Ever have those days where your inner voice is screaming louder than normal, especially screaming about those faults you find in yourself?! Anxiety, Regret, Stress, Pain and Depression seem to be a fairly common thing these days, and although by no means I am dismissing this, it really does show a sign of our times. I myself suffer from anxiety attacks, massive amounts of stress and a feeling that I'm never going to be good enough. Luckily, unlike some, I am able to keep it in check most of the time, and I've gotten very good at hiding it from the world, but there are just some days when these feelings bubble to the surface... Days a little like today...
It's times like these that I feel really thankful for being able to log into Second Life, so that I can drift off into my own little world and find my therapy. The therapy in question for me is taking pictures and writing here. My blog - although often full of fun and random stuff - has always been something like a journal for me. I use it to help me relax, to make me forget the world around me and focus on something productive. On days like today, this blogging space is vital for me!
Now I know that the pose and backdrop I've chosen for this post today may seem a little counter-productive for the message that I am trying to share, BUT actually the visual of it is really helping me. The backdrop - created by FOXCITY - really speaks to me. I know I over-think things, and comments like these will ALWAYS leave me floundering, my brain rushing to the most extreme scenario! The pose - from Reve Obscura - is such a true statement. My fears always cause the outcomes of anxiety, stress and in some cases bouts of depression! I will fully admit to this... I know what triggers these things but I am often powerless to stop it. Yet it's times like this, when I can sit back and channel my energy into my blogging journal that things become clear and sense can be made of it in my head.
Again, I will say that this does not diminish the way that others may feel. I am not saying it's a good thing for everyone, and not suggesting that my own thoughts are worse than anyone else's. That's not the point I want to make here... This works for ME, we all have our own systems of handling things. I don't really do this for anyone besides myself, but I do want to spend a moment to reach out to anyone that ever reads my blog or checks out my pictures to say THANK YOU! Thank you for being on the ride with me, thank you for letting me express myself, and I hope that even if it's just for a second or two it can make you feel happy... I know it makes me happy!
What is she wearing;
Hat & Hair: [RunAway] - Ofelia Hair in Reds
Skin: Glam Affair - Seya in Europa 2
Arm Band: DirtyLand - Cigarettes Armband (No Longer Available!)
Dress: Razor - Cotton Tube Dress in Bad Bones (Available until April 18th at LootBox Gacha)
Pose: Reve Obscura - Mind
Backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth - Mixed Feels (Available for use at Backdrop City)
Finally I have a free day, I don't know what I'm going to do with myself but it's a day off all to myself and that is something that does not happen all that often. I think there will be much in the way of cleaning and maybe even some self pampering... It's about time I could just relax with a face mask and hide from everything LOL...
Rudh needs a little care and a lazy day too, I mean look at her, she's worn out!!! Lazing on the floor after finishing the decorating of her new cute little house. Her hair is getting a bit faded and all she can do is smoke a cigarette and watch the clouds through the window when taking a break from counting the cracks in the ceiling!
I think it's time that both of us took a bit of a break, thank goodness I'm going to be going to visit my family in the UK soon!
For now though I'm going to leave Rudh to relax, smoke a cigarette and maybe, just maybe, redye her hair LOL...
What is she wearing;
Hair: Tableau Vivant - Editorial in Laying Funky
Skin: Glam Affair - Seya in Europa 2
Dress: Vinyl - Hailee Dress in Classic Green
Pose & Prop: -Extra- - Looking Up
Such a gorgeous Sunny Sunday! I love the warmth of the sun at the moment - it's not too hot, just perfect the way that I love it. I'm definitely not a Summer girl but the warm gentle sunshine of the Spring makes me feel good. Plus, you might have noticed by now but I'm crazy about Spring Flowers.
I want to find a place where I can get lost like this in RL, somewhere quiet and happy, where I can hear the buzzing of the bees, the singing of the birds and smell nothing but grass and flowers as I frolic in the sunshine.
I got so excited by a release from Mug in a gacha at LootBox Gacha. The Flower Child Gacha Collection includes Daisies for everywhere... All over the face, all over the chest and all over the arms, as well as these rare Flower Child Shorts.
Also while we're talking about LootBox I have to point out the rings, once again they are too teeny in the picture but I'll add the ad poster here too. These are the Ama Carmel Gacha Set, a collection of rings and other jewellery that screams pretty girlie Springtime.
