Battle for the Midnight Order

Everyone has the power to be strong, everyone has the power to find their inner warrior and charge across the battlements to seek victory against their foes, be those foes people, worries or stresses... 
Today I've had a bit of a shit day, I've been trapped in anxiety attacks and wanting to run away, over the bridge to find a place to hide... I feel like I'm heading into a battle with myself... 

I'm going to find a way to get myself through this battle with as few scars as possible. My mental health may be scarred for a while, but I think that I'll just have to let that take it's time... 
Going to battle in Second Life seems like so much more of an adventure... The killer look in my Haunted Eyes - a creation that's part of a set from HELLBOURNE available at Midnight Order - warns those that stand in my way. I pulled on gaulets and a Coif with a crown, like the queen that I am - wearing Static releases for the Order - and called upon my trusty Falcons preparing for battle... 

What is she wearing;
Head Accessory: Static - Order Crowned Coif (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Eyes: HELLBOURNE - Haunted Eyes in Empty (Available until February 20th at Midnight Order)
Fur: Foxes - Faux Fur Stole in Brown
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Gloves: Static - Order Gauntlets
Sword: Reve Obscura - Little Red Pose Prop
Top: Zenith - Leather Ranger Breastplate in Choco
Corset: [Etchaflesh] - Colorblind Nymh Underbust Corset
Birds: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - Falconer Holdable
Pose: Secret Poses - Owen, Pose 3M (Available until January 31st at The Men's Department)
Clouds: kotte - cloudy
Torches: DRD - Swamp Shack in High Torch
Backdrop: SYNNERGY.TAVIS - Dragon's Keep [360] Backdrop

Dark Magic Clan uses Blood Magic in their Cooking!!

Dark Magic... Something that I have recently thought of as that which shouldn't be dabbled in... I know a number of RL White Witches but saw first hand a reaction of one of my friends when she met someone that practised something darker, and boy was it an uncomfortable feeling... 
Yet it's the dark magic that always allures me... It's that dark magic which makes a girl feel powerful and devious, so when I'm lured to the dark side I tend to let myself go there freely - unless it's the Star Wars dark side then it's always under extreme duress LOL... 
Deep in a cave, Rudh has been welcomed as a high priestess into the Dark Magic Clan... An epic battle rages on between the Dark Magic and the Blood Magic, and it's going to be nasty, especially now we have a little of the Blood Magic's Magic!!! 

My mind can so easily go into over drive when I'm being creative it seems so it's not my fault that when I'm handed a set like this amazing Dark Magic Collection, my mind runs away with me... 
This amazing collection is a Fantasy Gacha Carnival release from the awesome Violetility. Everything you see here in this picture - Rudh excluded - is available in the gacha collection in both the Dark Magic - blue - and Blood Magic - red - versions... 
I had so much fun turning myself into a Dark Magic Mage... I wanted to be someone etherial looking, hence why I wear the flowers in my favourite new hairstyle from RunAway - at the current round of FaMESHed - and the loose body veil over the under bust corset... 
Before I disappear today though, I'm needed to work on this potion to attack our Blood Clan enemies, I do have one little confession... The "Staff" I'm holding is actually a lamp, and the pose I'm using is actually a NANTRA "I Protest" Sign Pose... I'll be showing the poses properly soon, but it just seemed to be the prefect pose to hold the lamp and make it look like I was using the Blood Magic in my spell cooking!!

What is she wearing;
Hair: RunAway - Samantha Hair in Essentials (Available until May 30th at FaMESHed) 
Hair Flowers: Ariskea - Flower Child Gacha Item in Babybreath Green Crown 
Skin: Glam Affair - Seya in Europa 2 
Veil: May's Soul - La Parca Camisk in White 
Corset: [Etchaflesh] - Colorblind Nymh Underbust Corset 
Pose: NANTRA - I Protest, Pose 1 (Available until May 31st at The Gacha Garden) 
Backdrop, Furniture & Props: Violetility - Magic Clans Gacha Items (Available until June 7th at The Fantasy Gacha Carnival) 

Branded As Yours!

