Missing You

I know sometimes I'm random and I'm a bit of a rollercoaster of emotions, but I made a RL mistrake today and it's hurt me and I feel a need to get it out and talk to someone. I don't wanna burden my hubby with it, and my family and friends are all busy so why not vent here and let it out this way, maybe someone out there can relate... 
It's getting closer to Christmas... This Christmas will be my first without my puppy Izzy, and even though we lost her in February, I caught myself about to buy her something as a gift for Christmas this morning...

I know it seems like a silly thing, I was buying a gift for my kitty... Anna has become so used tobeing the Queen of the house, but I spotted something so adorable for the puppy that I ALMOST bought it before I remembered that Izzy will be eating her Christmas Turkey with other pets from my past... It brought a tear to my eyes, and I fought hard not to let the hubby see...
Needed to find a way to get it out of my system. I miss her so much, and even though there is NO PLAN to get a new Dog anytime soon - I love the freedom that I have without her being here - I can't stop myself from missing her... I had to find somewhere peaceful, to curl up with a cool drink and my memories, I needed to think of her and have a good cry to get over things... 

What is she wearing;
Horns: Tentacio - Bad Girl Horns
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Chestnut in Redhead
Eyes: Izzie's - Lua Eyes (Teary Eyes) RARE
Eye Make-Up: Izzie's - Smeared Mascara & Little Tears
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Necklace: Kibitz - Maze's Chains in Silver
Top: PSYCHO:Byts - Lisbeth Top
Arm Cuff: Garmonbozia - Barbed Bangles VAR 3 (Available until December 11th at Man Cave)
Bracelets: Kibitz - Baela's Bracelet in Silver
Drink: Boutique#187 - Barrel Drink (Available until December 11th at Man Cave)
Skirt: Mug - Jinx Skirt in Red
Tights: Psycho Barbie - [High Waisted Ripped Stockings]
Boots: Phedora - Terrormaw Unisex Stomps
Pose: Secret Poses - Painting, Pose 2
Dog: JIAN - Boxer Bedlam in Ghost Adult Wanderer
Backdrop: PALETO.Backdrop - SANCTIFIED

A Picky Tea for Dinner

It's dinner time... What do I want for dinner?? I'm not really sure, and on days like today I tend to go with a very British option... In the UK when I was growing up, we referred to this dinner as Picky Bits. It tended to be something I made with my sister when mum and dad were away, and now it comes under many guises... Picky Bits, British Tapas, a Picky Tea or the more straight to the point "We-need-to-get-everything-out-of-the-freezer-because-it-needs-defrosting" dinner... Today let me help educate you about the Picky Tea... 

I am not really the best for making a good description of the Picky Tea, I'll pass you over to someone on Social Media, Star Holroyd and her brilliant video on TikTok for the best description...
Roughly though, a Picky Tea is about 80% Beige Foods, 15% Posh Veggies - which works out to be any salad veg that has had some kind of cutting done to it therefore making it "posh" and the last 5% is made up of things that make no real sense with the rest of the foods on the table, has been stuffed in the back of the fridge and will invariably be put back into the cupboard without being touched... But likeI said, listen to Star, she explains things better hehe... 
80% Beige Food, 15-20% Posh Food "Any salad veg that have been sliced, therefore made "posh"", 5% makes no sense to the rest but has been hiding in the cupboard for over a year that is gotten out in the hopes that someone will eat it, although it is invariably put back into the cupboard to wait a little longer... 
For my SL Picky Tea I've gone all out... I have Steak Fajitas with Salsa and Guac, I got a special Thanksgiving Pizza and Bacon Wrapped Jalapeno Poppers. There's fresh veggies and Texas Rolls and cheese, and I even found some tins of fish AND some Aunt Bessie's Yorkshire Puds in the freezer. 

What is in the photo:
Veggies: Junk Food - Veggie Trays
Cheese: dust bunny - Summer Picnic in Cheese Wheel
Rolls & Butter: Junk Food - Texas Rolls
Caviar: Fancy Decor - Open Caviar Tin in Orange
Sardines: KittyRey 3D Lab - Canned Sardines
Jalapenos: Lucas Lameth - Bacon Jalapeno Poppers
Chips: random.Matter - Nostalgic Nights in Crisps
Pizza: Junk Food - Thanksgiving Pizza
Fajitas, Guacamole, Salsa & Tortillas: Junk Food - Steak Fajitas
Olives: Katy's Kreations - Six Olive Bowls
Yorkshire Puddings: Stockholm&Lima - Yorkshire Pudding
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Sotto Cafe {360} Backdrop

Make New Friends

It's already nearing the end of November and that means before very long Christmas will start and things will go bonkers... I have so much to do, I want to get myself some new Christmas decorations and may even go out into nature and collect some wild winter foliage for decor... I'll head out into the wild and make a day of it... 