What is she wearing;
Hair: Lamb - Sunshower in Reds
Skin: Glam Affair - Seya in Europa 2
Top: [I<3F] - Top [04]
Daisies: Mug - Flower Child Gacha Items (Available until April 18th at LootBox Gacha)
Rings: Ama - Carmel Gacha Set (Available until April 18th at LootBox Gacha)
Pose: FOXCITY - Me Time, Pose 5
Flowers: Heart - Wild Summer Meadow
Bicycle: dust bunny . Con - Emma Flower Bicycle
Now that I'm a grown up, one of the things that I find I miss most is the days when things were simple and all I had to worry about was school. I will fully admit that I was a kid that loved school, I wasn't the smartest or most popular, and I definitely wasn't one of the most sporty kids, but all that aside I LOVED school. I loved learning and if I had the chance I'd be heading back to University to take a Masters degree!
In England, we had to wear school uniforms and I was always a little jealous of Americans that were able to wear their own clothes. Whenever Rudh feels like going to school she has that privilege, no icky uniforms for her, and when she goes she's little miss popular!
Walking down the corridor about to head into her classroom, she waves at her friends at the end of the hall...
A simple outfit of adorable tank top and denim shorts, with the addition of this super cute Backpack... All of this outfit is actually parts of the Oubliette "Neo Witch" Gacha Collection available now at Gachaland. This outfit had to be worn like this as her new piercing that runs between her shoulder blades is still a bit sensitive! It's a new Zombie Suicide Back Gems Piercing!
Waving to her friends before she darts into the classroom...
What is she wearing;
Hair: RunAway - Babsy Hair in Reds
Skin: Glam Affair - Seya in Europa 2
Piercing: Zombie Suicide - Rigged Back Gems
Outfit (Including Backpack): Oubliette - Neo Witch Gacha Items (Available until April 31st at Gachaland)
Pose: {NANTRA} - Taxi, Pose 1M (Available until April 26th at The Liaison Collaborative)
Backdrop: AMI:HAI - 99.9% School (Available for use at Backdrop City)
I am really getting into this Spring Feeling at the moment. I cant stop playing with pretty colours and flowers... There's so many flowers that I want to play with them all. I've said it before and will say it again, I love Spring - not so much as Autumn - I love all the colours and it brings out my girlie side.
One of the things that I get most into when I'm being girlie is my inner Fae... Yes I know I have a lot of inner fantasy beings but Mermaid and Living Dead Doll aside, the Fairy version of me is one that I LOVE playing with... It's times like today, when I really cannot hold her back!
I blame it on the simply gorgeous Neodeesha outfit, created and released by 1313 MockingBird Lane for the current round of LootBox Gacha - available until April 18th! This pretty set is available in a range of colours with the wings and the rainbow versions as special RARE releases in the machine.
While on the subject of Lootbox though, I should take a second to point out the adorable Teddy Bear from the Teddy Bears Garden Collection, also available at LootBox by Yokai... So much Springtime cuteness in a collection of Teddy Bears.
I've also got a couple of things here that are not LootBox, but still really pretty and needing a look at more closely. First are the rings that she's wearing, these are from Ama for Bloom - available now until April 7th - and they are so delicate but so pretty. The other item that needs a closer look is her gorgeous necklace from [Fetch]. The Harper Set is available together or separately at the current round of Uber. Since both of these things are not so clear in the main photo but I HAD to share them as they are too pretty not to, so I've been good and included the ads for your viewing pleasure too!
What is she wearing;
Hair: Limerence - Jinger Hair in Fatpack Rare
Skin: Glam Affair - Seya in Europa 2
Necklace: [Fetch] - Harper Set (Available until April 22nd at Uber)
Outfit: 1313 Mockingbird Lane - Neodeesha Gacha Collection (Available until April 18th at LootBox Gacha)
Rings: Ama - Spring Roses Ring Set (Available until April 7th at Bloom)
Teddy: Yokai - Teddy Bears Garden Gacha Item in Floral Teddy Cornflower (Available until April 18th at LootBox Gacha)
Pose: FOXCITY - Effortless V1, Pose 1
I love being a blogger, I love being a photographer more. I'm not by any means a professional and really consider it my hobby, even though I have some amazing stores that definitely honor me by allowing me to be a part of their blogging team. Yet despite that, sometimes I have to stop and think "this one isn't for a reason, this is just because I want to do something for me!" It's kinda like a therapy of sorts I guess. Today is one of those days! After a stressful day at work, there's no better way to relax!