Sometimes the bad girl side of my mind takes over and I find myself having kinkier thoughts than normal hehe... I'm naturally a fairly submissive person, even though you wouldn't necessarily believe me. Most people think that because I'm loud and crazy that I'm kidding when I say I'm submissive but that is mostly just a front, to hide the shy and insecure side of myself... I will admit that if I am wearing a collar, I can be a bit of a handful, but that has never been much of a problem for those holding the keys to my collar! 
Being marked with a collar, and even other things, was something that always used to make me feel good about myself... 

I haven't been truly active like this for a while, save for photography but sometimes the photographs help with subduing the kinky side of me... As do some of the SL Shopping events, ROMP for example! Now I know that Romp has come and gone recently, but whilst I was there I grabbed myself the cutest play toy from Ama and even though Romp has now closed, I can't resist sharing it with you! 
Cuffed with a ribbon - from [Fetch] - and wearing my leash down my back - a collar from MoDANNA - I was warmed by the fire. I say I was warmed but actually it was a dual purpose... Something else was also being warmed by the fire... Something that would mark me as a plaything, a Branding Iron - from Ama - with it's heart shaped brand was being prepared! 
I'd cry out as it scarred my skin, but that single moment and the after-care that followed would be something that I'd find both truly enjoyable and deeply meaningful... Once the scar is there, I'm going no where!! 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Magika - Clutter 
Skin: Glam Affair - Seya in Europa 2 
Collar: MoDANNA - Leash Chokers in Black 
Tattoo: [White Widow] - Chocolat in Black 
Corset: [Etchaflesh] - Colorblind Nymh Underbust Corset 
Binding: [Fetch] - Bow Cuffs 
Brand & Wound: Ama. : Heart Branding Iron and Marks 
Pose: Signature Pose - Kinda Shy 

Feeling Dead Leaving Home Behind!

I have that feeling of my first day home from England blues that I get every time I've been over visiting the family and I have to come back to Holland. It's not that I don't like Holland, I guess that even after 6 years of living there I still don't feel very at home... Everything still feels foreign and it's something that over long periods of time definitely wears me down.
I feel dead sometimes as I have to leave everything I grew up with behind... 

Dead but not so diseased looking as Rudh has been known to look I suppose... Sometimes it makes me feel good to make her look dead on the outside though lol - does that sound weird?
The wounds are some kind of plague from Suicide Gurls - available until May 24th at Kawaii Pon-Pon - and to try to cure the disease they have had to remove my nipples. One last thing to try and heal me is from the witch doctor that is (Yummy). The Witness Necklace was from a past round of We <3 RP, but the best cure seems to have been the Hardcore Pasties - from Mad' - La Boucherie, it was a harsh cure carving my nipples off but one that my MC sister Tila found which may have in fact worked! 

What is she wearing;
Hair: Truth - Kizzy in Reds
Skin: Glam Affair - Seya in Europa 2
Eyes: {PSYCHO.Byts} - Zombie Eyes
Face & Hand Wounds: Suicide Gurls - Creepy Ghidora Tattoo (Available until May 24th at Kawaii Pon-Pon)
Necklace: (Yummy) - Witness Necklace in White
Chest Wounds: Mad' - La Boucherie - Hardcore Pasties 
Corset: [Etchaflesh] - Colorblind Nymh Underbust Corset
Pose: Image Essentials - Feminine Touch 7

Supervillain Plot Spot

Staying where it's snowy at the moment, though I wandered away from Lil's and felt brave enough to go mountain climbing in the snow in heels LOL... The kind of stunt that would possibly make me famous in RL - famous for being crazy perhaps?! - but whilst I was wandering around I had a moment that made me feel like I was in another world, and I guess - though it's probably the dress - I felt like a bit of a standed supervillain plotting revenge from a desolate location.... The mountain of Furillen!

