Hot in a Heatwave

I wanted to get back to blogging with a bang... I wanted to throw myself into blogging and use it as I always have - it's always been a form of therapy for me and now that things happened two weeks ago I'm finding that I really need an outlet where I don't have to face people just yet... There's only one problem... WHY IS IT SO GODDAMN HOT?! 

YES YES I know that it's Summer and we're supposed to be this hot... Yes yes I KNOW that in Holland it's not as hot as other places in Europe like Spain where the temperatures are in the mid-40s every day at the moment... It's STILL way too hot for this part of the world where the houses are built to keep the warm in and the cold out. 
I'm trying to find somewhere I can be alone and cool so I can cry and dwell in the past in peace... Both of these things are hard to do, everywhere right now is SO FUCKING HOT!

What is she wearing;
Hair: [monso] - Noelia Hair in Black & Red
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Top: miss chelsea - Leni Set in Top
Shorts: miss chelsea - Leni Set in Shorts
Fan: Boutique #187 - Black Quotes Fan
Pose: -Extra- - Wildflower, Pose 1 (Available  August 1 - 23rd at Smokefest 2026)
Tissues: Puddles - Tissues for your issues
Backdrop: K&S - // Forest Nest. Backdrop

Amsterdam's Pride

Hello out there, remember me? I'm that girl that used to ramble on about nonsense in every blogpost I wrote, usually accompanying that with a silly picture that I loved but most people probably thought was a bit bonkers... I've had a bit of an unexpected absense recently... I've alluded to things in the past but mid house move, we had an emergency in RL and I had to make another mad dash back to the UK... I'm not really ready to talk about it yet, but I will in time, even writing this is making me emotional... 
Still, I NEED to start finding some semblance of normality... I'm back in Holland now, and since it's a special day in Amsterdam, I'm going to use it as a gentle way to get back to blogging... 

Today is Amsterdam Pride... Not being proud of Amsterdam - although that is an every day thing for the Amsterdammers that I know and love - although perhaps it's a good day to be proud of the city and it's people. A day when the Netherlands shines as a Gay capital of the world, and Amsterdam being the first city to legalize same sex marriages throws open it's canals for one of the most colourful parades in the world... I LOVE Amsterdam Pride every year, this year we're hosting World Pride too which makes it seem extra special. I just wish I was feeling strong enough to go and join the fun!!! Everyone should be celebrating love today... Love is one of the most important things a person can have, it's one of those very important things that keeps me going... I'm going to enjoy a little love today, celebrate Pride a little more and enjoy some special churros and maybe a little puff-puff-pass action?! 
HAPPY AMSTERDAM WORLD PRIDE DAY!!!!

What is she wearing;
Flags: Junk Food - Pride White Headband
Hair Accessory: miss chelsea - Love Pride Headband
Hair: Wasabi - Joyride Hair in Offbeat
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Make-Up: Keymoko - Pride Set (Past Gift!) (No Longer Available!), Palette - Pride Hearts (No Longer Available!) & Izzie's - Rainbow Glitter Freckles
Outfit: [RED GIRL] - Reese Shorts Overall Pride (Past Event Gift!)
Badges: Grandma's House - Pride Pins (Past Event Gift!)
Food: andika - "Pride Heart Churros" (Past Event Gift!)
Pose: [PiXit] - Beatrice, Pose F5
Leaf Friends: Junk Food - Weed Plushies
Clouds: kotte - Cloudy
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Tunnel of Love

BBQ by the Pool

It's the Summer now, I'm desperate to let myself enjoy it. HellBone and I are close the point of being able to move back home and we're planning for it to happen on Thursday IF we can... There will still be things we need to collect, cleaning that we need to do, but once we're over in our actual home, then I can think about making the daunting trip home to see my mum for the last time... I HOPE I make it in time, I hope I can get through a goodbye and carry on living without her... I cannot talk about it right now though, as I'm about to start crying... Let's think about something different, food is always a good distraction? Right?  