I'd made myself a little camp on the edge of the woods, just over the bridge in the Snowfall Crossing - a backdrop by Synnergy.Tavis - and after spending a few hours collecting foliage to use as decor, I curled up in a pile of blankets on rugs laid in the snow to hide away for a tea break... 
While I was making the tea, I must have passed out a little, when I woke up I had some new friends that had decided my camp looked like a nice warm plae for a nap... Fox Friends came for pets, and Lil Bear Cubs were making themselves at home - both of these sets of animals are from Aardvark, the bears are currently available at TMD and the foxes are at the current round of ACCESS - whilst the cute little bunnies took over my scarf... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Wasabi - Chili Winter Ed. Hair in Absolute Pack
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Top: everfaery - Eli Cropped Long Sleeve
Overalls: BUENO -  Nini Overalls in Blues
Blanket: hive - Bundle Up in Darks
Pose: Fashiowl - Spooky, Pose 9
Foxes: Aardvark - Fox Friends (Available until December 8th at ACCESS)
Bears: Aardvark - Lil Bear Cubs (Available until November 30th at TMD)
Bunnies: Half-Deer - Warm & Fuzzy in Snuggle Bunnies Choco
Crates: Pitaya - Early winter decor in Box Dark wood (Available December 10th at Kustom9)
Pillows: 8f8 - Snuggled In  in Curled Under RARE
Rugs: Trompe Loeil - Teigen Glamping Tent Rugs PG
Fire: Nerenzo - Awesome Campfire Fire
Kettle: Foxes - Travelling Heart Gacha Item in Campfire Dark
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Snowfall Crossing {360} Backdrop 

Wolves on a Full Moon

November 15th is a Full Moon, and it is the last super moon of the year... Apparently it's a Beaver Moon, though I'm not sure what that's about and why... Maybe someone knows something somewhere, perhaps Google knows...
Unfortunately that makes people go crazy, NOT that I need any excuse to be a little random because that's exactly what I feel most of the time... For some reason I ended up thinking of a werewolf on the full moon and well... One random thing lead to another... 

Only in this case the cow wasn't the one jumping over the moon, the werewolf was living her best Ceres era... It's a time in a young werewolf's life when the change makes them extra springy - and it's something that I just totally made up because I can lol - but during this little werewolf's Ceres Era - thanks to the amazing Jeans, Waist Sweater, Shoes and Socks created by The Kiwi Co, in collaboration with the Ceres Hairstyle by TRUTH - not only was she ready to jump, she was ready to fly over the moon... Crazy stunting through the skatepark and putting on a show for her puppy friends... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH - Ceres in Redhead
Face Paint:  MoonPhase - ClassicWereWolf FacePaint
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Upper Collar: random.Matter - Cermet Collar in Do Not Feed
Lower Collar: random.Matter - Wretched Collar
Top & Sweater: miss chelsea - Ashe Set in Sweater & Tank (Available until December 6th at Equal10)
Ears & Tail: aisling - Lubin in Cute (No Longer Available!)
Jeans: The Kiwi Co. - Ceres Set in Jeans
Waist Sweater: The Kiwi Co. - Ceres Set in Sweaters
Socks & Shoes: The Kiwi Co. - Ceres Set in Shoes & Socks
Pose & Board: Samia - Ella Skateboard in Mirror  Single  3
Puppies: MishMish - Baby Wolf Companions
Moon: BellEquipe Design Store - Moon Light
Backdrop: PALETO - Skate Park in Green

The Crazy Circus

I got through most of Halloween this year with very few clowns and although my Sammy Winchester hates them, there seems to be so many in my mind - and surrounding me in RL for that matter - so today when I'm having my mind off work and onto crazy boring things but as my mind was racing I ended up being surrounded by the clowns in my own personal crazy circus... 