LOL, sometime's I have no idea how my mind can be such a random place! You think it sounds weird, try living in it LOL...
The reason for this crazy story is actually all due to the dress... This dress is a new release from adoness, for the current round of The Depraved Nation Thrift Shop, called Libitina. It comes in a handful of simple colours and then two multi-coloured designs, this being the Fantasy Blue version.
I wore it with some thigh high Leather Harlow Boots from Etchaflesh and then teased my hair into a Doe Lesli style - half up into a strange braid and the rest hanging long and curly - to finish that supervillain look and TADAAAAA I'm going to take over the world!!

What is she wearing;
Hair: Doe - Lesli Hair in Two-Tone Ginger
Skin: Glam Affair - Lauren in America 07
Dress: adoness - Libitina in Fantasy (Available Until November 29th at The Thrift Shop)
Boots: [Etchaflesh] - Leather Harlow Boots
Pose: Stand in my AO

Spoiling the Dark Master...

A Dark Master sits in the corner of the room, resting on his oversized leather and gold leafed throne, watching... His next victim walks across the silent room, heels clicking on the floor tiles, slow and uncertain as she draws nearer to the still as stone gentleman.
Nothing can make the eeriely motionless man move, even his breathing seems to have halted, and none of her usual tricks can wake him from this slumber.
There had to be a way, no man could resist the allure of a scantily clad woman...

I love this photo, and it was inspired by two things that are nothing to do with my look lol... At Christmas, Pinkie - of Signature Pose - sent out the gorgeous throne that you can see us posing all over. Now OK it was before Christmas, and it's a bit - or a lot - past that but there was no way that I could see myself posing like this with Santa! Something about my inner child stopped me, there was no way that was going to happen.
Then at the latest round of The Men's Department, a store called Mr.Poet, released the most amazing Napoleonic style overjacket with it's shirt, vest and cravate combo underneath... I pretty much fell in love with the set, just a shame I wasn't male LOL... I thought about people I knew, who would look good in it... ONE PERSON came to mind, and I wasn't let down!
One of my dearest friends, the original blue daemon, Mr Deangelo Urqhart proved that he is not only a fantastic model, but that he looks very delicious whilst rocking that Dark Master look... I really enjoyed spending a good deal of time just perving hehe... Maybe it took longer than it normally would to get just the right photo, but I LOVE the results I got hehe...

Just as a side note by the way, I know people might be wondering why the heck I am scantily clad all over a man that isn't my hubby... Well let me tell you straight... I am a bit of a sluttipops LOL...
Nah just kidding... I couldn't stop myself laughing as I typed that out.
HellBone was standing nearby whilst Dean parked his avatar on the chair and let me get on with it LOL, he didn't even look at what I was getting up to so I hope these photos don't come as too much of a shock LOL...
There are a few reasons why he isn't with me, his position within the MC community is one he worries about, his credibility as a store owner and designer too, plus he really cannot sit still for very long.... Dean on the other hand parked his avatar butt and then handled other business... So thank you to both of these men, Dean for letting me use his body and Hell for not giving a shit LOL...

What are they wearing;
Rudh:
Updo Hair: Magika - Mint
Loose Hair: Argrace - Akane
Skin: Glam Affair - Lauren in America 07 (Past Collabor88 Item)
Eyelids: SLINK - Mesh Lids and Lashes
Face Wounds: (Under the Eyes) Utopiah - Excessive Pain Makeup, AND, (Cheek) Fallen Doll - WickedFaceScar
Nose Piercing: DirtyStories - Heart Nose Piercing (Past Suicide Dollz Item)
Neck Wound: Corvus - Double Neck Cut
Lingerie: [Etchaflesh] - Concubine Lingerie Set
Leg Tattoos: UtopiaH - Bowy Tights Tattoo in Black
Shoes: fri. - Cora Heels in Coal (Available Now for Collabor88)
Dean:
Hair: Wasabi Pills - Sebastian Mesh Hair
Skin: VCD - Rafael Skin in Tone 1 Shaved
Makeup: ASTOMIN - Eyes MakeUp 001 (No Longer Available)
Shirt and Vest: Mr.Poet - Military Drape GreatCoat Set inBlack (Available now at The Men's Department)
Trousers & Shoes: DM DESIGN'S - Savyll Tuxedo in Black
Pose: Signature Pose - Santa's Throne