Since it's Summer there is only one type of food I have a desire to eat... It comes in different variations but BBQ Food is just what Summer requires... 
Today I decided to set up the BBQ at the Poolside - which is an old but still amazing backdrop from FOXCITY - and got HellBone to get his Grilling hat on... He's the king of the BBQ in our house... I set up the amazing Moo Sprinkler - from Krescendo - so that I could enjoy it as I floated around in the pool while waiting for the Cookout Feast - from Junk Food - and a portion of HellBone's Famous BBQ Platter - a release that was discounted this weekend from the amazing Lucas Lameth... Now I'm drooling, luckily I can hide that in the pool LOL... 

What is in the picture:
Front Plate: Junk Food - Cookout Feast Plate 1
Sprinkler: [Krescendo] - Moo Sprinkler
Table Plate: (Lucas Lameth) - Famous BBQ Platter
BBQ: Junk Food - Grilling Set v1
Chair & Table: CHEZ MOI - Maluma Beach Set Items
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Poolside

Shark Bites are Ouchies!

I NEED to do something silly and whimsical today or I am going to actually drive myself nuts... I had NO IDEA what I wanted to do, and in RL we have been so busy moving things around so that HellBone and I can move back home sometime next week that we're both getting frustrated and tired. It feels like we've not done much today but we did a LOT and tomorrow there will be a LOT more to come too... 
So right now I NEED something fun and silly before my head implodes! Dramatic I KNOW, but it is what it is now... So that's why this happened... 

I decided to take the dogs for a walk down at the beach by the Baywater Lighthouse - a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - and we had one of those magical moments where as soon as they hit the water, they transformed into adorable little Shark Pups - from Aardvark - SUPER Cute and super fun... I pulled on a hat so that I could join in the fun, and was told that this Chomper Shark Hat - from Junk Food in the weekend sales this week - would keep me safe... Apparently it was the wrong information... One of the shark pups was a little hungry, and decided to take a Shark Bite - which is the shark on my leg and part of the Beach Day Gacha Collection from Mug at Equal10 now - outta my leg... OUCH!

What is she wearing;
Hat: Junk Food - Chomper Shark Hat
Hair: ARGRACE - CHIZURU in Reds
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Goggles: STOIC - SUMMER GOGGLES
Body drips: Izzie's - Wet Body & Face
Shark Leg & Outfit: Mug - Beach Day Gacha Items in Fun Bikini RARE & Shark Bite Blue (Available until August 5th at Equal10)
Pose & Floatie Prop: [piXit] - Summer Vibes, Pose 1F2R
Shark Puppies: Aardvark - Shark Pups
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Baywater Lighthouse {360}Backdrop in BLUE

Clouds in Heaven

My mind is in weird and icky places at the moment, I'm dealing with a lot... I have my house work getting closer to being done and I NEED to get moved out of this place I'm temporarily living in. I also have things going on with my mum... I've mentioned it before but she's got cancer and it's getting worse, very very quickly... I'm preparing myself for the worst at this moment. Please don't hate me... Please forgive me for being sad and lost in my unhappy mind... I need to distract myself... 

My mind went into fantasy mode, but then even that went back to the way it has been... Thinking about the things that may happen soon with my mum... 
So when I ended up as and angel in the clouds, gathering together the spirited pets of our family past.. Gus mum's favourite cat, and Izzy our dog, came to be ready for when Mum decides that it's time to join them... I am so scared about that moment, but I am trying to remain positive... I want to do something pretty... 

What is she wearing;
Cloud Halos: (Upper): Tentacio - Heaven Set in Heaven Halo 2 & LuluB! - CloudHead in Blue Sky
Hair: [monso] - Anya Hair in Black & Red
Eye Clouds: Tentacio - Cloud Candy in Cry Me
Make-Up: FATHER - Cloud Blush & The Horror! - Angel Blush in Blue
Necklaces: random.Matter - Ferryn Set in Necklace & Choker
Fur: CURELESS[+] - Alpine Fur in PURE
Wings: Doe - Ethereal Wings 01 in BGY
Body Paints & Glitter: Izzie's - Body & Face Glitter & FOREST FANTASY STORE (Now Faunus) - Galaxy Demon & Half Demon in Blue
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Outfit: Yuni - Sang Outfit in [WHITE]
Magical Sparkles: Cole's Corner - Starstuff, Glitterati & The Fantastical Nebulous Aether, everfaery - Starfield Aura & Aii - Astral Smoke
Pose: [piXit] - Beatrice, Pose F5
Animal & Extra Clouds: kotte - Cloudy
Background: K&S - // Knockin on Heavens Door. Backdrop 

A Laundry Day Discovery!