The Crazy Circus is pouring straight out of my overly tired mind today, it's like someone has peeled back my scalp and the monster within is the ringmaster in my own personal crazy place... The clock is ticking until we can use that brilliant phrase once uttered by someone a little bit beetlejuicy - and a reason that I'm looking a little rotten tonight whilst still wearing my amazing new Suddenly Cardigan from my newest sponsor Garmonbozia at the current round of FaMESHed - for now I'm checking on the Unicorn Balloon Skele - the October group gift from Aardvark - in her cage and getting more than a little frustrated that one of those crazy idiot clowns left the gate open and released the Chained Up Buns - a new release from Tardfish for this month's Anthem... Wrangling bunnies was not what I had in mind... 
Let's turn on the lights for now, It's Showtime - lit by a sign from Krescendo at the new Black Fair - on with the show... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Doe - Brains
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Body Paint: [POUT!] - BeetleJuice  Make up & Tattoo & [Seydr] - Neck Paint in Beetlejuice
Earrings: (Left) Suicidal Unborn!- Disaster Earrings & (Right) Suicidal Unborn!- Safety Pin Earrings
Choker: Kibitz - Judge Me Choker in DEAD
Necklaces: Kibitz - Fuck off Necklace in Silver
Top: Garmonbozia - Suddenly cardigan PBR FATPACK (Available until November 27th at FaMESHed)
Pose: Fashiowl - Beltza, Pose 4
Bunnies: Tardfish - Chained Up Buns (Available until November 30th at Anthem)
Unicorn: Aardvark - Unicorn Balloon Animal Decor Skelly (Past Group Gift!)
Showtime Sign: [Krescendo] - Showtime Sign in Green (Available until November 24th at Black Fair)
Clowns: Remarkable Oblivion - Circus Rot Gacha Items (No Longer Available!)
Circus Decor & Backdrop: (Tent, Wheel & Sign) ANTINATURAL[+] - Carnival Freaks Gacha Items (No Longer Available!) & (Cage & Unicycle) MadPea - Cirque de Folie Gacha Items

Discovery of Lost Souls

It's November 11th today and whilst in the Netherlands it's considered a day similar to Halloween when kids knock for candy and sing a song - think a mixture between Halloween and Christmas carols LOL - for other places, the UK included, today is Rememberance Day... 
Although World War I was officially over before November 11th, the treaty was officially signed and sealed to come into effect on the 11th day of the 11th month at 11am, so it is customary - although parades tend to be held on the second Sunday of the month - to hold two minute silence at this time to pay respect, give thanks and remember those who lost their lives during war. The thought behind it took on a greater meaning after the end of WWII, and even now people who have lost their lives to protect our freedoms are remembered on this day more than any other... 

The fields of Flanders, where the battles took place and where the blood red poppies grow year on year, we wear poppies as a way to remember them... They shall not grow old, but we shall remember them... 
Even to this day the creatures of Natural Salvation - a set created by the amazing Faunus, that includes the Skulls, Body paint and Floral Attachments I'm wearing - are Ghouls - which coincidentally are the heads made by BeSpoke and can be found as the Ghoul Nyx heads - that stalk through Flanders Fields, to find and guide any lost souls seeking peace... 

What is she wearing;
Skulls, Body Paint & Flower Attachments: [Faunus] - Natural Salvation
Head: BeSpoke - Ghoul Nyx
Wings: Sweet Thing - Demon Wings
Pose: Secret Pose - Amber, Pose 3M
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Valkyrie
Tombstones: Candle & Cauldron - Worn Cemetery
Grave Marker: DRD - They Shall Not Grow Old
Poppies: [Dysfunctionality] - Spring Poppy Patches
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Cemetery

The Chains of a Demoness

Having to work so much and having so little time off is like a form of torture... Being an adult is a sucky feeling sometimes and I wish I could go back to when I was like 11 or 12 when life seemed simpler... 
Working all the time makes me feel stuck in a rut, like I'm trapped in a cage and have no hope of getting out of it. Sorry if that sounds depressing, and I guess in a way it is, but I needed to vent and isn't that kinda what my rambling space is for... Once again my mood has affected what I'm posting today, and it's definitely been improved by making something pretty... 

Demons were once little angels that have fallen into the darkness, and I'm definitely more of a demon than an angel... I am a good girl, but there are lots of little things that reveal the dark cracks in me... 
I like the dark little demonness inside often feel trapped, chained into the daily drudge of normal life. I'm in a job I love, if there weren't so many crazy people involved, I'm in a happy home where I feel I can be safe and relax, just a shame it's so far away from my family that I miss terribly... Things seem a bit difficult right now, but before long I'll be able to take some time out and spend some time in the UK, recharging my batteries... I need that to break free... 

What is she wearing;
Horns: Valentine - Hellfire Horns
Hair: Wasabi - Harlow Hair in Offbeat
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Collar, Garter & Bodychains: Static - Captive Chain
Pasties: Violetility - Lenore Pasties
Top: Six Feet Under - Agony Outfit (Available until December 1st at DisturbeD)
Wings: Doe - Ruin Wings
Hand Chains: HAZEL - SpellBound Chains
Body Lightning: Quills & Curiosities - Voltaic
Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Glitterati & everfaery - Starfield Aura
Pants: AsteroidBox - Ardella Pants in GrayStripes
Pose & Chain Props: PiXit - Unchained Melody, Pose 2
Fire: West Village - Atlas Fire Pit in Cast Iron
Candelabras: BackBone - Iron Candlelabra
Statues: DRD - Bloodcroft Castle in Immortal Statue
Skulls: Never Totally Dead - Decorative Skull (Past Gift)
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Melinoe's Throne Room {360} Backdrop