Black White Red
Back Piercing: Six Feet Under - Chained Obsession
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Glitterati
Pose: FOXCITY - Fuego, Pose 1m
Circle: Tentacle Experiment - Summon Circle in Rainbow
Books: random.Matter - The Summoning in Demon Book, Dots - Spellbook in Poison & dust bunny - Beach Day in Breezy Book
Candles: Botanical - Candle Scatter
Candle Sticks: BALACLAVA!! - Candelabra
Candlabras: hive - Floor Candelabra in Wrought Iron
Pose: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Birth of Venus

Work Out Treats!

Today I was back to working... I want to say working out but actually it was just work plain and simple... I mean it WAS a nightmare to get to work, and involved a lot of me being overly cautious about getting to work which in itself was a workout, yet working out in truth it was not... AND when I did get to work, I allowed myself to have a happy, little treat... 

I have never been one for working out, I have always been good at doing things to keep myself busy but as for doing exercises I'm useless at it... The only time I'd do any stretches would be to reach out for something delicious to eat. 
Rudh has the right idea, going for a work out in her Home Gym - which happens to be a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - and while she's doing her exercises, she has to practice her balance as she reaches into her Donut Bag - from Junk Food - and grad herself more than one of the sweet, iced treats... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: [monso] - Aina Hair in Black & Red
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory|
Top: miss chelsea - Ciri Set in Cardi
Pants: miss chelsea - Ciri Set in Pants
Shoes: miss chelsea - Emme Set in Sneakers
Pose & Weight: FOXCITY - Balance V2, Pose 1
Doughnuts & Bag: Junk Food - Donut Bag & Coffee in PINK BAG
Balls: dust bunny - Cedar Retreat in Exercise Ball in Yellow & lmndrp - Exercise Ball in Blue
Half Ball: Promagic - Workout-Bosu Ball in Blue
Wall Weights: ionic - Time to exercise!
Yoga Mats: CHEZ MOI - Mandala Mat Holder
Backdrop: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - Home Gym {360} Light Backdrop

Decorations Don't Go Quietly!

It's that most yucky of days after the Christmas festivities in my house today... I'm not sure if it's today or tomorrow that it's traditional to take down Christmas decorations but in our house, we took the decor down today. I was not looking forward to it, but it has been done, everything is ready to be stashed away again and things look dark and empty... 

It makes me laugh how we use the same things over and over and over again, I'm not one of those people that wants a pristine or chic looking Christmas tree, I LOVE it when things are colourful and mismatched and traditions that remain the same every year... I know, especially in times like this, I want things to be cozy and comforting... I dislike this darkness that has decended in my living room today... It's only going to get emptier as we prepare the house for our moving date... 
While stuffing things in to the old chests in the Attic, I made a little discovery... One of the Gingerbread men that had appeared in many of my posts over the festive period was REALLY not ready to return to his Spring/Summer/Autumn sleep, he got angry and tried to Choke Me Out - he's a festive release from Tardfish that I HOPE will still be available in the mainstore but let me know if I'm wrong please! - and well since he wanted to stay awake I'll just have to take his place for a long nap in a cosy old trunk... 

What is she wearing;
Hat: Mug - Santa Baby Gacha Item in #4 Santa Hat Red
Hair: Wasabi - Zyra Hair in Offbeat
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Boa: Mug - Santa Baby Gacha Item in #2 Christmas Boa RARE
Friend: Tardfish - Choke Me Out Ginge
Top: everfaery - Gia Set in Top
Socks: everfaery - Gia Set in Stockings
Pose & Chest Prop: [piXit] - Forgotten Joy, Pose F1
Christmas Decorations: 
    Boxes: DRD - The Last Christmas Shop in Old Ornaments
    Tinsel: DRD - The Last Christmas Shop in Garland Pile
    Bauble Crates: [Canape] - Christmas Tote w/Ornaments in Green 
    Boxed Christmas Tree: DRD - The Last Christmas Shop in Tree In A Box 
    Broken Ornaments: Violetility - Broken Ornaments
    Light Tangle: DRD - Christmas Lights in FUCK IT
    Ornament Organiser: [Canape] - Ornaments Storage Case in Red
    Wrapping Paper: DRD - The Last Christmas Shop in Wrapping Paper
Backdrop: blaink - Last Day of ...

A Moment To Pause...

Home after a very short trip to see my parents in the UK over New Years... Every time I come back it always feels like it was never long enough and I feel totally and utterly empty at the moment. I miss my family and the homesickness never seems to get any easier, but I guess on that note I should warn you... This is my first pensive post of the year, it won't be all fun and games as I have a lot of rambling thoughts to share. If you're not wanting to read all that, I understand, but enjoy the picture and the credits at the bottom of my ramble... Otherwise read on... 

I'm home again, back in my little house on Gingerbread Lane - in this case a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - and while Hell is unloading the car, I'm going to take a moment to sit and talk with you over a nice cup of coffee from my cozy Thermos Flask - from andika, available until January 27th at Anthem - and I don't know why but being the snow feels peaceful right now... 
As I've been hinting lately, there will be a LOT of things happening this year and my mind is totally distracted and crazed and not in a very happy place right now... If you asked me about any resolutions for this year, I'd tell you that I simply want to get through the year with everything going smoothly, everyone around me being happy, and all the troubles passing by in the blink of a eye... 
HellBone and I have a MASSIVE undertaking starting in February. Per Dutch Law, our house is in need of some major rennovations. We have to move out for 6 months, and although we're lucky in that the cheese company I work for is able to provide me temporary accomodations for that time, I'm MOVING and we have to clear out the ENTIRE GROUND FLOOR of our house... There is SO MUCH to do and I'm stressing about that... Packing, organising, tidying, cleaning, travelling back and forward to our new location to get things sorted, I need a break already and we haven't even started... 
On another note, there is illness in my family and it makes me worry even more... My grandmother is 93 and suffering with demensia, she also cannot get herself out of bed anymore without the help of a nurse. My grandfather is trying but it's a stress on him, yet he's too stubborn to let anyone else help, and it's causing fights with others in the family. Then there is my Mum... In October, my mum was diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer. It's not going to be viable to surgically remove the cancer, so she is going to be undergoing intensive chemo for the next few months. At the moment it's all a case of wait and see what is happening and how things will go, I'm remaining strong for her but behind closed doors I'm broken and crying and STILL trying to focus on the move just to stop myself jumping back on a plane to see my mummy again... 
I'm not in a good place, this year has just started and I'm going to need all the luck I can get. Please bear with me if I start getting upset or my blogging is erratic... If you need support or love or someone to listen, I'll always be here, just remember I care even if I'm not doing well. Keep everything crossed for my mum, for my grandma and for my sanity... I already can't wait for 2026 to be done... OH AND on top of all that, this year I TURN 40!!! Bring it on 2026... 

What is she wearing;
Hat & Hair: Wasabi - Butterscotch Winter Ed. Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Shirt: miss chelsea - Fira Set in Shirt (Available until January 27th at Anthem)
Top: miss chelsea - Fira Set in Tank (Available until January 27th at Anthem)
Shorts & Tights: miss chelsea - Fira Set in Shorts (Available until January 27th at Anthem)
Thermos & Cup: andika - {Quiet Calls} Dispenser Set (Available until January 27th at Anthem)
Pose: -Extra- - Brewed Bliss, Pose 2
Truck: Pitaya & Tropix - Harvest truck in GREEN
Wreath: vespertine - Classic Felt Christmas Wreath
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Gingerbread Lane{360} Backdrop