I'm having one of those days, the kind of days when your brain is so messed up, and you've forgotten that you've already blogged something but then you remember it's OK, it's laundry day anyway... I have so much laundry since I have yet to unpack from my trip home... Some things still smell like the laundry detergent that my parents use... I guess though it's time that I suck it up and do some laundry...

I did a lot of laundry at home when I was helping my dad with things for him and mum, but there's always some stuff that I have to wash... 
When I was playing with my clothes in Second Life, I discovered that there was a lot laundry to get done there too... I tend to wear outfits so often and then I never see them again after a week's wearing of them LOL... Perhaps I should wash them before I put them away... So I grabbed all of my dirty wash and headed on down to the Bubble Bliss Laundromat - a backdrop from K&S - and started sorting my clothes into the machines... 
It was then that I made the crazy discovery... A friend of my Dad's, the pigeon named Walter - a release from YOKAI for the Animal Party that can be found until July 10th at Kustom9 - happened to sneak into my luggage and he was only just found... Luckily it was me and not my cat that found him... 

What is she wearing;
Hair: TRUTH & Wasabi - Doremi in Redhead
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Glasses: Boutique #187 - Metal Frame Sunglasses
Bird Friend: YOKAI - Animal Party pt.II in Pigeon RARE (Available until July 10th at Kustom9)
Necklace: AsteroidBox - Sylvia Chains
Top: miss chelsea - Nara Set in Top
Overshirt: Mug - Jett Top in Black Flannel
Jeans: miss chelsea - Nara Set in Jeans
Pose: {NANTRA} - Norma Jean, Pose 4
Puppies: JIAN - Scruffy Shepherds in 12. Laundry Pups
Bottle: Deco Franzy - Laundry Detergent in 'Refresh Mountain'
White Basket: dust bunny - Laundry Corner in Laundry Basket
Backdrop: K&S - // Bubble Bliss Laundromat. Backdrop

Jelly and Underwater Bathtime!

Guess who made itn back home to the Netherlands?? That's right, me... Guess who doesn't really want to be here in the Netherlands?? If you guessed me, then well done you're also right! Honestly it's always hard to leave my parents and the family home that I grew up in but this time was the worst yet... I've been hinting about my mum being sick, and well, it is actually much worse than I thought. I'm not sure how long we will have left with her and honestly the news has broken me into a million little pieces and I'm warning you now I may not be my usual random, bubbly self for a while... Please forgive me... Please bear with me... Please don't give up on me if I'm sporadic or depressing...
Anyway, for now, it's Sunday Night, and as always that means it's bathnight... 

I decided that I needed to do something to cheer myself up and it was to take my bath somewhere fun... I discovered the Underwater Bathroom - a backdrop from Synnergy.Tavis - and while the water and bubbles were lovely. It was soothing and comforting and when I dared look up through the window, I came face to face with some adorable little Jellyfish Companions - which are a MishMish release for June's Kustom9 Event, that still runs until July 10th - who were dancing around in the bubbles... 
It didn't really help my mood, and although I wanted to enjoy their cute little hijinks, even though it did marginally help, the tears are yet to stop flowing... As I said, please bear with me... I will be OK soon... I think...

What is she wearing;
Hair: ARGRACE - SHIMIZU in Reds
Skin: amara beauty - Freya in Ivory
Tears: Izzie's - Little Tears, Izzie's - Smeared Mascara in Smokey Tears & KitCat - Constella Tears
Bubbles on Body: MIWAS - Bubble on me in White
Soap: KitCat - Soapy in Bar Soap Decor
Pose: FOXCITY - Milk Bath, Pose 5
Jellyfish: MishMish - Jellyfish Companion (Available until July 10th at Kustom9)
Floating Bubbles: Half-Deer - Bubbles
Backdrop: Synnergy.Tavis - Underwater Bathroom {360} Backdrop