I've come home, slipped into my comfy lounge wear - and yes thrown off my bra - now it's time to curl up with a good book and a cup of tea, snuggling down and avoiding the Hailstorm until bedtime! I'm going to be lazy, snoozy, until the moon comes up, just like the Magical little Rudh in her Sunrise Adria outfit - by Plastik, that's the Rudh wearing white on her knees sleeping on the lap of the moon Rudh by the way.
Snuggled up, cuddling the moon seems like the perfect place for a magical girl like Rudh to fall asleep, especially if she has a friend like Moon Rudh to cuddle. Moon Rudh twinkles gently - wearing a Sleepy Star Outfit by bonbon - and reassures the sleeping Sunrise Rudh, until their rolls are reversed and the sunrise soothes the night!
Just for the record, and because it is in fact the entire reason I randomly came up with this, I want to point out the pose used. It's a release by -Extra- but looking at it now you wouldn't think that it's actually one that's advertised with a slightly BDSM feel to it. It goes to show really well that a pose like "His Pet" can be used in more situations than just the one used to display the pose for the advert! I love this kind of versatility!!
What is she wearing;
Blue Rudh:
Outfit (Including Hair, Dress, & Accessories): bonbon - Sleepy Star Gacha Items
Skin: Glam Affair - Seya in Europa 2
Shoes: REIGN - Glitter Petal Jumpers
White Rudh:
Hair: Doe - Londra in Gingers
Skin: Glam Affair - Seya in Europa 2
Outfit (Including Boots): Plastik - Adria Magical Girl Gacha Items in Sunrise Sets
Pose: -Extra- - His Pet
Moon: MishMish - Sitting on the Moon (No Longer Available!)
Pigs, Stars & Planets: MishMish & !Ohmai - Supernova (No Longer Available!)
Backdrop: bonbon - Sleepy Star Gacha Item in Backdrop RARE
Today I feel like celebrating the Spring just a little more, with another trip to Ostara's Altar.
This is all about the Wiccan - or perhaps Pagan - tradition of welcoming the Spring and all the changes that come with it, such as the new life, the new beginnings and even the general changes that the start of the year entails. Now I'm not a Wiccan, but I can fully get behind these kind of celebrations. It's great to celebrate change - even though I'll fully admit that it tends to bring out the anxiety in me!
So today I'm going to dedicate a gift to the gods, and thank them for the newness, the freshness and the Spring!
There was so much choice in the releases from the design team behind Ostara's Altar that a girl is spoilt for choice!
In the Magic Within Altar Room - a release from SynCo - you'll find the LORE Moon Stone, the best place for leaving a dedication to the Gods. Since it's Spring, and I'm living in Holland I've been bringing our national flower, bunches of Tulips - thanks to LODE at Shiny Shabby in the baskets and Tentacio's Tulip Bouquet!
The maidens that leave the dedications at the Altar are dressed to match the magical folk that visit this special, magical place... Each of the maidens wears an Oubliette Flora Dress - this time in a Spell colour combination - with the Vindicator Wings - by Deadly Nightshade - to represent her rank. These things, as well as the Skybox and Stone, are available now at Ostara's Altar, so you too can leave your own offerings to the Gods...
What is she wearing;
Hair Flowers: LODE - Head Accessory Tulips & Cherries in White Pink (Available until April 15th at Shiny Shabby)
Hair: DOUX - Cruz Hairstyle in Basic Pack
Skin: Glam Affair - Seya in Europa 2
Wings: Deadly Nightshade - Vindicator Wings (Available until April 5th at Ostara's Altar)
Dress: Oubliette - Flora Dress in Spell (Available until April 5th at Ostara's Altar)
Tulips: Tentacio - Tulip Bouquet
Pose: Secret Poses - Lemonade, Pose 1
Statue: {LORE} - Moon Stone (Available until April 5th at Ostara's Altar)
Tulip Baskets: LODE - Decor Tulips & Cherries in Pink (Available until April 15th at Shiny Shabby)
Skybox: SynCo - Magic Within Altar Room (Available until April 5th at Ostara's Altar)
